Been trying ever since i got into therapy for the schizophrenia, they always pushed me into making more friends and socializing but after 8 years i just feel sad and alone, got no one that cares about me, the only two members that are left alive in my family are my brother and sister and they couldnt care less, my brother treats me like shit and then says he's sorry, i could have made a carreer on stage but gave up last year and my crew is now presenting all over the state while i'm left to rot. None of the friends i made care about me enough to invite me to anything nor they request my presence, i'm just a filler. my mother was the only person that i could count on that would hear me but she's no longer here.I feel that its pointless to talk to these friends i made because every time i tried i just feel empty, i disabled every social media account and message apps and only left the ones that i get urgent messages on.i've been trying 8 years to make genuine friends, countless times i spent hours listening to people talk about their struggles but none of them care enough about me to hear mine.
>>34898479Yeah giving up will only make things worse. You mentioned acting, I've hung out with actors and those circles before and I can honestly say most of them are assholes. You need to hang out with a different crowd.
>>34898479do you have any hobbies? what about faith? a church would be a great place to start since they have a lot of free gatherings.
>>34898503i dont have it in me to try again, for 30 years i've been looking for a real friend but i never found one.>>34898658i do believe in God and been to the cathedral a few times, but i just dont want to meet new people atm.
>>34898668Don't ignore what I said. Some crowds are full of assholes and you need to avoid them. Hippies, alt people, theater people, a lot of "creative spaces". All these communities are full of assholes. Go meet some more normal people.
>>34898479could barely sleep last night, just had the worst realization of my life, that i'm in fact a miserable person, one that people treat nicely out of pity, guess i'm the retarded special needs one. all this time when either people treated me nicely or just humiliated me, they just did that because i'm of little consequence, just a miserable retard
>>34900552>i'm in fact a miserable person, one that people treat nicely out of pity, guess i'm the retarded special needs one. all this time when either people treated me nicely or just humiliated me, they just did that because i'm of little consequence, just a miserable retardThis is all in your head.
>>34900578how so?
