where do i start... well i guess as far as i can remember would be a good idea.parents borderline neglected me, father worked a job that he says he loved, but he was gone for 12+ hours a day, and mentally absent the few hours he was home.mother just yelled at me to do my schoolwork, never helped. got to the point where i couldnt understand what was in front of me and she would just yell. homeschooled if your wondering.even after this i tried to be a good son... but due to life and where i live my parents were never able to get me by GED or driver's license until i was 21. so i was stuck with nothing from 16-21. still call myself 16 at times... dosent help that my own mother has said quote: "we would have kicked you out already if you wernt our only son"wasnt allowed to do much that i wanted to. wanted to be a youtuber, was told "after your GED" "after you turn 18" "not in my house!" years later i wanted to try and be a manager "you dont have the experience to be a manager"over the past 2-3 years me and my parents have been arguing, they never listen. mother forces me to try something she wants for me, i either dont want to do it and get yelled at, called lazy, forced to do it anyways, or we get into a argument that im the problem. well it peaked today. (1/?)and pic unrel
i really dont want to do the classes i was forced into this time, and my mother after yelling at me for weeks to do them, and even forcing me to take the earlier classes rather then the ones next year that would let me build up some cash for myself. she asked if i wanted to do these classes 2 weeks into them... i just walked away. i either tell the truth and get yelled at or lie... i hate lying. I. HATE. LYING. even though ive lied so much, just to get them to leave me alone, to tell them what they want to hear, but if i lie now im stuck doing something i hate, if i tell the truth i just get yelled at. its a fucking no-win!and it peeked today. didnt do something my father wanted me to do for the classes, so he nearly beat down my door, i had my knife in-hand, i was positive he was going to try and hit me this time. he didnt, but that means nothing now, i was given a ultimatum: finish the classes, or go back to working full-time but get kicked out at the end of the month. so im fucked either way. do something i hate, or be homeless.im going to try to appeal to my mother tomorrow to at least get the car ive been using. if i cant get that... there is a third option that i really dont want to go down, but im at the end of my rope. i just wanted to be left alone, i was ok with being a nobody, i would rather have peace then success at this point... (2/3)
ive been spending money on stuff ive wanted for a while and was finally going to start getting my finances in order, i even told my mother this the day she got the call the earlier classes had a open spot. thats why i dont have a vehicle yet. that and my parents never taught me how to register, get insurance, pay taxes. etc.so... anyone know anything that could help? im going to fail these classes, no matter how much effort i put in so at the best i could go to the end of the year pretending im doing ok... but my parents are going to call me into the living room to talk about the classes every damn day, so i likely cant fake that...i really dont know what to do...pardon the reddit spacing, i tried to post there first but not even half of this fits there.
Homeschooled with that spelling!
>>34905268>>34905267>>34905265try smoking crack and do rape
>>34905271correction, self-homeschooled. but yea...>>34905281im too afraid of women to rape them...
>>34905284The crack will alleviate the fear, and since you won't be able to get it up you will be knife-raping them.
>>34905284you're clearly intelligent and your heart's in the right place.do you have extended family or friends? There should be like, social workers or community centres available where you are. You can also text or call a helpline on really bad nights. Have hobbies/games that calm you down tot let you not per se escape but calm your soul a little bit.
>>34905968NTA but do those helplines even do anything? I hear they're staffed with dickheads.
>>34905968i have one guy in my family who was abandoned by his father, my parents refused to take him in so ill try to get in contact with him.as for social programs... i live in a deep red state, so "hell naw we dont got programs for those druggies! pullurselfbyedemboutstreps!"as for games i JUST ordered my pc parts last week, the last one should be arriving by the end of this week. my laptop is dying to where i cant play anything anymore, just youtube now.im going to take this and next week to gather everything i can live without and go sell it. hopefully that will give me enough money to get the 4k car i was looking at. but i may take out a loan for the 6k car with 50k less miles on it and a bit cleaner looking.
>>34906659glad to hear it. you can drop me your steam if you want. u can google my name>>34906138they're like a tylenol. Stays on the line as long as you want.>>34906790tfw canada funds it if you homeschool but follow government curriculum
>>34905265Youre still sucking off your parents titIf you want to reclaim your life back, get a job and move outId say the same thing about YouTube if I was your parent. Theres nothing wrong with trying and nothing stopping you from doing it this minute but putting all your eggs in one basket especially in any arts field is stupid. Past artists were funded by royalty because they were the best or had second jobs as music teachers or anything else.Ironically it was often their second job that gave them the motivation to master their artistry because they didnt want to do it forever.Most people funded by or living with mom and dad for a career in the arts end up as insufferable free loaders. They lack the core motivation to get themselves out of a bad situation.Your parents are doing you a disservice and should have kicked you out of you didn't get a job and help out or move out.Just rotting at home you are a tax on civilization. Youre in a unique job field that hasnt existed at any other point in history outside snobby royal brats.I barely read what you wrote though because I can smell the stench of entitlement off you.Good luck anon
>>34907386problem, i have a job. it pays SHIT. less then nearest rent weekly.putting all my eggs in one basket is the only thing my parents will let me do, im not allowed to get any "internet job" or any form of additional income."Most people funded by or living with mom and dad for a career in the arts end up as insufferable free loaders. They lack the core motivation to get themselves out of a bad situation." that... does actually describe me a bit. ill be honest. but im not the insufferable one, i dont scream and shout about not getting what i wanted, i try to just be left alone. but i do lack the fire under my ass to do much with my life... maybe this change will be for the better."Your parents are doing you a disservice and should have kicked you out-" my parents are the reason i'm still stuck here. i begged for a job at 16, and because of them i didn't even get my drivers license and GED until my 20s. so i actually do have reason to blame them for my current circumstances. >>34906790honestly yea, even when my father did try to bring me to a group i didnt make many friends, and those i did all ended up ghosting me, yet my father still blames me for not trying to keep the connections with them... despite the fact that i actually did until they stop responding to me.>>34907222i... might send you a friend request. havent had any online friends in over a yearish. last group was on the verge of falling out so i just left before being apart of another group collapse.
