Hi, so I published the first part three months ago, where I told about how my best friend confessed to me. I said I didn't feel the same, and she has grown distant irl, but keeps texting me sometimes like nothing had happened.After some group projects where my friends were with her, every time I came to their table, she acted as if I didn't exist. So months passed and I saw how she was alone in the recess, and I wanted to get closer, but then I remembered everything and how she told me that she didn't want me to get closer unless she speaks to me first.Then, it's June 25th, her birthday. She gave me a present on my birthday, so I gave her one too. But I noticed how she put her head down on the table and I didn't want to disturb her, so I left it at her side.Then the messages started getting less enthusiastic, and I was overthinking almost all of July about how I don't have to get mad—because my mind told me she didn't do anything wrong—but damn, my younger me thought that a talk could solve anything step by step.August came, and she started talking to another girl. I didn't mind, because at least I wouldn't feel remorse for not getting closer, and she maybe would pass her feelings and talk to me as a friend, even if we aren't that close when that time comes.Then, the friend she talked to (we call her Amy) had another best friend before (Cristine), but Cristine was talking to (Emily - another fake name lol). So in August, Emily left the school because of personal problems, and Amy and Cristine started talking again, leaving her alone again.Continue in comments
So at this point I was a lot better; I didn't overthink a lot and I wasn't sad every time I saw her. But I was hoping for the day she decides to not ignore me. I also passed the feeling of "being mad" because there have been times she tells me that she is going to talk to me and nothing happens, so I feel sad and disappointed because I thought this would be the time—and I didn't try either because I kept remembering she didn't want me to talk first.Now it's September, and I was finally feeling like she was a memory, a good friendship, but I didn't feel sad every time. I even started relating her to her pfp (I made her a Mii and she kept that ever since) instead of her real face, and I was fine. I even decided to stop thinking about it and I thought about telling her to stop texting me, because she has been giving me fake hopes and I wanted her to take some time if she wants to be friends in the future.Then, just when I marked my date, (When I would tell her) , she texted me. A friend of ours (who's been knowing the situation) told me to answer, because she had been texting me asking if I loved her, but I avoided the question because I was sad and didn't want to make things uncomfortable. I said that even through everything that happened, I loved her as a friend.Then she saw it and we started chatting—for six days now, like a lot. Sometimes I don't feel awkward and just answer with enthusiasm, but sometimes the texts get a bit weird, like how she told me that even through everything, I laugh, or that I won't be the one she cried through all of 2026. But then she forgot the topic and insisted that I don't answer those messages.continue in next comment
In irl she is distant and alone again, and that makes me sad again. How can she text me with so much joy and avoid me irl? I had the instinct to get closer again, but I remembered everything from June and told myself that if I got closer, she would be scared and not text me anymore. Now she says that she wants to hang out with me sometime and buy me gifts, but I can't help but feel confused, because how would she do that when she doesn't want to talk to me at school? Yesterday I was hoping she would ask me to hang out with her at school if she is too shy to do it by herself, but I don't think she wants that.And although at first I was happy we started talking again, I can't help but feel sad about her attitude (sorry for the word, I think I'm the asshole, that's why I'm apologizing) being so hypocritical.End :D
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