How can you live a life worth living after doing terrible things for most of it? There's hobbies, careers, volunteering, shallow friendships. But anything deeper with people feels wrong, so what do you do? Hope that one day you meet someone like you so you don't embarrass yourself in front of good people? Get a dog you can't talk to?Would like some answers from ex-pieces of shit who figured this out. I'm still working on my "journey" and am trying to make real amends to the people who love me, so killing myself isn't an option.
>>34876917man is that the seal of truth??I don't know if I'd define myself as a piece of shit, mainly because what I'm dealing with throughout my life was quite normal for an antisocial, shut in, closed up chud piece of shit. huh, I guess I do call myself that.and yeah you kinda got the answer, you do the whole - live outside, get hobbies, interact with people even when Its shallow and try to find the satisfaction in that. I wish I had the answers bro. It is never better than video games, fapping, and being indoors. It's always much more effort for about maximum 80% of the satisfaction. It's horrible GANG. I don't know what to say.It's like KNOWING there's something better, but CHOOSING to do somethinng lesser, because in the grand scheme of things we all need socialization.It SUCKS. But yeah we were born human, this is our burden, we MUST socialize. we must take the people with the bad sides of them.People are the problem, they're also the solution sadly. fuck. I hate it very much man. which is why I avoid everyone whenever I can, but you KNOW you can't live like that gang, you gotta go out there and live at one point.I'm not even black btw I'm just roleplaying. It's all about dopamine, we are slaves to dopamine. if you askked me, wwhat's one thing you'd do until you die?my answer would be, let me be a milk man. literally a fuck machine. i would just work by sitting in a room doin whatever I like, until a girl comes in and I have to breed her. I'd literally live to breed, It's the thing I love the most. don't care about ANYTHING else. seriously. fuck. I'm so fucked.
>>34876917If I were to have sex with someone, I would probably have to emotionally distance myself from them, so that it doesn't feel wrong. It shouldnt be that hard to do that selectively to separate our normal and sex lives.Still not convinced sex is worth the effort of getting and putting up with another person.
>>34876956I don't really care about sex anymore. My energy for it is dead because of everything. There's this girl I really like but when I think about dating her it makes me physically ill
>>34877006Are you guys my people or something?Do you have schizoid personality disorder too?>there's this girl I like.When I said emotionally distance I meant to the point where you didnt think of them as anything, so that the bad feeling would go away.From what ive heard, going into the relationship very slowly, and being clear that you are just going to be friends that live together. Helps to alleviate that feeling without distancing.
>>34877023Yeah, I'm not going to do that. I'm fine if she gets with someone else and I still have someone to play video games with. I don't think I can ever be with someone. I already feel guilty that she is my friend.
