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also im broke-ish (less than 10k and CC debt building) and looking for a better job especially since my current retail (which I literally only have because trump won) has cut my hours to basically nothing, but there are no jobs out there it seems, I send my resume/CV to the void and get nothing back, not even rejection, which drives my depression even more, and i drive doordash (which again is only good because trump) on the side just getting by, which constantly puts me close to asian massage parlors that are exactly what you think they are, and they tempting me, i've made topics on it before...and i was spending lots on OF and video chats which didnt seem so bad because really what the fuck am i saving for anymore?

The past few days all I did was jerk off. I've never been that bad. I didn't leave the apt, i didn't eat, i came multiple times. actually i've discovered if im doing that, im not hungry. even when i was done, my mind was a lighthead blur. I was hooked. But the other day, in the shower I decided its a problem and no more. I deleted most the apps i use for chatting and though I'm sure i can't stay away forever i'm tapering off it, im doing errands, sending out hundreds of applications, practice guitar more and run and pushups and shit and saving those apps for maybe once or twice a week.

but again, thats the mindset of thinking things still matter here peaking thru. that if i improve my life and get fit and money and talk to women better, I'd find success. Have the career and hobbies and gf/wife I love and be set for life. But back to what I said in the last post, that doesn't even truly matter anymore. I'm so torn bro.
>>34860115
>99% of women are half humans with no souls
what, do you really think there's a 1% out there anymore? and that they're not already married or broken by their friends and social media society?

This will all go over the majority of the anons here these days, that's fine, I'm making my own thread for this hoping to hear back from the anon that posted the one I linked to, or others that think like him. I want to know more, life seems so hopeless

>>34866887
I’m a Christian but I’m beginning to believe that women are indeed a type of test for men. In what moral world does it make sense to have the specific proclivities women have? Like at least a man can have lust and acknowledge it for what it is. “I want to put dick in pussy” is about as succinctly as you could put it.

But women find a way to contrive their selfish desires into grandiose things that inevitably end in collateral disaster. No responsibility? Let’s just kill babies in our wombs. Raising kids and being a good wife is too hard? Divorce rape. Good dude who does his best isn’t giving me tingles? Guess I’ll cheat and then blame it on him. Postpartum homicide? Well if the patriarchy took better care of us we wouldn’t be killing kids.

I’m a hopeful man. I look at life as half full. But even I gotta call a spade a spade. Women can be beautiful creatures… when they want to get on your good side. Shift a bit to the bad side and you’ll see how much venom they are able to spew.

>>34867393
Ok but all that says what we already know and what I've described in my novel-posts.

Now, what do we do about it? What are you doing about it? What's your life look like? Are you done even trying to have a gf or love or sex?

>>34868001
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>>34868001
Tbh I dunno what to do. I have a gf of 7 years and even though I love her a lot I’m reaching a kind of… I dunno, tipping point. It’s hard to explain.

I don’t think women appreciate the sacrifice a man does when settling down in this day and age. The brand of sex that women want for the eternity of a relationship is not compatible with a man’s natural desire for novelty. This was usually mitigated by women being actual good and feminine wives and the mother of your children, to which you as a husband felt a moral obligation to love and care for her forever even if she got “old and wrinkly”. But we’re not getting that at all now. We’re expected to maintain our patriarchal traditional role while the women gets none of the traditional responsibilty. This isn’t even touching on the divorce rape risk that is almost a guarantee.

So what should we do? I honestly don’t even know. Part of me thinks that at this point I should just accept women’s nature for what it is completely and act accordingly. I had done this a long time ago but I think this year is when it finally clicked. I as an individual can’t do much except help the people around me and give something positive to the world. Worrying about what roasties are doing does nothing for me except raise my cortisol.

So should I just play the game and say fuck it? Stay a bachelor? Become celibate? Be with my dear gf until it ends at some point? I don’t think degenerate promiscuous sex is the answer but I won’t lie through my teeth and say there isn’t something enticing about that. If they’re giving out the milk for free why should I complain?

The other problem is the collective. Men are way too pussy whipped. They will do anything for a whiff and will open their ass cheeks for any woman’s cause because pussy. The simps would never allow any type of change to the current state of things if it means hurting women’s feelings.

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>>34868001
To finish this answer… my life right now is pretty simple. Moved out, working on my business, saving money, making art and improving my social skills. I love life and I take it as a spiritual journey that God permits us to have to learn. I will also never permit for the world, government or people to snuff out my soul. I’d rather be killed. I try not to take anything for granted. I wish the NPCs would wake up but there’s nothing much you can do except try to be a light to the world as Jesus was. That might sound arrogant but I’m saying that as humbly as I can.

In a nutshell? What I’m doing is trying to be a positive light in this world.

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>>34868001
There's nothing bad about a life without sex and romance. The happiest people in history all gave that up voluntarily, because they could see that it doesn't bring a man any closer to fulfillment or purpose. Relationships by nature are samsaric, you should be looking at relationships and sex with the same scrutiny and cynicism that you're using to look at women. Pleasure is just as much of a backstabber as the worst woman alive.

>>34868001
>>34870054
>>34870068
I read more of your posts in depth and I feel ya OP. I’m the same guy with these answers.

I understand feeling like there’s a moral existential crisis. I love socializing and I love parties. But it’s despite the degenerate shit that is blasted around me not because of it. Which has made me feel isolated in many, many cases. In other words, I’m not having a good time because I’m embodying the rappers talking about ass and pussy and grinding but because I’m just going in my own flow and enjoying the people I interact with.

But when everything is satanic and slop, it’s hard not to get saddened by the state of people. Everything good and wholesome is mocked. People you love who are good people are snuffed out with wordly pleasures. I went out and the music would be blasting and I’d felt so alien because I just didn’t resonate with this degeneracy. I still don’t but now I’ve tried to become a bit immune to it. I don’t moralize to anyone but I try to embody in my demeanor some type of unplugging from the matrix slop, to use a cringe but easy to understand term.

But it feels lonely. Friends, family, coworkers. All absolutely miserable consuming this filth. The funny part is that they’re not even enjoying it. They get the dopamine high and then back to the drudgery of existing. I don’t think existence is bad but they do. It’s surprising how normal nihilism has become.

To me the light at the end of the tunnel is that there are people trying to wake up and people like you that at least have the resilience to see the evil for what it is. Be a light, my dude. Don’t let these fuckers snuff out your light.


P.S. my weakness is also titties, so I feel ya on that too.

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>>34870091
I'm not OP, but I used to feel that sense of loneliness and isolation pretty intensely. I had a sort of disgust for modern entertainment and current events, but that was all anyone I met ever talked about. What turned it around for me was getting back into studying philosophy and theology. There may not be many like-minded people today, but if you're willing to look back towards the past there's a wealth of good company. It doesn't really bother me that they're dead or that I can't speak to them in person, because what we're connecting through is something that's outside of and superior to each of us. Or I suppose another way of putting it is that friendship only exists where truth and good will act as an intermedium. So as long as I have a strong relationship with truth and continue cultivating a good will, then I consequently also have a strong relationship with anyone else who lived in the past, or who ever will live in the future, so long as they also loved truth and willed to do good. Despite living a fairly isolated lifestyle I haven't felt lonely in the past five years at all, there's just an abiding sense of being in good company whether I'm around people or alone.

>>34870211
I liked your words, man. They are very comforting. I’ll probably even screencap it. I have also felt enormous comfort reading old texts and books and in a lot of ways, it’s the only company I have for these thoughts aside from a very niche community that I follow. Stuff like philosophy and literature to something as simple as Peanuts have helped me feel not alone and that somebody else has felt what I’ve felt even centuries before. But I’m sad to say I’m probably the only one I know that “feels” it. I know we’re out there but we are very few and far between.

I like your idea that friendship is beyond us and our connection is to something greater. We can at least take comfort that there are people who want to know and share the Truth.

I wish you the very best, friend, and God bless you.

So none of you actually give a shit about having kids especially since your lives went like shit and you wouldn't want your kids to turn out like you or follow what you did and continue to do

Continue jacking off and donating money to various foids just to coom some more

And keep blaming Satan and other strawmen for your eventual misery

>>34871812
Who are you talking to?

>>34870054
>The brand of sex that women want for the eternity of a relationship is not compatible with a man’s natural desire for novelty

Personally, I, OP do actually care for the sex for the eternity of the relationship, provided i love her, which why I'd be with her in the first place. I wouldn't care if we got old and wrinkly together if I loved her, I'd stay loyal. But I've never been married/in a relationship that long, so I can only say that, maybe you've got a different personality after experiencing it for awhile, you got bored. Seems like your life is doing a lot better in general than mine though. You are working on art, are you not threatened by AI? As a musician I'm sorta at the point of why even bother because of it. I don't listen to rap I listen to 80s rock. It was already dead before AI but that's the final nail in the coffin.

also huh how'd my OP file get deleted? the thread is still here right?

>>34873828
> But I've never been married/in a relationship that long, so I can only say that, maybe you've got a different personality after experiencing it for awhile, you got bored.
Put it this way: if a woman is really into you she wants to hump you A LOT. Like, a lot a lot. This is what I mean. A woman will be happy doing that over and over again forever. I don’t care how hot she is, at some point as a man you’re like “can we take a week to just chill?” I’m just being honest with myself: I could do it every day forever too… if it was a different gal every week. They usually oblige if you want some space but women usually take this as a form of rejection. And from my understanding they get even more horny the closer they are to menopause, so it gets even crazier. I guess that’s better than a woman who won’t “put out”, though.

As for art, I’m also a musician. My stuff is a bit more indie/proggy/punk and have gotten good reception, both from millenials and zoomers. There’s a niche for everything. I don’t really worry much about AI. People still resonate a lot if you’re an artist who does DIY. IMO right now the AI panic is a skill issue. AI art is usually pretty bad or if it’s good, there’s an uncanny valley quality to it. So for now, I’m not too worried. People will lose the SOVL in everything, anyways, so I think it’s our job to keep the sovl alive somehow if it gets to the point where AI is indistinguishable from human soul.

As for your own music, it depends. Are you trying to push the envelope or are you merely trying to embody 80s music? I guess each have their place but people can feel when you’re really trying something new. My thought is what’s the point if you’re not doing something weird and new? Even if it sucks at least it sounds unique to you.

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>>34874307
>Are you trying to push the envelope or are you merely trying to embody 80s music?
I mean it depends on the type of song im working on, sometimes I get really into it and go all out on the orchestra/choir elements of it and get real dream theater/VH/Ayreon-y, but a lot of other times I just powerchord and yell my problems out into a mic like old blink 182. I'm mainly just trying to have fun and freewrite like my own therapeutic experience, but also be good at it enough that others would want to listen. I'm not trying to sell out but I can't even find places to get feedback on my shit let alone make money from it. Where do you find your listeners? When I've posted on reddit in the past, in other musicmaking subs, they've completely ignored me, and besides they're filled to the brim with commies and trans now. And I'm pretty sure I'm banned from even trying there now, and its hard to make a new account to get back in. Reddit of the far far past used to say I was good and liked my shit, but they're long gone.
I've put stuff out to youtube in the pre-AI past and gotten some listeners and praise there, nothing huge but it felt good, also regular gigs to sing on Fiverr, but in the now, I get absolutely nothing, while AI covers pop up in the recommends with millions of views. In fact I worked with a producer on my latest song which was an obscure cover, and even paid him a little, and the quality came out so much better than I've ever had in the past, but I got almost no listens. So how do you find anyone, doing what you're doing?

I don't think I'd ever have a problem with a woman I found loving/sexy enough to marry wanting sex with me all the time. As you might remember from my novelpost I'm still even struggling with deciding to see a hooker/AMP for one of the reasons being that it might ruin me for real love if she's still coming somewhere down the line. It would be easy, they're right down the street, all I have to pay is $100, hot asians half my height...

>>34874391
>Where do you find your listeners?
Locally. I ran an ad campaign that went semi-viral (and that’s pushing it but it had enough reach that random people were recognizing the people in the ad video). I also posted on the /mu/ shill threads where you’re guaranteed to get brutal feedback and anons were very receptive there.

I’m not one to advocate for hookers, anon. I can say with utmost honesty that women are like 80% vibes and 20% looks/status/tangibles/money. Not sure what your situation is exactly but I’d much rather put in the effort to at least find a girl from the real world than get some soulless lay. Like, I’d rather stay a virgin at that point, desu. But it depends how much effort you’re willing to put in