up until about may of this year ive always had a decent amount of energy despite being a depressed thc-addicted friendless loser with no real hobbies. late last year, around october, i stopped working out and started drinking vodka every day after work just to make my life a little bit more fun, and it worked for a while, i was still able to wake up the next day and go to work, even if i was still a bit drunk or hungover. then, starting in may, ive just been feeling like shit all the time. not in a hungover way, just my muscles are tired, i wake up tired, puke every other morning even if i dont drink the night before, i always feel a little bit sick, my organs dont feel right, and im always closing my eyes when i have a second. now when i drink i dont really get drunk, my words just get slurred and my movements become harder to do, but i dont feel drunk. on top of that, mentally im completely drained, my social battery is absolute zero no matter what even if i do drink and smoke, i don't care about anything in life except getting rich so i don't have to work, i don't even care about getting laid anymore, and none of my indulgences like youtube and burgers are bringing me joy. im feeling anxious about everything, im always worried about getting stabbed or my subway derailing or an elevator dropping out from under me. this past weekend i went to hershy park and i was so afraid of the heights like i was when i was a child, as a teenager and in my 20's i had no problem with roller coasters, now im worried about one little thing going wrong mechanically and flying out of my seat. im 32, ive had colonoscopies before and they didn't find anything, but my uncle did have some crazy form of intestinal cancer that took him out in his 50's. is my testosterone dropping like a rock? is this just what real depression feels like? did the alcohol give me cancer? am i just getting old? i really don't feel like going to the doctor just to have them tell me this is what your 30's are
You should get it checked out. Liver failure sucks.
>>34862386so i looked up the symptoms for liver failure and that seems like it. i take a lot of pharmaceutical pills, and i drink a lot, and i think it caught up with me. going to cut all alcohol out for a few weeks and see how i feel, maybe ill cut it down on the pills too
>>34862020drinking basically dries out your muscles of essential electrolytes and other shit. you likely have kidney damage from the protein shedding since you stopped working out and the drinking is making it worse.
>>34864244Modern pills suck huge balls. For every 1 good pill there is like a 100 that dont work. And there is an insanely high amount of bullshit statistics pushed behind any pill.You really need to do detective work if you want to find a drug that is actually going to help your condition. Believe me, doctors rarely do this they just eat up whatever bs consensus is pushed by pharamcutical companies.If you post your med stack I can take a look and check for red flags.
>>34862020Take anti depressants. It sounds like you've developed depression.
Yeah. Likely liver damage. Too many drugs.
>>34862020You're just uninformed. Inform yourself.>don't care about anything in life except getting rich so i don't have to work, i So do this. Why does all the other shit matter. Irrelevant. Work on attaining your goal.And stop doing substances. Get used to your own body and learning to read its signals.
