So basically i need help, i struggle with derealisation/depersonalisation and it's getting worst every month, i started having suicidal thoughts and all for multiple reasons but mainly because life isnt so worth living. Coz i fear the futur, because we're meant to study most of our lives and then work all our lives, not alot of time for ourselves and stuff. I used to struggle with self harm but not anymore tho i smoke whatever i got, vape, cigs, weed and etc, my parents doesnt know. I dont know how to make all of this make sense but can someone help me find a way or advice something to try and make me want to live. I failed a suicide attempt last year and idk, school restarted 2 weeks ago and this is straight bullshit. I hate it all. Fucking highschool what even am i supposed to do with my life besides studying and working until i die. I get overwhelmed easily too and i hate it.Thanks to anyone who gives advices
