for a while now ive had this persistent fantasy of getting stabbed in the tummy(lovingly). i really like how knives look from an aesthetic standpoint and i like looking at them and sometimes imagining getting stabbed with the especially nice looking ones and i wanna get a few of my own(theyre just a bit expensive hah). my fav is the buck 120 general.anyway, im not sure what this is honestly. i dont see it as a sexual thing but i do get this funny feeling in my head and stomach when i think about it which i assume are ''butterflies''. i imagine it being more like a loving gesture.im not a sexual masochist, in fact im closer to being asexual. i dont plan on ever having sex. i do have a long and somewhat severe history with self harm though specifically cutting which i think might have something to do with it. ive been doing it since i was a preteen.this is not something thats like distressing to me or anything so im not asking for advice on how to stop these thoughts, i just find it weird and dont really understand it. i know there are people who are into like guro and stuff but thats not the same bc its a sexual fetish for them and this fantasy is not sexual for me. is this a thing for anyone else? not specifically the stabbing part but the non sexual fantasy type thing
you have a demon in you
>>34906828ok but imagine getting stabbed in the bothole (lovingly) with a penis? how does that sound anon?
>>34907317that might just be true
>>34906828what is there to understand? what gets you off gets you offnot everything needs an explanation, especially if, as you said, it doesn't have any harmful or distressing manifestationsread your fantasy stories, roleplay, and cum as hard and as frequently as you can before we all inevitably succumb
>>34907364Your passion for knives was probably meant to do something constructive. This combined with asexuality (another warping of what you're supposed to be) has turned into a demonic desire within you. If you end up killing yourself doing that guess where you will go next? Ask for the highest power to reveal itself with an open heart and you will understand.
>>34907464lol
>>34906828ppl are dogging on you but this is valid. i have it the other way around. i used to fantasize about cutting someone lovingly a lot to like mark them or something. in a nonsexual manner too. idk whats the psychology behind this but its not unheard of to be into this
