I met who I thought was my soulmate and we go back and forth flying out to see eachother andI keep ruining it. I lie, I talk shit about him, I cut myself infront of him after getting wasted. I’m a horrible person. He’s always so nice to me and I let my mistrust get in the way. I don’t want to get to know anyone else but he wants nothing to do with me I don’t think I’ll ever be in love again. My love is evil though. I have th desire to be abused but I also partly want to be good because I am miserable. I’m worried I’ll be in an endless cycle of this bullshit.Has anyone else had to move on from stuff like this? How do you do it? Can I fall in love again? How do I meet people??I kind of want to hold onto hope I can be better and he’ll accept me again but he would be stupid to do so.
>>34858491So you are a female acting like a massive whore because "emotions" or something? Right?Go do therapy, it was actually designed for people like you.
>>34858504I’m on medication, therapy didn’t seem to work
>>34858512>therapy does not seem to workYou should also see a different therapist if the current one is not working. You also need to engage in it and take it seriously, not just be physically there while mentally absent.Discarding therapy entirely is you trying to self sabotage.
>>34858520Okay I’ll make moves to go back, but it just seems like every therapist eggs me on.
>>34858491Soulmates, impossible to lose each other. Know I'd take you in every way in person.
>>34858582Feeding into my desire to be loved regardless of my ability to be healthy in a relationship So mean
>>34858491You definitely have a mental disorder if i had to guess its borderline personality disorder.Apparently a therapeutic method called DBT (Dialectal Bhaviour Therapy) is supposed to help BPE.But I call bullshit on that because therapy doesn't work.You can't wait for the world or someone else to fix you. Someone talking to you about your feelings isnt going make all of your problems go away.If you want to cure yourself of your personality disorder you to need to attain enlightenment by establishing control of your mind.How to become enlightened:1. Put yourself through physical and mental torment.I.e. Put your hand in ice water for ten minutes.Spend hours doing something creative like drawing or writing, then destroy it once your done.2. Stop yourself from making facial expressions. By having an expression, it tends to draw out emotions and it will give your face wrinkles.3. Resist all temptations, if you feel the need to act on your BPE, sit down and don't let anything distract you, and wait there until the urge goes away, wait for as long as it takes.
>>34858597Ill be unhealthy with you, and we will balance each other out. Think of the pleasure we will do to each other
>>34858635>But I call bullshit on that because therapy doesn't work.It works for girls. It was made with them in mind, in fact.
>>34858660Unfortunately you’re probably old>>34858635 I will follow your advice thank you
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>>34858701You really gonna put your hand in ice thinking it will solve your problems?Are you dumb girl?
>>34858718I am incredibly dumb, yes
>>34858729Then don't be, lol
>>34858734Ohh duh
>>34858668>It worksSource, nigga?Far as I know, they get therapy for a year and get a bit better on average.The ultimate advice you can ever give someone is telling them to achieve enlightenment by overcoming their fear and aversion to pain and their desire to engage in self destructive actions. Fact: Anything mainstream is a scam.
>>34858718From what I know, ice is the best way of hurting yourself without causing lasting damage, and unlike stabbing yourself or something. Its a constant stressor. You have to actively resist taking your hand out of it. It definitely will build mental fortitude.
>>34858756>It doesn't workSource nigga?Blah blah blah blah blahAnything I don't like is fake.stfu bitch ass
>>3485870134, I look young though.
>Has anyone else had to move on from stuff like this? How do you do it? Can I fall in love again? How do I meet people??Yes. Fucking up is okay. Continously Fucking up is not.Be better. Try harder.Yes. You met one guy already
>>34858801>Anything I don't like is fake.I said that they get a bit better on average over the course of a year through therapy.Does that sound like I'm saying everything I don't like is fake?I said its a scam because its a huge waste of time and money.
>>34858927Unc, is seriously on /adv/ trying to trick emotionally vulnerable girls into dating him, Lmfao.How are you 34 and still doing this shit? Go to a fucking club or something dog.
>>34858972Im not tricking. Just being myself
>>34858491he wouldn't be stupid to do so if you made serious efforts to fix your problemsyour biggest problem right now though is a lack of self-worth. you can't hope to take care of someone else (and be in a healthy relationship) if you aren't even able to take care of yourself and your own problems. you can't keep acting like you are worthless.your second problem is you should get off your meds. you're self-harming on them. if you can't find a remedy to making that stop, then you should try to revert back to living without them.i'm not a doc so take it with however few grains of salt you want. but docs seem to hand drugs out like candy. it seems like they will hand them to people that are experiencing emotions strongly without a way to cope. but where is cutting yourself going to lead? if you're already on the stupor slide you may as well try getting off to see if it changes things.prove to him you're worth being with.>long distance relationshipthis is a big problem too. long distance relationships are not sustainable. it's a lot of distance. think of how hard relationships are for soldiers on deployment, sailors at sea, wildland firefighters, etc... if you have to fly to see them for a short period, it's as tough if not worse than those. and all those professions have relationship issues.good luck
