nothing feels real, i feel like im dead but just living for no reason, everyday has been the same for the past 6 years, same routine, never ending cycle of the same shit, nothing feels real, its a really weird feeling and i find it so hard to explain, how the fuck can i feel alive again? nothing brings me happiness or fulfillment, i dont go outside, i live in my room, no friends, in a toxic ldr... everything is just fucked, HOW CAN I FEEL ALIVE AGAIN? and dont tell me go outside and make friends
hold a victory pose https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Victory_pose
>>34855733The best advice I got from a doctor was this:>exercise 30 minutes a day to the point where you are sweating>Do something everyday that challenges youYour actions are keeping you in a loop. Literally make yourself do something new, and see how you feel after.
>>34855733The world outside is hell.Rent in my area starts at $1600 a month for a 1 bedroom apartment. My aunt lives in one with 4 other people and they have a mattress in the "living room." I just spent $200 for the equivalent of two and a half weeks of groceries. My morning breakfast sandwich and coffee cost me $20. I have to pay $300 tomorrow for my phone bill + car insurance.Everyone I see outside is some type of mixed race mutt. Today at target I saw a 6'5 mixed brown goblin ginger (with light eyes and an afro) walking around. Every other kid is mixed race mystery meat. All the women under 40 (and some over) dress like whores, even the kids. I saw a 7 year old wearing crop tops and a yoga pants.Can someone tell me why I should show up to an interview for a second job on Monday?
>>34855733Meet new people until you figure more about yourself and how to live
