Hello anons. I hate my life, I hate life in general. Everything is so shitty nowadays. I live in a big city and it’s the absolutely worst. There’s no sense of community and everybody avoids each other. I rarely talk to anyone on any given day. I don’t even really want to desu. Like I’m so lonely, but I try to avoid talking to anyone, I just want to do my thing and get back home. Everything today feels like shit. Politics is shit. Social media is shit. TV and movies are shit. I play video games less, I’m still addicted to porn. I’m trying to quit that but porn is literally fucking everywhere. I’m not motivated to do anything, let alone work. I often fantasize about growing up hundreds of years ago in a small village or something. I don’t talk to my family because they’re all toxic. I have no one to lean on and I also don’t even let people in because I’m cripplingly avoidant. After so much therapy and learning how to connect, I’ve ironically alienated myself from others because nobody knows how to connect.I don’t know what to do with my life. I make great money, but I barely work because I hate it. I have a cat that I love. Idk everything just feels like shit these days. Sorry for the sloppy writing, I realize it was a vent. I’m just sad and angry and depressed and fucking lonely. Can anyone share a similar experience and how they go through it?
>>>34902488When you start to analyze life, you realize that it's terribly bad, everything is wrong, we are wrong. I feel that at this point in life it no longer makes sense to be depressed about that (specifically) since the only ones who get depressed are us and nobody is going to care. I wouldn't know what to tell you about porn since I've never seen it. Try to reduce it gradually and don't cut back abruptly. For example, if you used to watch 5 videos a day, try watching 3 or 4. You might not notice the difference right away. I hope you get better soon, pull through, and make friends to get out of that depressing hole. ( ﾟ∀ﾟ)
>>34902488I'm going through something similar. The only things that seems to help so far:1. Forcing social interactions, usually through some sort of group or ritual I feel obligated to join2. Trying to be more vulnerable with people to introduce more meaning and authenticity in relationships 3. Being more careful of the media I consume, curating it so I'm better exposed to uplifting or interesting contentI'm still in a bad spot but the above stuff at least helps
>>34902488Get off the interwebsSpend time outsideGo be great at a lot of things. I know you aren't already a master at everything so get to itCall your friends and family, like call them and don't textGo watch the sun rise or set somewhere prettyBook a flight somewhere and travel to see new thingsBasically what I'm saying is to start living the life you want to live. Start your bucket list today since yesterday will never come back.
>>34902488>I hate my life, I hate life in general.Remember that there's a 37 billion USD industry who's goal is to make you feel inadequate and miserable. Don't give in to their manipulation.
>fantasize about growing up hundreds of years ago in a small village or something. I don’t talk to my family because they’re all toxic.You have the self-awareness to write these two sentences back to back.Your experience isn't everyone's. Social city living comes with parties every weekend, community centers filled with people with every niche hobby and so many neighbors all the time. Isolated village living has 1 neighbor that's an antisocial nut living a mile away, constant feuds with the crazy nuts out in the middle of nowhere, entertainment in the form of raiding the nearest city whenever they have large events like sportsball games because there's literally nothing to do.Your idea or quaint village life is that of a Disney adult.
>>34902614I'm thinking about doing this, just pretending the internet doesn't exist. Forgetting all the blackpill stuff I know and going into everything with childlike optimism. Girl smiles at you? Go up and ask her out. Why not, there is no tiktok, no incel culture, no women hating men. She won't record and ostracize you from society for that harmless act. Just do things, don't ask how, don't read stories from others who did it and failed, cuz there's a million different ways how from a million different users now who don't agree and are different than you. The internet is nothing but negative now, it is not a support group or a place to learn, it is not friends, and me being on it is only depressing me and gaining nothing. I waste a lot of time typing things no one responds to that I could use to be closer to a chad women actually want and go to a bunch of events and get a better job or something idk.I probably won't follow through with it but I'm thinking about it. At the end of the day, I'm still a chud to them. I'm still the one that won't like all their immoral followings or that they're covidjabbed. The void of job applications never answers back. The world is ending soon so nothing worldly really matters anymore. Just getting off the internet won't change that.
>>34902811But still, I have discovered (through omegle chat) there are actually wholesome people out there that don't even know what incel is. Makes me think maybe I've been living in this toxic bubble and only listening to others from it, but there's a whole nother world out there.
