No this isnt a boo-hoo pity me post. Im american, I cant afford healthcare, I cant hold a job, and my family are abusive to me. I am facing homelessness followed by a very slow and prolonged death within the next year or two because of denials from healthcare I have plus me being about to totally lose my healthcare coverage anyways. Its a story too long for here. Basically, I just want to ask on advice for what might be the best ways to go out. Ive made up my mind already, and I want to be able to do it somewhere outside in the woods where I feel most at peace. The only stipulations I really have are that I do not think I can get a gun, which is really what I would have wanted. Im very much scared of falling deaths or trauma to the head too as I feel like I want to retain the good memories I have as it happens. Im considering hanging, or an overdose on medication. Unfortunately I do not really have a lethal dosage of anything prescription with me, and I dont think I will be able to lie my way into something like it. I dont think pain is too much of an issue otherwise. Im in chronic pain already, so things that hurt a lot wont be too much of an issue I think. I went to an inpatient therapy place before a couple years ago for depression reasons, and someone I met told me they found a place to buy stuff that he drank which almost killed him but he was found by a stranger. He didnt tell me more, and Im not expecting anyone to have knowledge of this either. Its just a shot in the dark thing to mention. I really dont know much about vpns or buying stuff online like it. Ive been doing a lot of reading on lostallhope.com for methods and im trying to find more informative ways to go out. I just want to be at peace.Please dont spend time saying that I should keep going or mention god or anything like it. Its not really going to be helpful at this point. Ive made up my mind, and I am simply looking for ways to die by my own choosing in a place that is beautiful.
>>34855779why not just get THC for your pain?
Ive tried weed before and it just gives me panic attacks. Plus, I cannot afford it. I dont want to mitigate the suffering and make it last longer, i just kinda want to make it go away entirely.
Im currently thinking of trying something with helium. Im starting to look up where you even get it from and then just using something as simple as a plastic bag and some tape around the neck to keep the helium inside after you get a hose in there along side yourself.
Sometimes i think being mauled by a bear or big cat. if u can land one stab or punch it will be a knights deathPlus youll get to go hiking and camping. Unless a human finds you first. They might rape you before killing
Do you not have medically assisted suicide in your country?>americanOh. That's easy. Shoot a cop. They'll take you out of your misery very quickly. Or hell, just wave a fake gun around.
I think being mauled to death is a bit too scary of an idea. The whole point is to die in *less* pain than what is coming to me if I dont take the easy way out sometime sooner lmao. I also dont want to intentionally hurt someone else like a police officer, friend. And medical assistance in dying stuff is both extraordinarily hard to make happen, and here im not in a state where its even legal. I did look that up before coming here.
>>34855838If i was gonna die painless tho, drowning is my preferred way. Going for a big swim before dying seems nice
I am really considering trying to drown, actually. Theres a lake near me that I can use. Im just not sure if I really have the self determination or the willpower to force myself to stay under long enough. That sense of panic and the body's automatic responses to being near death can easily override the rest of your decision making. Basically, im scared ill be too much of a wimp to actually go through with drowning and I am especially scared of being saved and left with brain damage *and* chronic illnesses.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kt4rWLVAW5g
Im a decent lap pool swimmer but i dont have confidence id resurface from open waterIf u have any big restaurants where u live, try to get a job in the kitchen. Good place for outcasts if u can stay on your feet. The big names offer health, prob where im headed next. Havnt been to the dentist in ages
>try to get a job in the kitchenhey man i dont know if you read the post but im quite literally dying slowly and painfully, mostly complications from a brain tumor and a series of stupid fucking mistakes and neglect from the US healthcare system. I do not want to get a job right now thats not in the cards. Im trying to die quicker not make myself just want to die even more badly
>>34855779might as well just do all the drugs and engage in every risky behaviour
Unfortunate circumstances. Last post for me. best of what luck u have leftWhen its my time it will involve deep water. Maybe combo intoxication and other factors
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>>34855890Holy fuck learn how to reply to posts. Your posting style is annoying
>>34855779>Im american, I cant afford healthcareYou're also a fucking idiot, because hospitals can't legally refuse you for inability to pay. Just go to the emergency room and get your free healthcare like a normal poorfag, they will get reimbursed by the government. Either medicare or medicaid, don't remember which, but one of those programs pays the hospital for indigent care services.
>>34857007Either way he's going to be homeless which is worse than death or he'll just be stabbed to death by a druggy
>>34855779Plane ticket to Preikestolen Norway. Instant death when jumping. Zero pain. Zero room for things going wrong.
>>34857080OP is just doing some gay ass cultural shaming. He knows this, he just wants to put more blame on something and hope we don't think deeper than surface level so we can give him more sympathy.I hate people like that so I'm all for him finding ways to kill himself. Maybe look up an escape bag, op. Idk you do you.
>>34857007If they make him pay for it he can also always declare bankruptcy, which is what poor people do all the time in America to get health care. A lot of people tend to think every loan is like a student loan, but in fact student loans are the only ones you're legally obligated to pay back.
>>34855831>Im currently thinking of trying something with helium.Don't. You can't buy pure Helium any more, it always has added oxygen. If you use that you'll probably end up alive but with permanent brain damage.
>>34855863You will float so drowning might not work.You could try buying cyanide on the dark web. Easiest method by far would be making a noose.
>>34855779Are you fucking dumb?>Get into huge medical debt by getting the best procedure to remove the tumor and chemo.>Take out a huge loan, and sell everything that is not purely needed>Set up resources for once you are out of a house>Stay the 6 months until the eviction is enforced>Declare bankrupcy>Leave and use the resources you established to start a new life and plan from thereYou were given one last chance to try something wild or die, you are chosing to mope about it. Chin up and try. There is no point dying to prove a system is broken.
>>34857279shooting yourself in a lake so you drown if the shot doesnt kill you is easier
>>34857328If you somehow miss your own head at point blank range that is a skill issue not gonna lie.
>>34857356I mean you can technically still survive a gunshot to the head and be handicapped you know
>>34855890Doctors don’t know how fast you’re dying. They stick you in the middle of average statistics. I have been dragging around a similar diagnosis, for decades. You don’t need the internets help to kill yourself. You need more money.
I havent been back to this post for a while. Genuinely how could i get cyanide? I think that could work. I just dont know how to navigate the dark web at all. Im also not very familiar with this site yet, so not sure how to really say im the person who made the original post or anything.I dont want to be alive anyways. This ife just really isnt worth it to me. Im too weak, im a coward, yadda yadda. All of your insults are correct. I am pathetic. I do really just want out really bad.
>>34855779What health issues
