> be me, 18> autistic loser with BPD> date an abuser unknowingly> he makes me drop all my friends> stays> won’t get a job or drivers license> stays> starts beating the fuck out of me even though he’s double my weight and 6 inches taller > stays> rape> stays> this goes on for a long ass time, lots of verbal and physical abuse. He even moved out of my house to live with his parents cause living with me was “too hard”> extremely depressed, can’t figure out how to function from this only relationship I have> go to therapy> get prescribed lexapro> start feeling depression and my massive meltdowns disappearing> 2 months later, go to er and find out I have two cysts> dipshit bf ignores me and puts me down when I talk about it> realize I don’t even care anymore and ignore him for two days, then break upIt’s been a week since then and it’s only processing now. This relationship lasted 2 and a half years and taking a fucking medication gave me strength to leave. What do I even do now???
>>34874392you begin healing anon.considering the extend of your abuse, you should seek therapy.alternatively just try to live your best life. for me, doing things that makes me happy is healing. please work on your self esteem so you dont fall into such a situation again.
>>34874392Get a new one and don't stay when they are bad and do an ultimatum if they are
>>34874392BPD fucks are known to get trapped with NPD fucks.Glad you're out of that, go full no contact, block him everywhere, reconnect with your friends and family, you need a support group right now, seek therapy if you show PTSD or C-PTSD signs.And for the love God, no do not seek another relationship just yet.I'm gonna be honest, I feel sorry for you, but people who have been abused and specially BPD have a high tendency of being abusive themselves, you'll just end up hurting someone who loves you. Trust me I was emotionally abused and manipulated by one that I tried dating but I jumped off the boat 3 dates in.
>>34874392If you're a female, you date me instead. Drop your burner discord
>>34874392>rapeIn retrospect, the only reason why everyone of us is alive is because their mother was raped.
>>34874392>Be me>Have BPD GF>She says she wants to hang out with friends>Ok I said, go and have fun you deserve good friends >She cheats and fucks half of them>Tell her to stay away from friends >Heeeeelp I'm being controoooolllled! She cries>Dysfunctional relationship>Finally break up>Get false accusations from her laterFun times
>>34874392>What do I even do now???I think the short answer to that is "take your time". Don't rush into anything, particularly not another relationship. Get yourself a decent therapist, and do the work. Things will get better. I'm afraid they will get better gradually, not rapidly, but they will get better. Hang in there, and try not to make mistakes you've made before. And also don't blame yourself too much for what has happened up till now: abuse messes with your brain, stops you from being able to think clearly, and makes you feel like you're to blame for everything. Actually, almost anyone on the receiving end of abuse like that would have done most of the same things you did. People who haven't experienced it like to think they wouldn't, and won't understand, but they would have.
