nobody truly understands me or ever will. I have no friends, nobody to talk to, i spend every day inside my room, just listening to music and daydreaming about what my life could be, i don't even get along with people online because i am simply too bland and cant bother to put up an act just to match their energy, neither do i have anything interesting to say, i never had a girlfriend either, and i'm not even ugly. the thing about me is, i dont want a long term relationship that lasts forever, because i tell myself what kind of book has no ending? i want to yearn on the relationships i once had, i'm not the type of guy to just have sex with a woman and forget, rather the kind of guy that wants to build a deep connection, write her love letters, take her places other guys wouldn't, for example on top of buildings so we can admire the view and take pictures. i am a very romantic guy, and this might be the issue, none of the girls i've talked to had the same interests. but the truth is, i dont truly want a relationship for the relationship itself, but rather because i chase memories and experiences, which are more important to me.
>>34915569I am in a similar position to you OP. No friends and I am too boring for women. The best course of action is to just abandon all hope for a gf, it's not going to happen and latching onto that hope is only going to bring more suffering. >i dont want a long term relationship that lasts forever, because i tell myself what kind of book has no ending?This is don't get, why would you not want a relationship that lasts your entire life? Do you just want to be single in your 80's? The analogy doesn't even make sense, humans don't live forever, so the end of the relationship would be one of your deaths.
>>34915736>The best course of action is to just abandon all hope for a gf, it's not going to happen and latching onto that hope is only going to bring more sufferingDon't agree with you, as I said in the post, the reason why I don't have a girlfriend is because they are not like the version I imagine them in my head, if I truly wanted one, it wouldn't be that much of a problem.>This is don't get, why would you not want a relationship that lasts your entire life? Do you just want to be single in your 80's? The analogy doesn't even make sense, humans don't live forever, so the end of the relationship would be one of your deaths.I'd rather die right after my prime ends and have my woman remember and mourn me for who I was while i was still beautiful and capable. And if that is not the case, I don't wanna die at old age with a old hag next to me I'd rather stick with the memories I had when I was still young.
>>34915569You keep making up these false narratives that are completely not real.
>>34915759Maybe they are not real for you, nothing is impossible to experience in this life
>>34915569Nobody loves me.Everybody hates me.I'm going in the gardenAnd I'm gonna eatWorms.