The only people in my life who are willing to talk to me about my problems are people who get paid for it. I am a successful person. I have a life that your average person would envy. I'm not rich, I'm not famous, I don't have love, but I have a good life. Structure, money, health, decent looks, living parents, employment, housing, a clear and certain future, and a reputation. Yet, I feel miserable. I am worthless to my family, my friends, and anybody I've ever loved. Nobody cares about me as much as I care about them. Nobody truly cares. I've talked my friends down from suicide, done numerous things to help them in their darkest times, and always shown kindness to anybody who crosses my path. I will only continue to become more successful and my life will objectively improve. My life is the best it has ever been. I feel as miserable now as I did years before. This won't change.I don't want to kill myself but I can't stand this pain for much longer. I can't hold out hope for something that may never happen. I don't want to let people down. Know that if I speak of this, all my success will fade away and I will have a real reason to kill myself. How can I fix this?
>I don't want to let people down.I have the feeling this is tied to most of your issues
You probably have some mental disorder that is showing ugly symptoms.
>>34899523Nobody will love me if I started acting less in their favor.
>>34899527I mean...yeah. Everybody does though, and they don't end up offing themselves from it.
>>34899557How could they if you're always paying for their love?
>>34899508Assuming that you know what other people are thinking is a cognitive distortion, your thoughts are not real and are beginning to harm you. Catch yourself whenever you do this and remind yourself that you're full of shit. If others really do have difficulties expressing love for you then that's a them problem and offing yourself over other people's problems is stupid.Suicide is a permanent solution to something that's probably temporary. Exercise your options. Don't be a retard. You're smart enough to have a better life than I've got so you're smart enough to work through this. You can do it.
>>34899508When I read your post it was like I was looking in the mirror. I'm pretty much in the exact same circumstance as you. Each passing year my life is getting better and better on paper, yet I'm growing more and more miserable. Depression is an insidious disease man, I don't know how I'm going to make it out of this either. As such, I don't have any practical advice for you but know that you're not the only one out there.
>>34899508Ur boring
>>34899508You have main character syndrome.Get over yourself and you'll be fine.
>>34899508It sounds like your life isn't enviable at all
>>34899508have a good one anon I mean with the death and everything
>>34899508I feel like shit too. I wish I could discuss about it with someone like you.
>>34899508If you can't see that the world's going in a certain direction then you're simply going to catch more strays and ask why, when there's no one to give you an answer, only you can do that.My advice with this limited info is simple: Step one: Be chill, be a giver, volunteer, do shit for random strangers. Food drives, that kinda thing.Step two: Clean your act up, any habits that hurt you, cut them off. Give yourself something with benchmarks instead because your current routine obviously isn't cutting it. It could be an instrument, working out, a new language, something. Step three: Have a new agenda when you meet people. If you give too much attention, hold it back, if you give too little, provide it. Step four: If you're a straight dude, then meet a woman, she'll never be perfect, but she'll be real. Be open, listen, respect yourself through the process.A secret: All women are loved the same, all men are loved differently. So understand in the end that despite her personality, there will be classic milestones you'll hit and yes, simple feminine challenges to your character. You don't sound like you're complete yet, so go for it. You won't believe the kind of shit you can live through and learn. Trust me.
>>34899635I've come to realize my own mind tries to kill the joy and positivity in anything that comes my way. I feel like I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop. That said, I'm miserable because I'm worthless to the people around me and I have no one to talk to. There are times where I'm screaming in my own head and most days I'd prefer to be unconscious rather than awake and living. This will not improve. I don't know how much longer I can stand this pain, or if it'll really be worth it just to hold on for a few more years. I can't speak a word of this or any good prospects I currently have in my life will disappear. If I can barely manage now, I won't live when my life is worse than this.
Maybe I am the dumbest person in the world and maybe I am a psychopath like all the other people in your life. But what I do know is that if you don't accept yourself as a human being who makes mistakes like everyone else and that being alone is a natural part of life that you will be miserable more often. The cure to your problems is not finding this grandiose gladiator image you want, it is enjoying life for what it is. There are little things you aren't seeing that most people would be depleted and cynical about.
>>34899508>>34899508Nigger you legit need two things: To sleep off the shit feels, and to take antidepressants. And just be fucking selfish man. Pay a whore, pay a date with her, pay her to go to the waterpark with you. Just fucking move your life, being successful doesn't mean jackshit, consistently doing things to feel fun is what life is.
I will give you the only real solution, which is the hardest : you have to accept it is how it is. You have to let go of thinking what others think/feel about you. You have to return to your own core, to your own mind. You are always looking at yourself thru the eyes of others.You are saying "i am worthless to my family", how do you know this ? You actually dont, this is not a fact, this is something youve decided its true. You told us yourself, you have a good life. These two things cant be true at the same time. You are not a worthless person, but you are stuck in your own mind trying to gauge your own value through the analysis of what is happening between you and other people. You need to be alone to beat this. Do you live alone or with other people ? Rent a house, live alone, be with yourself. Distance yourself from all other people, even just a little bit. I have a thought experiment for this. Imagine you wake up tomorrow, everyone but 1 person is gone from the world. So its just you and this other person (whoever he/she may be). How important would this person be to you ? Now imagine its just the normal world, you wake up and there are 8.3 BILLION people other than you in the world. How important would any of these people be to you ? Its also the same for everyone, so you have to ACCEPT that barely anyone gives a fuck about barely anyone. Stop trying to be a "successful" part of a group. Start trying to be yourself, alone, lonely, cuz everyone also is.
>>34899557you already feel unloved anyway, they already don't do shit for you, so stop letting people take advantage of you and just chill. if they really don't care you have nothing to lose anyway and you can put that energy into something else. honestly as many times as i have wanted to end it i just tell myself to be patient, it will all come to an end eventually. in the grand scheme of the entire world our existence is extremely brief. this is our tiny sliver of history that we get to experience, no matter how good or bad
>>34899624Ur dumb.
>>34899650This>>34899752Kys and you'll be fine
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>>34905287Rare good post
