>>34888877Fuck off
Buy an ad faggot
>>34888928Ad for what? A 4chan thread?
I took this picture and I think it turned out pretty good, minus the fact that you can see the edge of my vehicles window. I was surprised he didn't fly away when i parked next to him
>>34888991That's a good photo.
>>34889009I like the ai edit I got for it, too
I'm just a fag. I develop crush on any girl who smiles at me.
Did you know it was me you were talking to every day when we were broke up? Tbh when we got back together I just read alot but I hear you flirting all the time. Imagine what that does for a woman.
Just ignore me and I'll eventually be able to stuff it all down with the rest lmaoIt/I don't matter
See?This is why I don't want a fucking dating app.Do you get it now? If you felt like this imagine how every other woman would.
>>34888991Badass. This would make a really great reference for a painting.
>>34889181If you want to, go for it. I have a couple more shots, too, they're just not as good as the other.
>>34889247Sorry, not that last one
>>34889171>>34889241
I'm seeing how everything you've done and told me since has been for your own self-preservation. All the sweet words, the apologies, the tears. It was all for you to make it out unscathed, and without feeling like a failure for having a "broken family." Your mask cracks sometimes. I see the patterns. When your behavior and tone changes. You're the same one who wrote that shit. The same person that hurt me. Punished me. Over and over. Demanded the right to do worse. Told me it's just the truth, the harsh things you say about me.
You did the same thing he did, albeit better. Played to my empathy. My desire to not abandon anyone, as I was. Fell for it despite everything. Despite having been through it all before. I never fucking learn.
>>34889337Same
>>34888877FUCK I hate having an oral fixation.I want you back just to have you suck me off and for me to give you crazy fucking head. I want to blow a massive fucking load in you right now and it isn't even funny M.I also need to return your Steam Controller dongle, found it randomly, I'll send it by post.
>>34889463Just call her?
>>34889487Blocked on everything sadly. I've suddenly become very caught up on her.Helps that my life has improved a lot.
>>34889487I will add, I post it here as she used to post in here when we first broke up. It is a LONG shot. But, I'd still like to dip my toes and wonder if she'll show up on my doorstep.
>>34889502Is it mary? Mariah? Maria?
>>34889519I should have added another initial, M alone has too much overlap with the designated schizo. It's not Mariah, Maria or Mary sadly if you are someone who actually wants head from a /gioyc/ poster.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAI FINALLY UNDERSTAND ITI FINALLY UNDERSTAND ALL OF ITOH MY GOD I FINALLY UNDERSTAND IT
>>34889529Nope I was just trying to guess, soz. Michaela? Miki? Marissa? Madison?
>>34889549Nope, none of those either, if you do get it, I will say so.
>>34889549Mara? Mia? Monica?
>>34889569Nope, nope and nope.
>>34889576Molly
>married 10 years>LOVE my wife and kids>after our first child, sexlife in the shitter>wife shows almost no affection or attraction to me>shows no desire to go on dates or plan things>shows little/no desire for sex>waits until very late before seemingly acknowledging that I want to fuck, but now im worn out from the day>wont sext or talk dirty - will just ghost me if i talk about it>will say she would try this thing or that thing, but then never do it.. or only do it like once a year>we dont even talk much - its just about things we should/need to do. Not like hopes, dreams, fantasies, religion, politics.. very superficial>i never get phonecalls>i never get texts>i am fucking lonely>at least my boy is always happy to see me and wants to spend time togetherAll that being said, my wife is otherwise a very sweet woman who is pretty, insanely loyal, family lives her and she has been a huge help in our family.I dont need advice. I just wanted to bitch for a minute, because I have no friends/family I can talk to.
Kinda really over the whole depressive unconnected mood I get from my father any time he asks me to do something. In my 20s being a caretaker for him and my mother and any time he asks me to do something it's always in this disconnected and depressive tone and framing that assumes I cant do anything or will only do things for incentives. Never recieved any positive reinforcement of any kind through my entire childhood. The one time I got any was just last year and I broke down in my room and cried cause that was the first time I ever recieved that from my father. He thinks I'm so stupid but never bothered to teach me anything when I was a kid. Im just so sick of my parents being totally incapable of at least pretending a little and giving me some positive reinforcement for anything.
The immediate withdrawal of any caring attentiveness when I'm not catering to their needs and egotistical self-image of a saviour lol
>>34889806Hi, listen. You’re already doing great by sharing your story. And by trying to solve the problem. Believe me, in the future you’ll find someone who will appreciate every moment spent with you. I’m sure you’ll succeed.
Gave you all of myself, bore everything to you. And for what, for you to use it as a blueprint to control and crush me? Does it make you feel bigger, stronger, more like a man? Does it reassure you that I won't leave you?
Already told you what made me sad. A half dozen times before too. I give up. You want to be mad about that, go ahead. I'm too tired. For any of it.
GI BE FUCKING MAD AT ME I DINT GIVE A SHIT YOUVE ALREADY DONE YOUR FUCKING WORST BOO FUCKING HOO talk to you? Why? Fucking why would I do that? To be talked down to, lectured? Given empty words of comfort when nothing will change and you'll just say the same shit next month? I'm so fucking tired I'm too tired don't bother with me in empty and gone and done come for her but don't bother with me I'm fucking dead already thanks
OOOOOHHH I'm sssoooorry my depression and my wounds are t desirable when I'm not crying in your arms and making you feel good and useful huhIt's not fun playing with a corpse is it
>>34889962For real, what do used panties of a smoker smell like?
>>34889858I thought that was a temporary psychosis. I don't get how I'm supposed to fix it.
She's kind of a slagShe's hanging out with old menShe's crazy in the fucking coconutShe uses too much makeup and dresses inappropriately She makes sex jokes every 2 minutesShe's obsessed over who's texting her how and how frequentlyShe's old enough to have multiple childrenBut
im kinda thinking about you
You get mad at me for bringing up things and mad at me for not. I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired.
>>34890056bring them up anyway and see what happend
I quit my last job because they only ever put me on closing shift.My new job is starting to do the same thing.I'm job searching again. I've only been at this new one for a month and a half.I want the FUCK out of food jobs. I'm very good at them, and would stay if they simply offered a work-life balance. They don't. And it's not like I can pull back and be like "hey, I'm no longer available to do these hours." They'll just let me go or shrink my hours to less than 15 a week.I just have to hope someone else gives me a look and a chance.
it's over.
>>34890089Btw, food managers, you can't schedule an absolute skeleton crew and then get mad at them for waiving their breaks. Look at the night sales. All hands were needed from the start to the end. You wanna see breaks, put more closers on deck. You wanna see everyone get out on time, forgive legally waived breaks, we're all adults and have signed the proper forms. Oh, does this push you over on labor? That's because you've overstaffed the AM shift. You have less than ten transactions recorded from 10am to 12pm with five workers on the clock. 7pm to 8pm saw thirty transactions with three workers.Also fuck you for giving me a ten hour shift the Sunday before Labor Day with an even shorter crew than normal.
one day i will mean something to someone
https://youtu.be/5gTXEpppi1k
We have overcorrected on toxic work mentality. What it used to be is, "go to work no matter what, even if you're bleeding out and missing both arms." Now it's, "go ahead and dump your shift off because you feel like it."
its overrrrrr and the only options are eternal humiliation or death. have some fucking dignity anon and kill yourself like the aryan supersoldier you are. something about dying on your feet instead of kneeling down to suck my massive cock.
>>34888877between lindsey clancy, the muslim rape gangs, the 11 year old i saw pregnant with an old muslim mans child in iran, and all the white man hate coming from white women, im starting to get really really really angry. i really fucking hate women so god damn much. i hate muslims so god damn much. i hate criminals so god damn much. this world is going to go to absolute shit, i need to make enough money to get on the rocket ship to mars.
tired of your jealousy. you think about dick and balls more than i do
who's the dipshit going into every thread telling people to kill themselves, like chill out
>>34890233you're brown and whatever victory you think you have is false. you're the one that needs to commit suicide immediately for ruining everything good about this earth. you're less than human.
Does wageslavery condemn you to unceasing anxiety? I feel nervous even though it's the weekend, there's no peace in wageslaving it seems to me. Maybe the right kind of job, with 6 or 7 hours a day in a calm environment might work for me, but 8 hours just sucks and drains you, the day ends before you know it. I say this even though I work 6:45 to 2 PM which I feel is better than the 9-5 schedule.
>>34890263im aryan buddy you wouldnt get it
>>34890270real aryans don't tell other aryans to kill themselves, there's so few left, every single one is important in the fight against islam.
>>34890249I'm allowed to think about whatever I want to. I'm a grown-up
>>34890275slavshit is not aryan
I think I might actually be fucking insane
>>34890275i visited the town i grew up in a while ago and it was completely full of indians who didnt even speak english. they got my jack in the box order wrong cause they couldnt understand anything i was saying. i went to jamba juice and they were just standing around right in front of the counter completely oblivious. it was the most demoralizing experience of my life. i dont think its gonna get better but im praying every day for someone like hitler to appear.but idk man. idk anything and im just tired.my grandmas town is so pretty. and clean. still >90% white but who knows how long thats gonna last. id like to spend some more time there before they decide to import quintillion muslims.i wanna do something thrilling and illegal like breaking into a vacant airbnb and killing myself in its basement. i dont know if god can forgive me for how carelessly and selfishly ive lived my life. its such a waste but oh well.ill keep the world and the people in my prayers. <3333
>>34890312>ill keep the world and the people in my prayersThanks German bro
>>34888877Worried that the verbal tick I started a week ago at work is interpreted as the n word. Basically repeatedly clicking my tongue against the roof of my mouth over and over. Sorta sounds like "tinker" or "nin-ka".No one has said anything, but now that I've actually stopped and listened to my self, I dread their being an hr investigation.
>>34890430For further reference, work in a cubicle office space. My volume is low murmer, literal zippers going off are louder. Now other employees near me except one girl directly across, separated by a barrier, and she hasn't shown any change in behavior.Trying to stop the tick, but it's pretty compulsive at this point.
>>34890261Kill thyne self
>>34890249Hell yeah whats ya bitch number
I don't think they were ever my friends to begin with
Today felt so awkward in a way. Got to meet up a with a girl that friendzoned me recently. Was for work related reasons you could say. Nothing bad happened but as soon as I got home I just got so sad. Here was me thinking that I had a chance and some other guy went in for the kill and they got together so fast. I just don't get why I never asked her months ago...I didn't know that I was going to miss out and it's a kick to the teeth. I guess what I got with her was more platonic than anything.The other guy wasn't there but she did give him calls and texts and that. I just wish that it was me. The more I had talked to her over these months the more I felt like she could be the right girl for me but it was hard to get a day set up to talk about it in person, rather than over text messages and stuff. I felt like I had started to get over it after today but as soon as I got home I was so annoyed. I knew what I would have done today if I knew there was the vacancy...today I left empty handed.I'm trying to get over it, I just feel sad that I wasn't the chosen one. I'm not upset at her, she made her decision and I will respect that as I don't want to ruin things with her. I'm more angry at myself for never making the right moves to tell her that I was potentially interested in her. I left it way too late and I paid the price. And now I don't know if I'll ever get a chance again. I just hate being me. I now know what I should have done...was just too much of a coward to just ask the fucking question.
>>34890312im the guy you replied to, im not sure why you're telling me all this, but don't kill yourself, make white babies, even if it means marrying a polish or danish girl. also after your grandma dies move to America, you'll make way more money to buy crypto with
>>34890629Same feels bad. On the upside I think I finally understand why certain people would rather not have friends.
>>34890722unfortunatly im not capable of having biological kids.i was reading someones thing about how "it gets better" and of course she mentions her friends and husband and how they had a kid together. lucky her.for some people im sure it gets better but not everyone. i dont have friends to hang out with or a husband to return to and even if i did somehow figure it out and get those things id never have kids.its all very humiliating. maybe im just looking for excuses to give up idk.i hope god knows how much i love him, even though i spit on all the gifts he and my parents and the world have given me.
>How could you throw everything away and leave just like that? Did I mean nothing to you? exactly. you get it so stop acting obtuse and leave me alone. i don't know you
>>34889492So if she's blocked you on everything and you're on here talking about blowing massive loads into her etc. assuming that she may see you, don't you worry about her reporting you to the cops for stalking or some shit? how long ago did you break up?
>>34891020what?
>>34891048huh?
Tried everything I could to improve my life and nothing worked, now I'm all out of options. Why keep playing a game if it isn't fun and it's impossible for you to win it?
Will the world keep going after I die, or will it cease to exist without an observer
>>34891068look, I'm not doing the schitzo back and forth shit where you say some dogshit and then pretend to be clueless, answer with what the fuck you're on about and stop being a fag.
>>34891086Go home to mommy or move tf on.
Messed up texting a girl because I jumped at the first sign of her showing more engagement then any girl in the last year or so>had this girls number>texted her like two nights ago hadn’t seen her around lately>ran into her yesterday >she text me this morning like “omg hi im so sorry” etc >i was like yeah I wondered if you still worked there haven’t seen you around>she send me a two minute voice note updating me on what she’s been up to>I mention something like “ah makes sense, missed seeing your beautiful smile around”>replies with a thumbs up hours later>I ask if she’s working today>”no”>ask her another question and no response Welp. I took that voice note as a good sign. My dumb ass just pre-ejaculated a conversation.
>>34891094Thats probably a good thing and you will be able to sleep much better. Maybe a warm bubble bath and night cap to finish it off.
>>34891099I was just trying to flirt a little mentioning her smile. A thumbs up reply. Like damn.
I guess things are still awkward between us. I can't tell if it's because I didn't respond to your post immediately, if it's because I didn't send what you wanted me to send, or if you just don't want to hear from me at all. I'm so goddamn close to just asking you what you meant all those months ago because I think it's the crux of all of this, but I can't if I don't hear back from you. Maybe you know that and that's why you're staying silent. I just wish things weren't like this. You're an incredible woman in nearly every way, but I'd be lying if I said the way you communicate didn't drive me insane. There's an easy way to fix this, and it's talking it out with each other like adults.
If that were true, I wouln't be sitting alone
>>34889818Who are you talking about?
I'm not a fool, I just love that you're dead insideI'm not a fool, I'm just lifeless too
fuuuuck yeah i feel the manic episode coming on
Weaning onto a different stimulant is ass. My sleep has been shit because I'm either understimulated and starving since my gut is fucked or overstimulated and anxious plus hurting and ache-y. I don't have a crutch for this.
I wont the bad ending and I promise it will not exist in this life >>34890686I set an alarm to take out the trash when I leave the house. -m
Im so fucking tired holy shit la la land here i cum
>>34891449I'm already in the bad ending...
Guys I just found out that im not japanese, im 100% caucasian i look byzantine cause im 10% greek. The rest is anglo. Cheers, also to my fellow blacks as im a med brit LOL
I want to talk to you too but it's just a bad time to come back right now because I'm in love with someone else. Well, lust I guess. I've been seduced and I've been trying hard to overcome it but I have a chemical addiction to his cock. I really don't care about him as a person otherwise. I kind of hate him if I'm being honest. I am angry about it because it feels like something against my will. I don't want to be going through this at all I just want to talk to you again like before. I wish I could talk to you about this directly but we both know that can't be. So I'm all alone in figuring this out. I'm looking a lot into addiction to try to break it and I realized I'm going through withdrawals when I try to go 3 days without him, I literally get body aches and I get so angry that I want to hurt myself and masturbating all day doesn't get rid of the feeling. I will dream about it and wake up from it. It actually disrupts my life in a major way that has to do with way beyond just sex and that part is bad enough since I've already had more than a few pregnancy scares by now. I feel really alone in this and it's not like I can talk to HIM about it since it just ends up in sex every time. I told him a lot about you and he said you sound like a great guy and you'd understand if I explained everything to you but I don't know. And of course I feel attached because I've never had someone really listen to me like that and hold me while reassuring me. He said you would both get along and he sympathized with your problems and he'd even like to meet you one day. I do fantasize about you guys being friends and I could just keep both of you in my life but I know that only holds me back more. I really miss you
>>34891630Thanks for this, if she said this to me it'd make getting over her and looking for someone else the easiest thing in the world. No offense.
>>34891630Probably a better feeling than having your person rippedc away from while you're heart is trampled and your feelings ignored. C'est la vie.
When I'm not in the mountains I wanna die. Like I wanna my heart to stop. I can't live with people anymore. Also friends? fuck them scumbags rats.
>>34888877I think my command fucked me. Non of my documents got uploaded online, and my ships decommissioning. Now im being asked for documents I dont have, and I gotta figure out where the hell everything went, because it sure as hell aint on the same ship anymore.They fully said I was good to go and there was nothing else I needed.
I want my gf to peg me so bad. Or just use a dildo on me, or finger me, or rim me. I wanna give her my ass. It's been a couple weeks and I miss the feeling. When we started doing ass play I didn't think it'd become a new need.
I will be in hollywood and you will be in an opioid coma. Bye bye
>>34891732I would welcome a coma at this point
>>34891732Neither of those things sound nearly as nice as putting a bullet through my skull
I'm fuckin BROKE
>>34891732Take your own advice and grow the fuck up.
had a really nice prostate orgasm mmmm
I have genuine urges to get back at my ex in a way that is completely non-fatal, safe for work, cute and funny, and in Fortnite. How do I go about making sure that this hilarious act of mischief isn’t able to be followed up on in a substantial way?
So, I was just looking at the wrong time all along. Makes sense, considering the increase in money involved. Stupidest thing is, I looked at this before. Just not properly. And it follows a trend I'd already spotted. Just need to check the older data. Not going to jump in without confirmation this time. At last, my research will start paying off.
>>34891291I know that feel https://youtu.be/HPcb1jCKI5U
My coworker talks with so much filler that adds nothing to what he's saying, it drives me nuts. He'll give his sentences long introductions like:"Hey, I had a question I meant to ask you something but you were busy and I almost asked Joe about it... wait no, I DID ask Joe about it but he said he wasn't sure about the answer and that I should ask you, and I almost had a chance to ask you yesterday... wait no not yesterday, I meant to ask you back on TUESDAY, but then I got distracted by [blah blah blah] and I just didn't get a chance and it slipped my mind for a couple days, partly because it really isn't that big of an issue, but I was going to ask you this because I think you're probably the better person to ask and you'd have more information about this since you're the person who deals with this kind of topic more than most people in the office do..."MAN, GET TO THE DAMN POINT!
I miss them but I can’t run to them. I need to do what they asked of me, my failure to last time led to this.
>>34891981Maybe you can't run all the way to them, but can you meet in the middle somewhere? Communication is key - if you let them know where you're going, it halves the journey both of you have to take.
Huh. I've been explaining all your behavior as you finding someone else, but when I look back at everything with the idea that it was actually me driving you crazy the whole time, it makes just as much sense if not more.
>>34891981You'll only show them you stopped caring if you don't go to them after making it a pattern.
I'm losing track of time thinking
>>34891833Ahh, no advice on the adv board. Thanks retards.
>>34892026Did you check what thread this is?
>>34891987Not possible, they don’t drive >>34892008They asked me to give them space. I want to see them, and told them to tell me if they wanted to see me. It feels like I’m being made to rot again.
I think my parents are afraid of me being alone because my mom keeps trying to hook me up with her friends and theyre nice but not my type. I dont deserve a gf right now and need to work on losing more weight and making more money to be taken seriously anyway. I wish I knew of a nice way to tell my mom and dad I appreciate them without outright rejecting their matchmaking attempts.
>>34892044Why did they ask for space?
>>34892050They said things couldn’t be fixed so to just give them space until they feel better.
>>34892026Ask for something, what do you want help with?
>>34892053What couldn't be fixed? Is this an ex?
>>34892055When they get sad
>>34892066Do you know their attachment style? Maybe they're pushing you away because they feel like a burden when they're sad.
>>34892076No, I have the natural inclination to hold someone when they’re sad and stay with them but was told explicitly to not do so. Now they’re probably mad at me for that too.
>>34892078bro dont listen to attachment faggots >>34892076if somebody says they dont want you just leave them
>>34892078Well, you know them best, whether they are pushing you away because they don't want you or to protect themselves from perceived rejection or feelings of being a burden. I'm sorry you're struggling between that and what you want to do. I wish I showed up, but I lost my chance. Good luck, anon.
I'm being manhandled by my work schedule. I haven't had consecutive days off since I was hired. They've all been split. I quit my last job because I wasn't getting enough sleep being stuck on night shift, and I told them this at the interview and had a conversation about it during one of my shifts. That's being ignored and I'm on the closing shift more frequently than any other individual in the building. All this and it's completely unpredictable which days of the week I'm going to work - I don't know until the schedule drops and it's only three day's notice. Schedule for Monday-Sunday is posted the prior Friday. That's bullshit.To top it off, I'm not being trained anymore. They were doing good and then they tapered off and started throwing me into tasks that I don't know how to do with no one experienced there to teach me. And I'm getting most of it right which sadly validates their decision to offload so much onto me and makes them comfortable to keep doing it.
>>34892076Which attachment style involves rape?
>>34892113Why do people work?Anyway, start applying for other jobs.
>>34892117At this point it's to afford my hobbies until I kill myself. Being paid enough to survive on my own in this climate is just not happening. I guess that's why I'm so pissed about not having proper time off between shifts and never knowing when I'm going to work.I'm sub-40 hours every week but the way I'm in and out of the building at such sporadic and unpredictable intervals with ten hours one day and three hours the next day and then one day off and then closing and then closing again and then one day off etc. has me stuck in a loop of barely enough sleep and only a couple of hours of me time.So I'm on overtime tiredness with part-time hours. I'm getting a tiny pay and no benefits and inadequate time to rest between shifts.
>>34892136Quit the job, quit the hobby. You will be happier. Are you ruining your sleep for 50% of the minimum wage?
I need you. Please tell me you do too. Tell me to come over. Tell me you’re not actually miserable with me. If it’s true just text me. Fuck, why why why.
With your talking and your pillsYour messed up life still thrills meAlison, I'm lost
>>34888877What the fuck is going on? Come on YOU SAID YOU COULD HELP ME
>>34892165>don't have an income and don't do the thing you enjoyGreat advice dumbass
>>34888877I still love her, not despite of everything but because of everything. I'd die for her
>>34892306Keep being miserable then. I sometimes forget what kind of people post here.
>>34888877Yes or no - delete everything and forget they existed?
>>34892341Depends. I had the same dilemma, and I decided no. It depends on you and what you value in life. The pain she brought on my life shaped who I am, so deleting and forgetting that she even existed at all would be an affront to my amor fati.
>>34892341Depends on how badly they hurt you. I regret deleting her texts because I realized months later I misread one of them. But if it helps you find peace of mind, do it. Consider deleting but not blocking - deleting helps you move on, but blocking is potentially burning a bridge forever.
>>34892348she made me lose literally 10% of my bw, and almost cost me my high honor status btw
>>34888877Why don't you mind your own business you crazy old bitch? I'm not being rude, I'm just dumping my recycling into the bin. I already have it sorted, I don't have time to stand there for 15 minutes and carefully pick things out and daintily set them in the bin so it doesn't offend your delicate sensibilities. In fact, you're rude as fuck for telling me I need to learn manners when I'm not doing anything wrong. I even politely smiled at you. Fuck you.
>>34892357But they are not coming backWhats the point in fooling myself any longer?Plus I get stuck reading it, imaging the what if they came back. Its a miserable way live, I wish I could hate them and leave them behind
Lately I have the feeling that I'm haunted. I don't know how else to describe it. How to apppease the spirits? Are they vengeful or sad?
>>34892400>I wish I could hate them and leave them behindBeen there, tried to do that despite never hating her. Its a process, you can't will that away and I wouldn't want to do that if I were you. Consider yourself lucky, since most can't love with such intensity as to be destroyed, devastated by the loss of their partners. I consider myself lucky in that regard since nothing else could devastate me, and I really needed that friction, ie war, in my life. You'll come out stronger, better out of the other side even though it might feel like hell right now and believe me, I understand you. But do not will this away, learn to embrace it, love it even. And ALWAYS remember. What does not destroy you makes you stronger. If you need to talk more, open a thread. I believe we share a similar fate, though I am a few months ahead of you.
>>34892427Its not really love, but my obssesion and its been going on for years now. I dont think holding onto it will be of any help, its actually the contrary its driving me insaneAnd no, its not making me any strongerSorry but you seem a big delusional
https://youtu.be/Sqdf-cMa7AA
>>34892439>Sorry but you seem a big delusional>''And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music!''You are still in it I see! You'll understand when to let go, and it will be cathartic. I never told you to keep on, just trust the process and if necessary get professional help. You'll be surprised how much strength you've gained after you get out of the gauntlet of doubt, grief and obsession. All the best to you! You'll prove your worth sooner or later- whether you keep standing or not.
>>34891630fuck offkys slutdont contact me EVER
I want a good cocksucker that sucks the cum right out of the cock
>>34891751thats what everyone who has money says.so stop lying
>>34891880when they start rambling. i say "JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO SAY!"it works
>>34892492I actually appreciate when people do that because it gets me back on track. Versus people who just end a conversation with me/change the topic/avoid me.
Can't take the pain and nightmares and mind fucking anymore I can't as soon as these files are fucking closed I'm applying for maid lmao and everyone can breathe a sigh of fucking relief
Wayward spirits are everywhere and they are troublesome, most of them. They are like stray cats that comes into the yard and overturn the garbage, or come through your window to steal your food. Some of them attach themselves to humans, often time blocking humans from finding, steeling and being happy with a spouse. They are different from egbe, who are your astral mates or family. Many suicide victims and people with schizophrenia are victims of way wards. Also people (not all of them) who suffer from depression and panic attacks, people who feel dark and dreary are often horses for wayward spirits.
>>34892404The spirits of the dead are mostly sad and worried about the people they cared about in life more than angry. Unless they died violently, then they'll be pissed as fuck
You waited over a year to confess you had no feelings for me after telling me otherwise every day, then stopped talking to me all together when you saw I was shocked and hurt. But everyone thinks I somehow ruined your life because since you met me you’ve been acting so miserable.
>>34893048based schizo
>>34893048Like familiar spirits mentioned in the bible? Christainity states that all spirits are demons but I’m not convinced.
It’s not fair,I’m the one sick and hurting, but I looked after other people. Why is it all about you (not you anons)? I'm just venting I guess.
my life is so terrible lmoa
I’m crying my eyes out and I can’t talk to anyone my therapist anonymously reported me to the police for thought crimes (ocd intrusive thoughts). I don’t think I want to live on this planet any more. I got kicked out of college for thought crimes. For having intrusive thoughts I would never act on. And now I can never trust a shrink again. I have nobody to talk to and probably never will. I’ve never seen snow before, I want to wander into the Greenland ice cap and freeze. My gf is cheating on me and probably despises me for being so weak. The good news is that I found out reincarnation is probably impossible, so once I become a popsicle I will be gone for good
>>34893163It's spelled lmao not lmoa
Never gave me back my blades either fuck
Missing and wanting to be with the lying slut who deserved rape and shouldve died lol jokes right
I mixed chocolate whey with vanilla whey. It's pretty good.
>>34893287No whey
Telling me I told you not to come when I didn't you fucking liar gaslughter yep all my fucking fault "if *you* want to be a happy family" so lovingly pointing out I'm the problem as if I don't know that
>>34893290KekWhey better than I thought
You mad eit pretty clear how little you care when you were here, bit again that was my fault my fault for being hurt by hurtful things my fault for crying
Stop fucking with me stop the push and pull bullshit you're fucking with my head ignoring me then saying it's because you care and it's for me
Lololol let's make the dumb autist girl relive the bad things that happened and make hr cry and hyperventilate and hit her head lol lmao
>>34893366Evil person. No wonder you life sucks, it’s your personality. She hates you because none of us can stand you.
>have to go for plan B for that, helps my parents more so so much better overall actually. Even the contract would be 50 dollars a month for many things vs 20 for some. The money out of it will be less though.>that shit is going to be expensive once it is fixedEverything else I sort of figured a bit ago.
i've decided to become evil starting right now
working on my evil laugh. muahaha
I dont even have words to say any more that arent just rote responses. Its a disservice to the people around me and a disservice to myself but i dont no how to fix this
you don't have to say anything at all
i feel like nothing is ever going to change or get better. The modern world is not a place I want to live in. I'm starting to truly hate my dad for doing the same thing every day, and never listening to me.
Can you just fucking shoot me instead of fucking breaking my head and heart on repeat
>>34889042How do you get them to smile at you? I'm 33, I don't think that's ever happened.
>>34893482No. Putting you out of your misery is too good for you
>>34893485wear this shirt every time you go out
I think I see your ghost everywhere
Meet me somewhere
Meet me in Montauk
I want to cut but I'm at a friend's house so I can't. Curse my luck.
I don't play with my cat enough... I must spend more time with them tomorrow
>>34893146You aren't even supposed to acknowledge that I'm alive.
>>34893500That's cool, I'll do it myself then
Well this weekend is either the beginning or the end and we’ll see. I feel like it’s the end. I’m okay with it too.
>>34893590All I can say is all I can say.
i never want to be in love again. that shit don't make me act right
And now that you don’t have to be perfect, you can be good
>>34891742Awe cheer up pal
>>34891794Waaah you're a cry baby
>>34891794Oh wait, I did! I'm working in hollywood and ur still a bitter junkie :)
>>34891739Have you tried thinking happy thoughts?
Gf told me McKayla, her friend, kids aren't all from her bf. 2 of them are from her bfs dad. Apparently when they were younger they fought, they still fight a lot idk, they broke up and she went to his house to try and work it out or something but he wasn't there but his dad was and he just listened to her and things happened. She got pregnant and his dad said she's got to make up with his son so it looks like it's his kid. She did and she had the kid and then another with her bf but they fight a lot and I guess she'd go straight back to the dad and she got pregnant a 2nd time. She has 4 kids but 2 are with her bfs dad. I've barely talked to her but every time I see her and her kids I just can't get it out of my head.
>>34893633Damn. Well I guess it's technically not that bad because they do some of his DNA at least. Wonder if they'll still figure it out when they're older through a blood test or something
I went to see my neighbour and left my door open. He disappeared somewhere for few minutes and came back then told me that he saw my apartment. I wouldn't want to fight but what else can I do with this rat? Obviously he's grandiose about himself but jail time for assault isn't in my own books either. Oh the irony.
I stopped using my computer and discord for one whole week and my mood started to improve a lot. Went back to it 2 days ago and now I’m back to feeling miserable.
>>34893701been there. quit discord and talking to people online in general and it was the best decision i ever made. irl people aren't like that
Told you I needed you. You said you would come if I said that. You didn't. Took the last bit I had to say it too, aha. Doesn't matter. I don't.
>>34893715I don't know if this is for me. It's probably not.
>>34893732It's probably for me
>>34893738Cool.
>>34893740Changed my mind it's probably not for me
>>34893741Okay.
Getting raped doesn't excuse you from being an asshole
>>34893747What the actual fuck?
Holy shit, this video hit me like a truck.https://youtu.be/7QEAdlivGGs
Should I just keep ghosting and just never talk to you again or should I come back just to tell you I actually don't love you and hate you in fact?
You are raping me with your words
Dude, calm down. Why are you making so many assumptions about him? Just because he said he didn’t want to share his AO3 doesn’t mean he thinks his stories suck. Stop acting so patronizing.
Why do people refuse to defend me, man
Does any of this shit even affect me? No. So I should mute them all. I live off of my Dad’s good will, it doesn’t matter what else fucking happens.
>>34893767I will protect you my fair princess
>>34893767My time as a spy taught me not to defend anyone.
>>34893774I’m not a princess, I’m just really flabbergasted at how people easily believe other’s shit talking. I’m right here dude, you can ask me about it.
I am simply better than most vermin who surround my country
>>34893814People are pussies, desu, they will never do that
>>34893756Damn tf they say?
N, I don't know how to say this. You're just not terribly important to me.
>>34893936I dislike flippant individuals
I don't know why my boss thought three people was enough for dinner rush any day at all, let alone the fucking Friday before Labor Day. We lucked out with poor weather which slowed down service enough to be manageable, but not enough to allow us to have someone cleaning the whole time like we would with normal staffing on a normal weekday. We stayed busy serving customers the entire night with no time to clean and two of us skipped our breaks.
I finally got my degree. I saved up money by living with my helicopter parents. I battled all these demons inside my head for years.And now I'm in the unfamiliar situation that I have a real career path. I can invest money, and I am still young enough to start dating.But I don't want to do all that. It would be a chore. There is nothing exciting about it.I am on a good path. I see it before me and it looks so bleak and unfree. But time is running out.
Man, I fucking love waking up with choice paralysis about shit I don't want to do, holy fucking molly.>>34894010Look for a way to be independent first, not necessarily fully independent if you can't, just away from people who judge and review every decision you make. Once you're able to do that, you'll be able to think about what you want to do by yourself.
>buy wizardry remake since its on sale>load that shit up>spend 3 hours making my perfectly optimized party with custom portraits and everything>think of lore for them>dont actually playwhy am i like this
I hope you know that you are never coming back.
>>34894385Wtf were you trying to do to me??
>>34894427Excuse me? I continuously ask what I am doing wrong and you just shake your head at me, but the lack of communication is MY fault and begging to just be at peace and calm is TOO much to ask for. I tried to be there for you, but you just had a bunch of rude and fucked up shit to say to me. Playing keep away with your mind, not even speaking to me or letting me express my confusion.. for one.
Don't remember the last time I was heard. Or kissed. I really need a hug.
You were a mistake. I didn't know enough about you. I regret meeting you.
>>34894466Why? What'd I do?
I'm on holiday now and planning a trip so I can quiet my mind.
>>34894494You won't be back
You said it was not a bother to message you with my worries and you then you told me to not talk to you ever again because it involved the past.
First thing in the morning, huh.
>>34894509If you never start, you will never finish.
>>34891630oh my god if this was for me id probably just do something really bad to myself. thank god this isnt for me. my person would never write something like this EVER. HAHAHAH
>>34894501I'm not doing this for you but for me. My tinder pictures got old by now and I need something fresh
How can I deal with my frustrations about women and their bullshit? Any advice? I'm seriously asking by the way.
Is this why you asked if I'm gonna make you choose?
>>34894509Morning wood...
If you want me to visit you you need to make it clear for me.https://youtube.com/shorts/LWVvf2K_Huw
>>34894666I want this from my person so badly.
>>34894789I wish I had a person.
>>34894817I don't really "have" her. I'm just stuck on her.
See? Expectations lead to disappointment. You said you'd be here. First thing in the morning. First thing in the morning has come and gone. I did it all alone, again. You can twist words all you'd like and claim intent and you meant this or that, but YOU said first thing. Not "a few hours after your morning." Damn. If only we all had the luxury of "first thing in the morning" being 11am. Or whenever the fuck you feel like it."You can ask me this if you need it."*Asks for that because I need it.""Ok later, some other time."Ha.
>>34894821Well, I am neither interested, do not have, nor do I know anyone that would ever potentially be a 'person' for me.Although your gesture is sweet, i'm not sure I even understand that feeling.
>>34894828I envy that.
>>34894824>You can ask me this if you need it.">*Asks for that because I need it.">"Ok later, some other time."And they never ever reply or respond to messages or calls
>>34893630I'm not bitter unlike you. Grow up
>>34893752Shit how do I wake up from this now?Turning it off didn't help.
>>34894844LOL baby, what do I have to be bitter about? I'm sweet as pie, I'm not a floozy and try to make the best out of every situation.
>>34894839They respond but then they do the DARVO thing or twist words and all of a sudden it was "well, I interpreted it THIS way" or "I intended for THAT" and "i guess I'm just always wrong and bad"
>>34894867You are a floozy and you're mentally unstable
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQq9eP5OFhw
>>34894900Being called mentally unstable by a psychopath is hillarious.
>>34894872I am never right, doesn't matter what I do or how much I explain anything. Im just tired of not being able to have peace withiin my own home. No biggie, I am done stating my position and crying out to be heard and loved. Everything I say is in one ear and out the other.
>>34894903Please refer to >>34894435 as exhibit A of my 'mental isntability'.
>>34894912Nah
fucking hate my chud ass life. just work and waste time on my computer.miss the girl i had a few years ago man we'd just relax fuck and cuddlemaxx. i used to say to myself that nothing can hurt me anymore after i lost my best friend but fuck. my battle is a spiritual one, i just want to matter. i just want friends who care about me, i want parents that care about me. this isolation is getting to me
>>34894900Zoophilia.
This thread is full of cowards who will never confront who they need to. If you reply to this, I wont even read it. "Seethe" or something.
>>34895095Gross, wtf is wrong with you
>>34888991Now this is nice photography
>>34895133ehh, quirky I guess but wtffff that is terrible. someone get this off here
I have white hair on my ballsI have... lots of white hair on my ballsFuck
>>34895339It's probably stress
>>34895354Well I hope so because I'm near my 40s and I may soon fuck
>>34888877To ack or not to ack
https://youtube.com/shorts/gI1TKXRxaRc
Being bad at video games (my only real hobby) makes me suicidal.I just turned 26.
>>34895484What do you play? I suggest playing something single player. It's a lot more chill. Competing with other people fries your brain.
My hair keeps getting tangled and It's fucking annoying. I can cut my hair real good I just can't be bothered.
>>34895496I don't know how to respond to this without seeming more pathetic. Sorry.
>>34895484Get a real hobby man, you're 26 not a kid.
im so low energy rn. wanted to do a 2 day grind hike but didnt do shit. maybe next week
I detest that she feels this way. Would it be better to keep arguing my point, or just keep it to myself. I fear this is the kind of thing that will resurface in marriage.
What a slimy bitch
I'm a retard when I'm in love fucking hell I just wish we never met.How can I live normally again? Someone helpI CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU ITS RUINING MY LIFE.
>>34895730>I just wish we never metme too>I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU ITS RUINING MY LIFEme too
>>34895676You detest how she is. You detest her. You can't force people to be like you. Find someone you actually like and are compatible with.
I am projecting my shit on her.I'm unable to ask her a question, because I don't like to be questioned
>>34895676My uncle use to say that you will sleep enough when you’re dead. Anyways, you don’t seem compatible. Sorry.
I'm not attractive, and it's giving me nightmares every day. I'm going to die not being able to do what every other man can.
>>34896068There are niggas who look like santa claus and ron jeremy getting pussy. Just dont act unattractive and u be fine
>>34895676You are not compatible. This behavior will exponentially increase once the door is locked and your trapped between obligation and it being too difficult to break up from the contract. That inability to leave makes the other feel there is no consequence for who they are and hid from you. Forced smiled, planned words and everything being transactional is not love.
>>34895127The other poster fucks animals
I still feel his love even though its been years that ive been lost. I used to be happy. I was excited. He knew me and loved all of me. Perfect for each other in our way. He understood me. He saw my struggles and cared for me , even from a distance. I never should of left him. I should of followed through and not allowed this mistake of a person take me from the love of my life. I think about him every day. I dont know if im too late. I dont think I can live with that loss.
https://youtube.com/shorts/e0GueEy5Xzk
>>34895711Who are you calling slimy, stinky?
i just came down from my shroom trip and i still hate women so god damn much
Told my brother I don't remember how to do derivatives and that I don't care for math that much and he told me I shouldn't have a right to vote in complete seriousness. Why is he so bitter, damn.
>>34896185YOU. And it's called aura, bruh.
I hate being alone but lately I hate friends
>>34896675You have the wrong friends who have ultimately worsened your life. Only reason they are there is because of your fear of being alone. Theres this regret and shame all around you and right in this moment could be in the arms of who loves you for who you are. You could be forever chosen, loved, cared for, safe and thats not even mentioning completely compatible euphoric lust your love will take you with. You know where you are has always been a placeholder. A placeholder turned into an excuse. An excuse turned into shame, guilt, and blame toward yourself and feeling immensily lost and alone because who is locale with you has never been your actual choice. Your complacency and nodding your head to behavior and morals that you have always despised and never wanted in your life, but you were gaslit into being isolated with who you live with. You are here to escape where you are. You are looking for your way out through here.
Begone thoughts.
might need to burn my main liquor store on a sundayleaves me at bingo on 2 alternates
This doesn't hurt enough.I want PAIN. GIVE ME HURT!BURN ME!GIVE ME SCARS UPON SCARS!HURT ME UNTIL YOU FEEL PITY!AND THEN HURT ME MORE!YOUR MERCY IS MY LIMITER!BREAK IT!UNTIL YOU FEEL SYMPATHY, I WILL REMAIN.YOUR MERCY IS SO FAR BEYOND MY LIMITS.I WANT A FEELING BEYOND! YOUR "NUMB" IS MY BEGINNING!PLEASE!I JUST WANT SOMETHING! MERCY IS FAILURE! MERCY IS AN INSULT!IT'S A CRUELTY UNTO MY CALLOUSNESS!JUST BEAR THAT HATE UNTO ME!I GRANT ALL PERMISSIONS. IT'S ALL THAT I CAN GIVE YOU. TAKE IT.GRANT THAT MERCY. Or is that too much to ask?Is CRUELTY too much to ask!?HAHAHAHHAHHAAHHAHAHA!!!!!I KNOW! MEANING UNTO A MEANIGLESS CREATURE IS A PURPOSE THAT'S BEYOND MY STATION!GIVE IT OR DON'T! MY PRIDE DEMANDS THAT I REQUEST NOTHING LESS!AHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!!!!THIS HELL IS MY PLACE!YOU CAN TAKE ME FROM IT! BUT IT'S WHERE I BELONG!WHATEVER YOU NEED, I WILL GIVE! ANYTHING TO EXIST BEYOND HERE!NO MATTER HOW FLEETING. JUST A MOMENT BEYOND HERE, AND I'LL GIVE EVERYTHING!!!JUST TAKE THIS HURT AND DESTROY IT!I WILL GIVE ALL I HAVE TO EXIST BEYOND IT!TO BELIEVE IN THAT IMPOSSIBILITY, EVEN IF FOR ONLY A MOMENT!I WILL GIVE YOU EVERYTHING!! EVERYTHING I AM, EVERYTHING I AM!JUST A MOMENT OF RESPITE IN THE FACE OF IRRESTIBLE FATE!Just.don't make it hurt. please. haven't you hurt me enough?when is enough? I'm just human. please.please.please.please.PLEASE!PLEASE!it hurts so much.I'm sorry. i don't know what i did.but nothing deserves this.no act is so sinful.nothing a mortal could ever do deserves this hatred.Just kill me. Finality is the barest of Mercies.Grant me that, we'll start over.I know there's nothing I can stand on, and I know creation is the better of destruction.I'm in a losing position. Just let me lose and this world can move on!We will bear witness to the miracle of creation! We will see what mortals can give unto immortal reality!Take my hand, and we will bear witness to creation without restriction!!!
Why was I so stupid? To think stuff was going my way. Oh right I’m stupid as fuck
>>34896758many such cases
>>34896758What do you mean?
Im still in love with you to the point of delusion. Im convinced one day youll be my boyfriend again.
>>34896854No I don't think so the damage is done.
>>34896748Message directly this to them
>>34896854Your boyfriend or your girl friend?
I just woke up from a dream about my aunt who died a few years ago and I almost started crying.
So after being depressed about my ex gf for a couple weeks (despite being broken up for almost a year) I had an online friend who’s a girl confess that she likes me, I said she was cool too. It almost felt like a sign from the universe not to mess this one up. I said i would be down to try taking things slowly and casually, then it’s revealed that she’s 20 and I’m 26 going on 27. I’m not necessarily against it, Its just that I’m already unemployed and have been for a minute, no car, not a whole lot of money, and now if things escalate then I’ll be dating a girl who’s 7 years my junior. I’m not against the age gap inherently, I’m just worried about what my family and friends will think. I already had one close friend say he thinks it’s a tad weird. The last thing I want in life is to be a loser in the same vain as Scott Pilgrim, bros.
I am not wasting one more weekend in my life. I am so done with this shit and life is too fucking short. Im so sick of not living.
Why do people get defensive and call you things like narcissistic, blaming, mental olympics when you confront them about past behaviors ?
>>34897128Gaslighting and shifting blame on you. Bringing up things that are not part of the issue you brought up to shift accountability using your past mistakes.
>>34897138I didnt intend for any blame rather setting records straight but it only further aggrevated this kind of response unexpectedly , okay I will keep that in mind so it clears from my head eventually ..thank you.
>>34894177Thank you. I wasn't expecting a positive response to my apparent lack of problems but deep down I was hoping for some sort of advice
it so fucking hard not being able to trust my mother with anythingshe says she will do something and then just doesntfrom small to bigs thingsim not even asking her to do thingsi think she just wants to be thanked for saying she will do something and then doesnt want to put in the effortim going CRAZY
>>34897191And yet you chose friends that behave just like her
>>34897196uh.. no..?if i had a friend act like this i would cut them off immediately lol
>>34897206Bullshit.
>>34897212idk who hurt you but it wasnt me brutha relax
No doubt I’m stuck and I can’t get out of this lifestyle
>>34897149The person is a narc. Theres never good that comes from that. Projecting and calling you the narc and saying you did what he did. Cut and run
>>34897246There is only doubt there.
>>34897261They already said to not talk to them anymore I am saddened for trying to get answers where I probably shouldn't have but it affirms its for the best now
Just have to go through the motions until I can take a quiet exit. Smile, pretend, keeps people happy. Be what they need you to be.
>>34897411Coward.
I should’ve chosen direct communication over jokes and playing it cool.
>>34897544Yeah you should've
i am alone in this. i can't tell anyone about my problems. not even anonymously on the internet. this sucks
Me purging my pizza has had the unfortunate second order consequence of making my anorexia so much stronger, the strongest it's been in a very long while. I am so determined not to fall into bulimia because of the horrific consequences it brings that it's made me use anorexia as a defence measure born of fear. Yesterday I was fucking insane. I got 14k steps on 190cals. The whole day I was feeling this weird high from drinking water because it made my insides feel clean. I've been recovering a while and this little relapse feels like I can just breathe. I don't feel this ever looming anxiety around food, the constant scarcity mindset, the need to eat at exact times and being caught eating a cookie. I can just... stop worrying. I feel at peace, i feel comfortable. I feel free. Clean.I'm just fucked. I am just fucked. This'll kill me and I'm just accepting it now. There is no release form this hell, it is literally IMPOSSIBLE.
>>34896711You seem to know a lot about me, so what's my next move?
>>34897583Why, are you a fed, murderer, or pedophile or something?
>>34897024Sorry man, that’s an awful way to wake up
>>34897644NTAAny idea why you hate your friends? Taking space doesn’t necessarily mean loneliness, I need space from my friends all the time and we just pick things back up whenever we’ve got time. But if your friends are being assholes, there’s no shame in admitting you need new friends. Hanging around assholes just for the sake of not being lonely is worse than being alone IMO.
>>34897799They're not always asshole they've just been painfully Un-self aware lately.One of them does seem to notice his mistakes right after he's made them, but keeps doing the same shit over and over again. I get some people can't help themselves, but if you're aware you do something shitty all the time, you need to at least try.
Growing up is realizing teens are even more spoiled than kids.
So, I signed up to work at a facility that I thought would open. It didn't. My staff have been forced into a shitty sister facility. I hate half the people in the sister facility. I cope by working in the laundry room.Now, since I do that, I've been enjoying actually working now over there. The laundry ladies are cool.I fucking hate it here, I hate that my entire commute went from 5 mins to an hour, I hate how ghetto it is compared to my last workplace, nobody is stabilizing my schedule like before, and nobody from above is talking to me anymore. I only get news, if any, from my lady boss. There's 5 bosses above me and she's the only one that seems to communicate.With my new hatred, I've just been putting it into selling my belongings to build an emergency nest egg, buying some certifications and paying for gas money to get my license at another county so I just get the fucking license quickly, and have just enough to put a down payment on a cute little beater car so I can get a real job elsewhere. With benefits, PTO, sick time, and stable hours. I don't even care I'm working with scumbags anymore, I just care I got something stable until I get my dream job within Stationary Engineering.I'm hurt because first I was hired to be a housekeeper. Then that bled into Janitor, then Laundry, then being a Compliance issue finder, then a gardner, and now my facility is closed because it's being Sued somehow. I wanted to stay there until it would open at least and we got a guy to replace me and I could train him. I knew my role and I knew I was gonna be gone eventually. I just didn't expect things to happen so quickly, that my plans are fucked.Still, I won't let it stop me. My lady boss is gonna be pissed, but I won't stand for this.I find it weird my name kept being brought up Friday ago. I was just holed up helping the ladies all day at Laundry. Why talk about someone that basically doesn't exist?
I hate that now that I have a handle on my depression all I'm left with is loathing for the human race. I have no desire to make any friends, or get into a relationship. I go out and try to meet with people, give them the positive, happy attitude I can finally express after years of pain, and I just get treated like shit. With a clear head, I don't think I can ever really be nice to someone not in my family again. The desire I used to have to make friends and get a gf are dead. I now just want to see people disappointed, humiliated, pained the same way I was for over 10 years.
>>34897984Kids are simple if annoying. Teenagers are pure evil
>>34897411Don’t just smile through the pain, this only creates resentment. Maintain boundaries and be assertive. If people disrespect you then leave. To put it bluntly: fuck them.
https://youtube.com/shorts/f1iK2iPEqTw
all i need is $10 million. English lads revolting, Link pumping, off tomorrow, yeah its a good weekend. shroom trip yesterday was great. i fucking hate women so god damn much though still.
I met someone lastnight. I don't think it will work out and I am sure there is no future ahead, but a slice of companionship after having the most depressing and sad couple of weeks, having a breakout from crying sooo much and causing me to be physically ill.. i welcomed it. It doesn't change how much I miss you. You have been my best friend for so long that I am actually still crying. Is there hope, nons?
>>34898564Sounds l like you might have just gone through a hard breakup. Get some rest.
>>34897626please please get help you are worth it
https://youtu.be/um1ym9u8XaA
That's not the best thing to happen right now, but at least its not stolen. Idk how that shit is gonna go since she was trying to steal it but as long as it doesnt fuck me over agter i stopped that shit, i dont care. Time for a drink. I'm gonna need it.
When you have no friends or girlfriend, it feels like there is absolutely nothing going on. No drama is happening, nothing worth celebrating is happening. I could stay inside for a week and no one would notice, just I'd need to get enough food beforehand. I could die and only a few people's lives would be impacted. When I consume media I get jealous because the characters have things to do, people to see. But whenever I try to talk with anyone in real life I just can't think of anything to say. I'm boring.
Miss you Leena, despite everything
>>34899044‘‘Tis over verily
>neighbors are setting up their house>call their wifi "FBI surveillance"Funny
lets see how strongly dph and drink react
>>34899213>dphdon't...
>>34899298anon i.....we will speakmaybe the play has been made
its happening see you on the other side maybe
I don't like that one of my coworkers is the store punching bag and I refuse to partake in it.
had a dream where i was having the life of a cool normie. intact family and parents, me having sex.it devolved later into me being the gang leader of some sort where people would mix in dead peoples blood for their heroin shots however. so yea idk
M 26Just found out my gf was cheating on me
>>34899601That's rough, man.
>>34899548nice>>34888877is it possible to be an employed person without being a liar or scumbag or dishonest i have no tattoos and refuse toi've been volcel antisexual since the start and refuse tono drugs smoking or alcohol and wont it just seems to be like getting a job puts you as a person that does drugs and prostitution - its wrong, it just seems wrong like i would have become the wrong person i want to get off the welfare but i know its wrongthere's all these ugly people...being careful and safe is wrong, you want to be Well, you can be safe and quite unwell, or thrive
>>34899651its not the fact that i don't have a jobhonest to good i look at the employed person as the same as the unemployed oneits not having incometechnically i'm a world champion athlete of crossfit, but i don't ever bring this up, ever, because its of no importance whether i can do 40 thousand squats in twenty four hours
I feel unattractive and unworthy of love ever since being broken up with for the reason of making no progress even though I was pursuing a passion that would and did progress. It has diminished any good gained in the past decade and I don't have much good experiences in that time.
>>34900092Is that what's exasperating your thing?
>>34888877Does anyone else have experience of old wounds in relationships suddenly becoming overwhelmingly relevant?Me and my partner suffered a miscarriage of our first pregnancy recently, and it's obviously not the easiest thing to cope with. But its weird that my mind just suddenly snapped in the midst of the coping that I remembered my wife's disloyalty from when we first got together, way back in 2018We weren't even together together, just dating, We had already been intimate but no sex yet, just masturabtion and oral, she was a virgin, she stated after the first date she'll only go home and spend the night with me if I promise that we'll keep seeing each other and not a one night stand, which I agreed to. Well I found out like a week before I asked her to be my girlfriend she kissed another guy. She hid this from me for 9 months and told me out of the blue in some sort of retarded "Woman moment" play to get my attention because she was worried we were "drifting apart" and I didn't get jealous or controlling enough, like I didnt care because I gave her permission to have after work drinks with a few of her coworkers (Apparently I should have said no and been jealous?)At the time we made up after a huge fight, she was surprised I forgave her, and we stayed together ever since. From time to time it popped up to bother me again but I just buried the feeling because I thought "Since I asked her to be my girlfriend, she has been nothing but loyal for 8 years".But something about this grief from the miscarriage just brought it back and now I haven't been able to stop thinking about it for like 4 weeks. I keep thinking it was a mistake to forgive her, that I only did because I was in a vulnerable place emotionally and if the same thing had happened to me today I would have dumped her on the spot.Idk why I can't get this out of my head. It's making me want to end things even now over something that happened 8 years ago.
>>34900097I don't understand, if my thing is the passion? It took effort and time to achieve a somewhat pragmatic outcome to support others with but it was too late. All I have is to delve deeper into it to drown out feelings of being undeserving, punished for wanting something that is beneficial. All of it is tied to the person who introduced me to it but now they dont care for it or me, resentment built from bad experiences.
>>34900156Thought you were someone else, my mistake.
>>34900159Who else is doomed with doing what was asked and thrown away for doing so
>>34900150>Well I found out like a week before I asked her to be my girlfriend she kissed another guy.Sorry forgot the context to this-She had asked ME on a date, arranged to come and stay over at mine, and I was picking her up from the train station after she was away to go see her friends and family in her home town. After this meetup, we met up again like 5 or 6 days later and I was like "Ok now I'm pretty certain this is a good time, gonna ask her to be my girlfriend properly. We're already spending 2 nights a week sleeping in each other's beds"Obviously if I had known she'd been with another guy, a day before I saw her (Which again, she asked for, so she asked me on another date, knew she would be sleeping in my bed, and it didn't stop her from getting with another guy) I definitely wouldn't have asked her to be my gf. I probably would have cut things off with her then.The only reason I didn't 9 months later is because we were 9 months committed at that point, done the I love yous, arranging moving in together etc. talked about kids and marriage in the future etc.So its a really weird thing where like, I feel like we SHOULD have broken up, the only reason we didn't is because she.... lied by omission? And now I've been in the relationship long enough that it would be much harder to face leaving her?I feel like maybe I repressed this feeling for years because the idea of breaking up with her at this point became too hard to think about and we were too committed. Next thing you know she was moving abroad to come live with me after I had to leave the country. Then we were getting married. Then we're pregnant.But losing this pregnancy is the first big step back where its like, oh, ok we're NOT as locked in together as I thought we were. 5minutes ago I thought we had a child on the way, now suddenly we're just living together again.
>>34900165Sounds like A.
>>34899317>>34899356did you died?
>>34899548Tell hr anonymously and or the hire ups, I mean the ceos, they do care
i fell in love with my female cousingg
>>34900531Unfall in love.
>>34899601Dump that bitch
>>34900534HAHA its actually fucked upit's been 5 years since we last saw each other. The moment I had any IRL contact with a girl again, I instantly fell for them. The funny thing is she's a bit of a mentally ill menhara type so I guess I just felt a connection there
>>34898587There is no help. I've gone to so many therapists and it's shocking how incompetent they are. Even if they were (because I have had therapists who have helped) recovery is just... a lie. You cross a line you don't come back from.It's just... over. There is no recovery, only harm reduction.
>>34900543I dont get it.
>>34900650*translating*i live an uneventful life and have no contact with the outside world aside from my family
>>34900660Why not just unfollow her online. And dont contact her anymore.
>>34900668I wish I couldinfatuation is a curse
Got let go of from my job, feel anxious as fuck, I don't like it. I more than likely have a contract lined up for next week, I have a massive tax refund in the mail, my credit cards are nearly wiped clean, and yet I can feel myself on a knife edge of a nervous break.
>>34900702Why were you let go? Apply to different jobs. Dont give up
>>34900707Just that they had run out of money on Friday and had to let two people go, with a third being let go tomorrow (allegedly).Even though I took the news incredibly well, for some reason yesterday I started acting really anxious, have this lump in my throat about everything, even though as I said, I should have something lined up for next Monday fingers crossed. Got a driving test in 5 weeks too compared to the normal 6 month wait, by all accounts I should be feeling great and I was up until Sunday.
looking at the dating scene in 2026 is suicide fuel. What are we supposed to do bros?
>>34900722You'll get the job. I believe in you
>>34900767T...Thanks Anon, it'll be a lot of money. The crazy thing is, it just never feels like enough
>>34900815*licks the shell of your ear*
>>34900815Np good luck. >>34900826Wtfs wrong with you
>>34900832Thanks Anon, I think I'll force myself outside in the meantime, do my laundry, make my space clean and free of disorder and worry. Just didn't realise just how much of a toll my home has played a toll on my mind.
>>34888877The normalfag masses in any MMO who are the majority of the game's population by all accounts are retarded cattle driven by their animalistic instincts projecting them onto their own avatars. I lose fate in humanity every time I get into another MMO because they find a new way to disgust the shit out of me. I blame gays, women, sexually repressed males walking around with female avatars for invading the space in high numbers, they ruin everything they touch and it shows ingame they inhabit.
