I fucking hate women so god damn much. Even the ones on this website. /soc/ is full of the worst women on the internet.

A hint? I hope you’ll forgive me but I need a bit of my own time to prepare as well away from here now. What I can say is that it’s merely a game and that it’s been a long time since I had this much anticipation for one.

>>34937954
Well, I wish you luck regardless. Hopefully they receive your message well and it doesn't cause hardship. I'm dealing with a situation right now and your message gave me hope that something might happen, but unfortunately I have the cards.

I just had an absolutely explosive argument with my mother who I'm staying with for Jewish holidays. I struggle with general resentment toward her because of how irresponsible and often like a child she is. My father has been gone a decade and I'm in my early 30s. There are simply too many instances of me feeling like I have to be the parent. I'm a disrespectful person toward her constantly. I just struggle so hard to respect her at all. All my life everyone stepped on her including my father. The men who were best to her she didn't stay with. She's always given her all for me which is why this is so impossible for me to reconcile. Her family is almost always a problem and she goes running to help them without making sure she's secure herself. I get insanely disgusted if she ever drinks. I can't help but mock her when she does something stupid. She always picks at things she knows hurt me and eventually I lose it. The hardest thing about everything is just that she seems so incapable of being the adult. I can't go to her for advice. I have to advise her.

The holiest day of the Jewish year starts in two hours and I've just fallen so far that I feel as though I should kill myself because I failed to honor my mother, one of the ten commandments.

I'm not waiting 2 fucking days everytime I ask a question, woman.

>>34937982
Is the time mentioned suitable? It’s only fair to have the participants at full strength.

I spent 38 dollars for a shirt and its the best fucking shirt I've ever worn

>>34937996
I'm not sure if you're meaning to reply to me or not. I think it is good if you wait a few days and gather your thoughts.

Man I really need to stop using the internet

I just want to run away

it's over.

i think he hates me

I'm gay? And she? Well, what can I say but:

Silly me I had forgotten something. I gave some of my decision power over to someone else. They know I have a problem with games and let me know that there are some I can’t play. I apologize for my rudeness. No matter how I feel sometimes it’s not up to me alone.

>>34938142
Who told you that?

>>34938164
because anyone in his position would

>>34938153
Mike? Is that you?

I'm still here, J.

oh mike how i love you so. i cannot wait for you to sweep me off my feet once again. 3 days is too long my dear, tall, balding mike. oh how i miss your 12 inch dong so.

>>34938169
No. Just someone who doesn’t at all hate the person he thought he was talking to. He always misses them. If the strange theory he had once was true he thinks it will all work out though. If not he’ll be wishing them well.

>>34938186
and what would that theory be?

>>34938167
Who's to say

>>34938192
basic common sense, what else

>>34938197
you can't just say 'common sense' without anything else to back it up, especially when you claim you can do magic. I can't believe you right now.

>>34938200
i wish i could do magic i'd magic u far far away from me cause ur annoying and taunting me when im already feeling bad

>>34938189
Pretty much just that I wasn’t the only one choosing to keep my distance for one reason or another.

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>>34938202

>>34938197
What if he has uncommon sense? Huh?

Didn’t you want someone to love the face and the mask?

what the hell are you talking about? one two three four hip hip hippty hop hep me ho ho ho

If it’s so absurd then don’t mind me.

did you scare your children? your little kitties? I could be a good father to them btw.

I think just you and me scared today

i meant before. back when i was viewing you. you remember how, right?

I always like to repeatedly read anything that I type, like it's more important than anything else that I read. Am I a narcissist?

>>34937933
Got work in 6hrs, want to get another hour or two of sleep in, didn't expect to sleep through all of Sunday

Holy shit you're a way better stalker than I am. Not only did you find all of my alt accounts, but you tricked me into giving away how often I was checking up on you myself.

Do you hate my mask and face?

what?

Do you really think of me what I think of me?

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huh?

You guys are crazy

I've been doing fucking NOTHING all day like a LOSER!

>>34938429
thanks, CIA.

>>34938153
what??? what sort of problems?

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girlie stop vague posting all day and get a move on.

You know it’s not all lies and hypocrisy. I do want to be better. What about you?

>>34938477
I was hoping we could learn to be better together.

>>34938477
Pressing up, down, left, right, left trigger, right trigger, and select button. Sweet a cheat code.

>>34938397
maybe you wanted to get caught?

>>34938486
>>34938499
I want to take some of the own advice I give more. You’re an observer of me but I know I am of me too. You catching me has an effect sure but I don’t know how to fix the me part. I also just don’t know how to trust.

>>34938506
only the bottom reply is mine. Do you know who I am? There have been many, many trickeries on this website.

I don’t know if I can talk to you again on my own now. For me I never really want to die but I do want to be alone. For what it’s worth I’ve always thought you were sublime even if you scare me a lot sometimes too

>>34938511
Yeah well the best advice helps you handle the possibility of being stranded on a street with passer bys forgetting you.

>>34937933
I want to know how feeling love feels like. I've never felt love towards anyone and neither has anyone felt love towards me. It's a class of emotion ubiquitous in the general population that's missing from me. And this fact annoys me to no end.

>>34938536
>It's a class of emotion ubiquitous in the general population
Not quite

>>34938536
And how is it for you? What do you love? Who loves you? This isn’t accurate anyway.

The only reason why I ever even thought in my mind that you 'hated me' was because your sibling, half a lifetime ago, said that you hated my guts. You acted kind after that, so there was always reason to doubt it. I wonder why they said that. Maybe you did at the time, tbf, I was extremely irritating. It was so long ago. I wish I still had my diary from then.

I just tried to kill myself but I used a shitty blade that didn't cut deep enough. Currently at the hospital.

You discarded me for the reason of pursuing a career that i wanted, but it was only to make it so i could close the distance between us. It was always in effort for you, but it is too late now you said we made no progress in the years but what was asked for takes years to get there, you just threw it away close to the finish line.

>>34938574
thats terrible im sorry that happened
im glad ur okay
why did you try to kill yourself?

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>>34937933
I've done the impossible: I brought my eating disorder to heel. It will never fully leave me of course, but it's been a month and a voice that was once as loud as thunder has become just a whisper.

I feel... free. I feel so free. Like I can just stop fighting. I can lay down, take a deep breath and just stop fighting. This entire year every single day has been me fighting my hardest just to keep this thing from totally crushing me. But... I did it. I really fucking did it. I can just eat lunch now. I can literally just do it and not want to kill myself after. Do you know how powerful a feeling that is? I feel like this is the first time in over a year I am not fighting with everything I've got.

There’s only one person I could come close to saying I truly hate but it’s more like indifference. No idea about the rest of that all though.

You’re acting a little strange.

if you are who you think the person you think is looking for, contact them more directly. Take your time. Clear shit up. My tummy hurts :(

I’ll do whatever I want thanks though. I’m good at waiting.

The ball's not in my court.

You know it could all be a misunderstanding but I can be quite irritating too.

What's the best method then? Or is that part of it too?

>>34938718
Watch and learn kid

I think I'm just desperate and having a bad night but it really feels like she could've made a lot of posts ITT. I should really just go to bed.

>>34938725
are you stealing my ball(s)?

how rude! ah, well, might be part of the game.

Or?

>>34938582
Dissatisfied with my life in general. In debt, got no job, no prospects for the future, the girl that I love with all my heart fianlly got tired of my miserable ass, all in all I just got to a point where I got fed up with my life and didn't really care to try to do anything about it. Deep down I think I knew I wouldn't accomplish it but I just needed to shake my life with somehow. The thought of going back to my apartment and laying in my bed just to wake up to another day of being miserable just seemed overwhelmingly unattractive. So I just took a blade and went at it. Wasn't a particularly sharp blade and the cuts ended up not going very deep.

She wasn't human dude. None of them where. I fucking knew it and you fuckers knew it too. You lied to me, you saw I believed it. How the fuck can I mend my heart after this shit. I can't fucking believe I ever thought of them as human.

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>>34938592
Proud of you anon, congrats

>>34938718
Figure that out yourself. The same way you discarded me for downgrades and made me figure out how to get to the top with all this cash and ass. If I were still lowering my standards to be with a loser like you, I wouldn’t be as successful with all this happiness and peace. You played yourself.

>>34938440
https://youtu.be/9uJc9DP9FPU?si=B6H37VBzMecPo2sq

Since detransitioning I learned how to be assertive in most situations except with women i am attracted to I still fold into a soft submissive coward.

>>34938829
who are you exactly?

>>34938849
>15 views
Is that your content or sum

this is a bot thread isn't it?

no this is Patrick

>>34937933
I am 40 and want to find a husband and start a family. that has always been the core of my life and yet it took me decades to grow into the wish, now that everyone is settled. I can even move countries, lives..it doesn't matter where happiness lies. But oh life, tell me why it had to go this way.

I miss the person I resent the most, you felt i had moved on but i was just doing all of my efforts to try make it work. I will always try my best but maybe it isnt enough to fix life, maybe fixing life wasnt the way and rather experiencing it was all that we needed, you had too many expectations placed to make what you wanted work and i carelessly agreed to it all.

:) Watch me

>>34937933
test

>>34938891
Your worst nightmare.

>>34938993
you can't walk my dreams big boy

>>34939011
You’re still dreaming of your dreams while I’m living the dream.

>>34937933
Early 30s and I've genuinely have never felt a greater desire to die than in the last month. My brother is schizophrenic and my sister has severe autism. I had an abusive teacher in middle school and never had a normal life trajectory. I never had anyone I could depend on, my mother has done immeasurable damage to me mentally and financially. I spent the majority of my adult life paralyzed by anxiety and self hatred because of her. Every time I manage to get back on track I'm derailed. I just can't seem to adjust normally, I can't find a job. I was supposed to start law school this year but was forced to postpone it because of her. I don't have friend's anymore, the only girl I ever genuinely loved and felt sexually comfortable with was married and she moved away a few months ago. I hate myself and genuinely don't want to live anymore, I wish I was never born.

>>34939018
you don't know me. you don't know anyone on this board

>>34939023
That has nothing to do with you asking for the method on how you can build character. You’re deflecting to avoid how stupid you are.

>>34939051
What are you trying to do here?

My furry friend, you were the sweetest love I ever knew. We spoke a secret language and understood each other in ways that words could not describe. The bond we formed was so strong and pure, I cherished every moment, because I knew that what we had was a once in a lifetime rarity that I got to experience every day. Every day, everything, everywhere, always looking forward to you. You gave me reason when there was void, you gave me comfort when there was pain, you gave me wisdom when there was doubt, and you gave me love when there was fear. The changes we navigated and the splendor we enjoyed are the testaments to the story we built together. Now, I can’t remember a life without you. I will miss you in the mornings and at night. My muscles will reach for you and my eyes will seek you out in the dark. My bed will feel empty without you by my side. Your warmth and your purr will no longer soothe me. But your memory will never be forgotten. Rest easy, my lovey kitty.