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I have PTSD and schizophrenia. I think I was sexually assaulted and raped when I was 18 a few years ago. I have been beaten and raped by women, and men as well I remember snippets of these events clearly. I do feel certain about these memories, they carry an emotional and psychological weight in my mind. I think about this stuff constantly. I remember more details over time. I don't know exactly how this relates, but I have these obsessive hopeless thoughts that I will always be single, etc and because I've been beaten physically by women, and by men too, I think I am holding justified resentment against these people. I am angry about this stuff. Sometimes I yell expletives to myself and it makes me feel a little better. I'm having trouble sleeping and I need cigs all the time.