>be me, 32>daddy issues, he fucked mommy and left for cigarettes>dad is capitalist addicted to work, founded his own company 20+ years ago. Still the director at 60 nowadays>been working with him for more or less 15 years>half time, full time, home office, all schemes>payment has just been low to average in the last 15 years. I make pretty much the average for mid-class>spend 10 years in the faculty because I was a lazy, terrible faggot of a student>lock in, realize I really like programming although I suck at it>graduate a year ago>been trying to find a job last three yars>three interviews at most over hundreds of applications>relationship with dad is terrible, work sucks, his only real metric is whether I arrive on time to the office or not or whether I'm available past 6pm>never appreciates anything I do>been told countless times to just build tools>alright>create a simple CRUD web app to register the vehicles of the company, their current location, assigned worker, a register of repairs and services/mantainment to keep track of all of this in a more consistent and clean way>yes just a shitty CRUD, that's the best I can do>still>work on it for like a week>expect praise, maybe bigger pay, maybe a one-time bonus>but maybe nothing because my dad is an asshole>oh well, if I get nothing I'll still have one more (real) project on my belt>finish a simple v1.0>present the tool to my ousin (pretty much a general manager of the company)>he finds it useful and cool>tell him to present him to my dad>one week has passed>not even a single "congratulations" or "thanks">AGI is achieved same dayAll this while I'm in big credit card debt, around $62k MXN ($3700 USD) which is a not that much but enough to be a problem, and while I still live with my mum, and we can't stand each other anymore. I mean we love each other and she has never told me to leave but I WANT to leave and while my gf said she wants to marry in at most 3 years from now
>>34907383Today I came to the realization that I'm unequivocally a loser and that I live life like a loser and that I'm very close to the point of no return and that, of course, I'm very depressed. Have been for a while.I'm not suicidal only because I'm a devout catholic and am scared shitless of hell.Thing is, I don't know how the fuck to turn this.I hate my dad, he hates me. But I admit I make a little more than I would get literally anywhere else. I don't know if I should just risk it and disregard the credit card debt and just move out and finally start paying my own rent. At least I'd have my own space, privacy, and mental peace, no?I don't know.
>>34907393Are you op?>>34907383Id start to budget to see if you can pay the debt while renting somewhere.If you cant pay the debt and live poor for a while (cut off unnecessary expenses) to pay it off so you can live with your gf asap.Idk what to tell you about your job field but id possibly look into another career field you may be interested in that will be resistant to ai. Something like Healthcare will only have a growing demand.https://isaiprofitable.com/Until I see the companies here go in the green I am still calling bs on agi. Theyre selling rumors to run on wishful thinking.The only company making it is the jeans seller to the 'gold' miners (graphics cards manufacturers).
>>34907422>Are you op?Yeah, hit limit.>>34907422>Id start to budget to see if you can pay the debt while renting somewhere.Yeah I'm trying this. Been cutting off lots of unnecessary expenses because I was living in a very stupid way, and incompatible with my reality,i.e. I got drunk every saturday night for pretty much all of 2024, 2025 and Q1 2026, spend a lot on takeout and that kind of stuff. It has been tough because sometimes I still spend a lot but I've made some improvements.Anyway thanks for showing that site, it really gives me some hopium. And thanks for the advice.
Talk to your dad about your daddy issues
