>>34947188I'm drunk at work again and I must have said too much to the dog walker because now he knows I have no friends
Guys
Bougie shit
>>34947192Dang anon, you'll be okay
>>34947188I recently started talking to this guy on insta. today I happened to be quite active on Reddit. went a lil post crazy and this dude happens to be in the exact same small ass reddit group that I'm in like genuinely what are the odds. and ofc w my luck I asked a dumb ahh question. he ends up privately messaging me. I'm pretty sure he knows that its me. is it over? keep it a buck
Amber, I know you're never going to read this and God knows you'll see all the lovey dovey posts I left if you saw the archive but something crossed my mind at work today that pissed me offWe started dating when you were 16 and I was 20 and you call me 4 years later a fucking groomer? Bitch if I was after young barely legal pussy, I wouldn't have stayed with you for 4 years would I? If I was after young pussy Lord knows I would have thrown you to the curb after your age started with a 2X, Lord knows I wouldn't have stayed with you when you got chronically ill, I wouldn't have done any of the things I did for you Silly me I had unconditional love on a girl who didn't deserve it, fuck you, how dare you call me something so disgusting when you played my loyalty explicitly like a fiddle. I wanted to marry you Amber, I thought you were my soul mate Amber, I was love sick even thinking about you, and you turned so cold and so callus, so utterly cruel, it was disgusting, shame on you.
>>34947188I hate myself for leaving behind my childhood stuff in a recent poorly planned move. I tried to go back for it, but for multiple reasons, it was out of my hands.
>>34947188MD, I want to wake you up with head one last timeLiterally to sneak your panties off and eat your grool covered pussy like a glazed donutFucking... Unblock meeeee! I know you sometimes still come here!
>>34947219I tried to save as much as I could, and I think I saved the most important stuff. Maybe a third of the stuff; my childhood T Rex plush, my Pokémon card collection, other things. Realized what I forgot progressively later. I had so much else going on that I had to do all this other stuff before that stuff, which was a huge amorphous pile in the basement. I am an Autistic man so this is why I am still attached to childhood things.
>>34947219>>34947238I went through this a couple years ago while moving my dad out of his infested shithole apartment. It was a disaster of a move and a lot of my old childhood toys were left in a storage locker we hadn't touched in a decade. Between the mess I had to clean up and him being a hassle I just forgot about that locker and by the time I got back to it like a year later, it was all gone. Cried myself to sleep for a month after that.I just learned to live with it. Remember what those things meant to you. I've started slowly collecting and rebuilding my old zoids lineup which is helping me cope with it.
it's over.
It never even started
I'm happy it's begun
>>34947306Thank you. Thank you for responding to me. A lot of that stuff was ruined by mold or mouse/squirrel feces, so I don't know how much I could have saved. If I had more space and time... I didn't. It was a lot of things. Fatigue, (my father died some months before then,) analysis paralysis, too much to do, sudden deadlines, etc.>I just learned to live with it. Remember what those things meant to you. I've started slowly collecting and rebuilding my old zoids lineup which is helping me cope with it.I'm gonna do the same thing with Pokemania stuff, gen 1 Digimon cards, Animorphs and Goosebumps books. Over time, if the prices are reasonable.
>>34947323>>34947324
what are you yapping bout
LIFE HAS ALREADY BEGUN!YOU ARE DYING RIGHT NOW!BUT IN THAT CONSTANT DEATH,YOU ARE CONSTANTLY REBORN!SO LIVE MY FRIENDS!LIVE!
>>34947306>Cried myself to sleep for a month after that.I have trouble crying, but I have had trouble breathing and have been giving myself guilt trips. Way different from my father, but he was a 75 year old man with a boatload of illnesses and an emotionally abusive narcissist. Whole different story there.
>>34947350I shall die so as to live!Rise again, yes, you will rise again, my heart, in an instant!What you have overcome shall carry you to God!
i gotta go outside girlie-pop, work those calves, strut that stuff. you know how it is momma cat. all you little stinky kitty-cats in here better do the same before those hounds come and ruff you up. meow meow
>>34947188I don't know what to do.
are you a lil smelly kitten? get out!
Only because I want a bottle of water. Not because you said to
you have wate rin your house silly
I'm starting to realize I don't exist. I'm not a real person. That sucks, but it's an important realization.
I wanted bottles water not faucet water
Everyone’s real silly even you and your problems
you’re probably not going to hell. But you might live in one already
>>34947451what are you going to do about it?
>>34947457How rich are you that this matters? No, how wasteful are you? Get a fucking filter dude.
You do whatever you want
I want to suck your blood
>>34947482Yea but I can get out of it, bitch.
Yeah well I don’t know you like that
>>34947497I don’t know you. I’m sure you could
BITCH LIFE ISNT A BATTLE ITS A FUCKING WAR AND IT AINT TILL YOU SIGN THAT ARMISTICE THAT ITS OVERFIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT
>>34947501MY BRAIN TELLS ME YOU'RE CORRECTAMUNDO
Do you guys really believe in that god stuff like you’re not just fibbing. You think you know
>>34947488Don't be a prick about it. I'll get around to a filter
>>34947503who am i fighting
>>34947486I'm not sure there is anything to do about it. I guess I'll do what I can to help the people I care about. People who are real people in a way I can never be
i need to learn to be happy alone
Because you don’t know. Have fun
After being touch starved for so long, now that I finally got some motion I've become aware of the much larger and much harder to solve problem of actually finding a woman worth my time. I can definitely see why some of the men I've ran into throughout life were one-and-done when it came to relationships.
>>34947539It's not that you can never be real, you must walk the path of being a real person until you are one. Fake it until you make it but idk dress it up in your mind more. It's hard af and fuck knows I'm a loser, but I'm not fully drowning because I FIGHT. bitch.
You guys are actually kinda cute now that I look at it that way.
>>34947576I don't think about it as drowning. I don't think about it as fighting. It just is. I'm not real. I'm a ghost. I struggle to struggle. Without struggle there isn't victory. Without victory there isn't joy. There is no purpose. I just am. A human shaped organism.
>>34947597Imitation cheese is made of industrial powders, cheap recycled fats, and chemical binders whipped into a glossy, plastic like paste. It bypasses the traditional, natural process of milk fermentation and aging entirely. Instead, it is manufactured in high heat industrial vats using a recipe designed to mimic the texture of dairy while utilizing the cheapest survival grade ingredients available. To the untrained palate, imitation cheese is almost impossible to tell apart from real cheese. There is something admirable in how a bunch of low grade sludge and waste can be transformed into something eatable
>>34947581who is?
>>34947597Why is victory needed to enjoy life? Can't you find something in the struggle itself and the improvements youve made? I think I understand what you mean by being a ghost, but I'm kinda wanting you to elaborate more.
>>34947623WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING!!!!!!!?
Is victory slobbering over my knob this hard maybe you should just go get a hobby
I was almost scammed but at the end confronted the guy sending me phishing links on why he does it and said I'd really hope he changes his waysHe has my phone number now, but I reported it anyway because I couldn't let others who dont know how interwebz work fall for itI may be autistic because now after we sincerly talked for a bit I feel bad for him and for the report
>>34947188I've talked with many women these past months, all ghosted BUT while they still liked me literally every single one said I have a really good voice. One even wanted me to read to her.So friends, how can I capitalize on this voice? I work in a stem job and don't talk to anyone all day. I have virtually no friends.Advice is appreciated.
Why do we have boards, forums and threads to ask questions? Nether of my questions were ever solved online, it was always me putting effort to solve the issue or spending lots of time (days/weeks) doing my own research and reaching out to many people and figuring out working solutions.
>>34947645Other people have sincere lives. They struggle succeed and fail. They achieve. They dream. I just am. If I take a deep breath, I experience nothing. I don't dream succeed or fail. I don't strive. I just am. The same way a plant exists. I am always reminded of how feeble and pathetic I am. If I put my mind to something it doesn't get accomplished. I just make myself busy while I fail instead. I don't know how to explain it. I just looked out upon a crowd and realized how inferior I really am. It didn't even hurt.
You would not plug in at the setup. Should’ve been rougher with you
>>34947689Sounds a bit like me at times. Basically,.stop thinking about it. That's the only advice I can give.
>>34947685why are you posting here then?
I'm better than a vast majority of you in every metric.
why are you here then?
I enjoy giving advice to people because it feeds my (correct) sense of superiority. I laugh at the retards who need to cope with every day simple human interactions or how to maneuver simple things in life.
Sounds like someone had a good childhood and good parents. Some of us weren't as lucky
Life isn't just about upbringing. You can make your own greatness, you know. You're coping right now.
I am making my own greatness. Why do you think life is already set in stone? I simply didn't start at the same point.
I never implied it was. In fact I implied the opposite. How did you come to that conclusion?
Nvm I'm stupid and can't read. Now you know why I never finished HS
I told you I'm better than most of you. I'm not just blowing smoke.
so what's your qualifications?
it's also funny that you make fun of a 19 year old who had to drop out and work when you probably had some cush from mommy and daddy
For starters I didn't fail high-school.
If you must know my mommy and daddy divorced when I was very young so there goes that cope lol
I didn't fail I dropped out because I could either eat or go to school
Cope.
Dad left when i was a kid and mom did smack all day.
You're brown, aren't you?
>>34947710I don't ask questions here anymore and just lurk occasionally
I'm whiter than your teeth
At least you have that going for you.
During the rectification of the Vuldrini, the traveler came as a large and moving Torg! Then, during the third reconciliation of the last of the McKetrick supplicants, they chose a new form for him: that of a giant Slor! Many Shuvs and Zuuls knew what it was to be roasted in the depths of the Slor that day, I can tell you!
O little red roseMan lies in greatest needMan lies in greatest painHow I would rather be in heaven
I fucked things up with you. I admit it. I didn't mean it, you probably took offense to it though and that's fair and I'm sorry. I fell for you HARD and didn't know what to do and it took me way too long to realize you felt the same. I really really hope I get another chance some day and I hope your heart is open to me even after what I did to you. I'm sorry.
working out so i can BEAT THE SHIT out of you. i will strangle obeisance into you, you fucking mutt. i wish you were never borne into my life, you horrible goddamn animal. I would shoot you in the head if they didn't love you for some reason. fucking cur. i wish terror and death upon you. FUCK YOU, FUCK WHAT YOU ARE, DIIIIEEEE
>>34947861What did you do to that person? It looks like because of it, you lost access and need to write it on an anonymous board instead.
>>34947945I thought they just wanted to be friends and made them feel undesirable. I don't think they've blocked me, but I think they don't want to talk to me right now.
>>34947929Working out wont fix you being a bitch. Give me the chance to rob your manhood.
some days it really does sound so nice just to take the cowards way out of things existence is lonely
>>34947929Timmy's upset again everybody watch out, he might write another poem about it
>>34947929Been a lot of things but not a mutt. Isn't that why ur a manlet?
>>34948002>>34948007FUCK YOU.
>>34948011Aw baby back bitch with nothing but mean words
>>34948014right back at youFUCK YOU
>>34948011Really hit little timmy where it hurts, why dont he just call you to play tuff? Is he a big fake pussy?
SMACK! WHO IS THIS NIGGA?
>>34948015Say my name, bitch.
IM BIG PUSSYSIT ON THIS COCKSUCKA>>34948016FUCK YOU>>34948018walter?
>>34948018He's busy getting bucked
>>34948021Your got damn right.
I wonder if Beyonce actually wrote Say My Name...
>>34948016>little timmythat is so fucking lame man. call me a kike or something. honestly. anyway eviscerate dogs dissect dogs kick dogs terrorize dogs starve dogs beat dogs kill all dogs fuck you. night.
>>34948037The fact that you cant contact who you are bitching about while pretending to tough is all any one needs to know about you. Your daddy's cum in your mouth makes it hard to tell the truth.Pull up right now and get your nuts taken, bitch boy.
>>34948037Whats your problem with dogs, faggot?
>>34948042He hates dogs cuz hes a pussy
>>34947929who are you beating?
UGHHHHHH I HAVE SUCH BAD DANDRUFF IM GOING TO SKIN MYSELF PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
I'm free from the annoying people here. 4chan is also annoying but I'm home.
My old accounts were never found by anyone. Thank god
>>34947188No one believes me when I explain to them how I'm targeted and how the government is after me. They will get me I can see them outside right now. I need someone to help me. Help!
I still call it smack
>>34948175No one. His shrimp dick, probably.
I thought it was wider than it was long
>>34948224Getting shot in front of your friends?
it's actual longer diagonally
Imagine working out with your little frustrated rage just to get your skull broken
how big are you again? 5'1? mini mike i used to call you
i just bought myself a t shirt it should arrive around my birthday :D
How do I stop thinking about her?
>>34947965>I thought they just wanted to be friendsThat’s an interesting way to put it.
i'm not relapsing, but i am having a hard day. Recovery from anorexia... it's just... the body horror is real. My body is twisting into this horrible mass. I can't tell if i'm overweight or dangerously thin and my body seems to change shape moment to moment. The only way i recognize myself is by my face but i rarely look in the mirror.I didn't eat lunch today which doesn't sound like such a huge deal but for me, that's a tightrope walk. It's like getting a hit of a drug or a sip of whisky for an alcoholic. I feel that unbelievably awesome mania. I used my diet app again too and I saw picrel and i started crying because this is most of my day. For just a brief period i felt free. I may not relapse this time, but what i am reminded of is that there is no "out" other than death. I can't die right now but there are days where i really wish i could. I hate living as anorexic. I hate it so much. I just want to indulge in it until it kills me but life circumstance won't allow it.
>>34948354Do you not just keep a calorie budget?
>>34948365In recovery I don't do that because the number makes me go stir crazy. I've spent the last year agonizing when i go above 700cals. 1200 is still a struggle for me to admit is fine. The less information i have, the less i get the urge.Realistically i'd say i'm getting close to 1200 a day but my maintenance still exceeds that.
>>34948340It's an oversimplification. It wasn't clear what they meant but I interpreted it that way. I never actually clarified what they meant, and that was my biggest mistake.
>>34948392So you never slept together?
>>34948388Isn't that counter intuitive? That if everything is clearly labeled and you have a 2,000 calorie "limit" it should be easy to keep track
lol so if you were super into me (i have good intuition so didn’t technically need this confirmed by you, more so, needed you to be a willing and available participant) why’d you say “I’m not into you”“we can be friends tho”hurrrrr fucking durrrrr i wanted to be both you absolute fucking moron but now i really don’t because too much time has passed, which means too much time that you’ve had that you didn’t use towards remediation and also too much time you thought i would willingly waste of my best years. rude much? anyways accountability is lovely and might actually help if you can’t afford therapy
>>34948417I have to take enormous pains not to think about it. I have most cal content memorized (at least for what I eat) so I have to basically shove my head in the sand and pretend I don't know how much I eat. If I write it my cal app, it just turns it from a 9 to a 10. It feels like an impossible fight some days
>>34948404Nope, just started making out the last time we met but stopped for reasons I can't get into here because it's too specific and self-identifying. It just sucks because I don't think I've felt feelings so pure for someone since my first love over a decade ago.
>>34948525When was the last time you two actually saw each other?
>>34948494In my experience “I’m not into you but we can still be friends” followed by endless silence and ghosting is really shorthand for “I don’t really give a fuck about you, I’ve been leading you on for years because I enjoyed the attention but now I’m tired of it”
>>34948552deleting this bc honestly they don’t need that validation but nah they’ve been in a public downward spiral and crashout ever since i dropped them. timings align too perfectly for me to even consider me being the crazy one. i used to think maybe i was wrong about it all, but the ending confirmed everything pretty effortlessly. i honestly thought they would’ve been better at hiding it.
>>34948536Two months ago. I get it, not a lot of time for either of us to move on, but after a few good weeks the pain came back to me today. It doesn't help that seeing other people isn't going well for me.
When I said you were my one and only I meant it, I don't think I will ever be good enough for anyone.
why not?
I so desperately wanted romantically love for the longest time. >not attractive>never quite loved anyone >fall for BPD woman really hard>she's obsessed with me >get trauma bonded by her suicide threats >constant mistreatment destroys me>lose myself to tender to her volatile moods>never know when she's gonna berate me or pick a fight >lose hair and some of them turn grey due stress >cruelty from her amps up>break up because of it>she eventually apologizes But I can't go back, and it completely ruined my ability to love.I should just accept love isn't for me, the women that loved me I couldn't love them back, I'm broken.
H, I am sorry for being cold and distant with you. Deep down I have feelings for you. The reason why I suppress them is because we work together. I have had an issue in the recent past with a former coworker that did not work out between us. I do not want to have that happen again. I should have chosen a better way to have conveyed that to you. Not being able to have a real talk with you and enjoy your laughter is killing me inside.
>>34947188I made peace with the fact that the hot girl didn't want to join the group chat, and the reserve girls didn't either, but I forgot that the annoying old lady was in the group I sent the invite to, and now she joined. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. I just know she is going to post irrelevant shit every time the rest of us post something relevant. REEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Struggling to want to progress in my chosen job field because of the attached emotions from my ex, she put a lot of pressure to make it, frequently telling me I was ngmi and now that I did after she left it all feels empty, I only ever supported efforts but I did not get the same in the end unless there was an expected pay off from it, I am sorry I took too long, I tried my best.
I was foolish to trust your words.I gave my heart to you, only for you to mishandle itYou broke my heart 5 times, the fifth time was way too much, not knowing I'd be so easily discarded and replaced, even though I had to run away from your abuse and manipulation first, completely destroyed me.Then you apologize in a non specific way, and say you still care about me, and that you never meant to hurt me the way "think" you "might have" hurt me, and that you want to see me well. No one who actually cares about someone does any of what you did. You don't love people, you love how they make you feel, you destroy them so they don't leave you, so they don't think they deserve someone who actually treats them right. I loved you, because I chose to love, to care, even in your worst moments, even when you berated me after I showed you my love by taking care, by remembering all the little things, because you were once a hurt child just like I was, I just wanted to hold you and be held by you too.
Thanks for reminding why I hate you
I’m the man and I’m the man and everybody out there knows that I’m the baddest I’m the baddest of them all and you just mad
i miss my s.m
>>34948768Why is that anon?
>>34948827Doesn't matter anymore
>>34948767I was heartbroken thrice and conceded that would be the last time not knowing the heart will never mend after.
I'm going to sell my voice
two things weighing down on me from long ago:>when I was 18 and my brother was 12, I got angry at him being annoying and briefly put my hands around his throat before I realized what I was doing and let go. I don't even remember if I apologized or not, but I'd shut myself away from him in fear that I'd do it again basically until I moved out and have had only scant contact with him since. by all indications he's been over it for a while and my parents insist that he is as well, but I still acknowledge I did something horrible by allowing my anger to take control to that extent, and I'm not sure if I deserve to be over that and be more than what I did then >there was a teenager on a mental health forum worrying about being a pedo, and I (an adult at the time) wanted to help them get over their worries, so I asked them questions like like “do you want to have sex with children” and “would you have sex with a child if there were no consequences”. and now I'm mulling over whether that was inappropriate and invasive of me to do, and if so, to what extent; redeemable or not
>>34948767>>34948871Why call not being successful with someone romantically "heartbreak"? It's a bit melodramatic. It's a bit much.
I live next to a highway that's near 2 intersections, when I'm not hearing traffic, I hear the mowers for hours throughout the week. I've also got noisy neighbors because they're the only kind of psychopaths who'd be fine living in this place. It's a townhouse that was built with zero insulation on top of this. My parents had one fucking chance to buy a house because they borrowed money from their wealthier relatives and they pick the absolute shittiest place in one of the nicest areas in the entire country. It perfectly defines how incompetent they are, they just live life thinking things work they expect it to with ZERO FUCKING FORESIGHT OR RESEARCH FOR ANYTHING. I'm a loyal son but I really just can't forgive them for subjecting me to decades of noise pollution, I think it completely fucked up my schooling because I had issues focusing, except when it was late in the night.
>>34949024I haven't been fortunate enough to experience unsuccessful romance multiple times, just that one at the price of 1/4 my life.
Daily reminder that I'm better than 95% of anons itt
>>34949189>i'm better than a pile of shitGood job
>>34949200you're the one on the bottom of my shoe
>>34949204>i bathe in pooYou're indian
>>34949223>not knowing that you take your shoes off to bathehmm. yet you are the one who has been reduced
>>34949225You responded quickly. You're indian and you're terminally online too.
When I watch porn and sometimes a page opens to a porn live stream I am scared I will appear in the stream or at least they'll get my data.
>>34947233Looks like she finally did the right thing to c
i've been working at this office job for 11 months now and i've literally never spoken to anyone sitting around me unless its work relatedi literally can go weeks without uttering a single word at work and i feel like im starting to become a black sheep in the officei just have a bad case of avoidant personality and i dont wanna talk to people and mess up and embarrass myselfgenuinely considering to quit my job because of this because its starting to get stressful
Pent up guilt and resentment fucked up my life more than anything.
yea but that just might be your station in life
>>34949256Same
Either I have NPD or multiple people in my life do
I see through you
I see in your abdominal cavity.very interesting
also I'm just freaking out over whether or not I'm demon infested and need to be plunged into the depths of hell asap or if I'm actually a bad person for willingly being abused by crazy family.
i can't sleep but I can't do anything. fuck mei suspect someone knows the numbers
itt schozos
I may have been an extrovert all along, just the people around me were too different for me to realize. Now I'm at a point in my life where I'd love to go out there and talk to others. I hope I can meet a lot of good people when I finally find a job and move to the capital!There are days when I am torn between feeling abismal and hopeful. I had my life turned upside down and my trust was greatly betrayed, alongside my future plans with my ex-fiancé. But... I feel weirdly okay? Despite being at rock bottom, I know there's only up. And though it is a daily occurrence that I think about harming myself in some way... deep down I know that it is silly. That is not to say I can control my emotions, there is a great turmoil within me that sometimes bring me thoughts of an early end. But I am hopeful. And I know any second now, I may get the call, land the job, get a place of my own, and start anew. I wish you all nothing but happiness and luck!:)
My cousin is convinced that cigarettes cures his over eating and helps with his adhd. I don't know how to tell him
I don't have a personality unless I drink.Only two people tolerate me non-drunk. The girl I like only seems to enjoy my company when I drink. The day I asked her out, I went out with her and she told me "don't you dare ask for a non-alcoholic drink". Otherwise I'm insufferable.
>>34949532How to stay positive after a year of trying to find meaning after life plan with somone you held dear disapprears because they felt there was no progress? I got all the goals eventually but now i have no one to share it with.
I have decided to wait for them. I’ve made my promise
>>34949648Do they know you're waiting for them? If they don't, how do you know they'll be back?
>>34948796I miss S.L It happens. It’s not really my fault this time though
Lol I was totally talking to you in here
>>34949901Lol gottem, bet they didn’t know it. Idiot
Had a weird dream that I was dating bambidoe
I saw your post in the last thread
>>34949572Do you realize how foolish you must look?
>>34950127How did it make you feel?
>>34949901https://youtu.be/gkTb9GP9lVI
I feel bottled up to the limitthanks to an old man mocking me for my neetdom, I started to reflect about my situation and I realized how much my nonconfrontational lifestyle impacted me, no wonder I tend to feel frustrated and resentful, if I can't express my desires...
>>34950338That is literally everyone. Welcome to humanity. Are you new here?
>>34950357I yearn to reclaim my own agency, whatever the cost.
Like a switch flipped
>>34950439Why do you keep saying that?
Like a tap dripped
>>34950489he's an electrician
>>34950439Human behavior is rarely black-and-white. What might look to you like someone flipping between two completely opposite behaviors is probably a lot more nuanced than that. Try to see from their perspective and look for a way that those two seemingly opposite behaviors could possibly be connected, and you might find a more interesting explanation.
>>34950493Your ex?
>>34950494who? I'm talking about my own internal state.
also the switch is flipped but the light bulb needs to be replaced, it's not burnt out it's just the wrong bulb. I gotta get a ladder don't I...
i think a lot of the wiring needs replacement actually
>>34947188i wish my parents were a little more kind, considerate and supportive
Like a sump pumped
idk what im should do with my girlfriend, we are long distance and i truly love her but i dont think this will work out between us.issue with her is she is insistent on coming over as much as possible and doing "trips" here so she can spend time, im not complaining about this i find it great, but shes from canada and makes the same amount that i make in a month in a week, but she expects me to foot the costs half half all the time + shes studying in europe now so its much easier for her to come here and there but every single fucking time she came so far i ended up paying for 80-90% of the shitnow also to mention im also a piece of shit and i have a lie that i have to break to her about my past (i lied about living in a different country and i havent had an opportunity to come clean) so shes not the only one at fault hereon my end im waiting for the right moment to come clean, as for her ive talked to her multiple times and she just doesnt listen and on top of that makes unreasonable demands when it comes to me and my friends (she doesnt wanna let me have even one beer when im out with my friends she has trust in, sometimes throws a fit over me wanting to hang out with someone when i have excess free time)so i just need a few perspectives on my situation if yall have advice to share please do
>>34950167It made me want to talk to you.
I really am just so fucking boring, I don’t blame you for not caring about me
who are you vague posting to?
What do I do?Now there're two of 'em when I close my eyes!Which one would you pick, Pochita?
i still hate women, but i have a cute redhead girl texting me nonstop. its almost annoying how much she's talking to me. and no other girl even bothers talking to me. idk what her fucking problem is but if it makes her obsessed with me im down. gonna have me some ginger babies.
>>34950127There is plenty more to post about I have a lot bottled up and unresolved with no one to talk to
i went from being overweight with C cup breasts to borderline underweight with A cups. sad..... sad..... i want my boobs back... but i would rather die than be fat again
>>34949864I hate and miss s.s
>>34950774hot if M
>>34950779hey those r my initials, i dont think its u tho at least i hope not seeing that u said u hate said s.swhat r ur initials?
Damn it, can my brain not put two of them there I wanna sleep peacefullyyyyyyyyyyi close my eyes i see them both and it fucking hurts why is she there, her i do get, but why is SHE there???? I dont understand why the fuck is she there can she please fucking leave me alone, ive been rolling around and nothing, shes in my head lodged firmly and wont let me be, dont fight with her for that place because you wont have it but why the fuck are you there in the first place why why why the fuck are you there please leave
>>34950773Then post about it
>>34950695It probably wasn't my post, and you're probably not my person, but if I was the last one to reach out to you directly then there's a slim chance.
>>34950805Its not you as the s.s i am thinking of should be deep asleep but j.
>>34950923Which post was yours?
>>34950927>jthats uncanny, his initial was jfunny that another j + ss exists out there
Seeing that you got two cats made me so sad. I had this stupid dream that we would move in together someday and get two cats together.
>>34950959I am + no one these days.
>>34950700me too bro
>>34950939If this >>34950700 was also you, I wasn't the one calling you boring.
>>34950994WHICH POST WAS YOURS IN THE LAST THREAD?
drinking is severehaving to go to the shops regularly actually helps anxietywithdrawal causes anxietycant win innit
im losing (waist size) and eating less too
>>34950994Answer my fucking question.
battletoads. livery quarters. elliott smith a rancher in colarado. justice sells. justice sells. moritory sattelite. forced elemental reign
DP if you are here I need you
>>34950999>>34951039I don't think you're her.
cryptology. dark knights. forced love. hands of cold. hands of cold. messed up love. torn hands. cryptology. answered prayers. loved hands. tearim farting in the wind or im living on a prayer the last thing i asked for is a rare known dare. the forced hand verbatum of a law known by date hmmmm.what is 1 with everything but none for the gun. it has an extra - and a line with nothing done.
>>34951078Okay but WHICH POST WAS YOURS?I need to know so I can rule it out. Just fucking tell me.
tricky tricky lemon squeezy i was told i wasnt yeezy. everything is so damn easy, trick yourself into being easy.creasy creasy in the hold i falled so short i couldnt sellnow im red in tides of gold and even so i wouldnt fold.now im old and dead inside and everything wet is warm and forlorn.im warm myself and ill go to shore.
the shady moss forlorns itself a mossy hold in wooden shelf. a torn asunder mossy hold it broke in my hands like so much nothing. created hands i found inside. brown clothing.
>>34951078What is your problem? Why can’t you just tell me which post was yours???? I need to know. There was a post in the last thread that I thought was him, and if it was you instead I need to know.
>>34950536A little shit like you only deserves abuse
>>34951078Just TELL ME WHICH POST IN THE LAST THREAD WAS YOURS
>>34951093>>34951129>>34951139What's stopping you from saying which post you think was mine?Also some general advice because I don't think she posts here anyway:>>34950695>>34950923If you want to talk to someone, but they were the last person to reach out to you, you should reach out yourself. They're either waiting on a reply from you, assuming you're busy, or assuming you're disinterested.
>>34951171He wasn’t the last one to reach out to me.
>>34951184Oh lol, well how long has it been since you last reached out? The worst that can happen if you double text is that he doesn't reply, in which case there's you answer. There's nothing wrong with double texting so long as it's not "Hey did you get my last text?"
>>34951207We didn’t part on good terms. I can’t just text him.
I was told roughly two years ago by someone that they thought I have no personality and life has genuinely increasingly gotten worse for me ever since. I hate going to work, I hate going anywhere, I hate talking to almost everyone, I hate that people punch down on me fucking constantly over literally nothing. I've now had randos at my work anonymously tell my boss that I allegedly made them uncomfortable even though I know I didn't fucking do anything and now I'm likely going to get a talking to tomorrow over some client having a vendetta out for me over not getting the answer they wanted and one of my co-workers literally wordsmithing this person's nonsense to send to my boss with very obvious snarky nonsense about how I didn't meet their needs. I broke down alone in my bed two days ago and I've been feeling fucking awful for 5-6 days in a row and genuinely am on the brink of crashing out. I know I'm not fucking crazy because this shit was said in front of me and in writing. People are just coming after me for fucking nothing. I can't stand this shit anymore. I didn't ask to be made this way. I'm sorry that I'm not interesting enough for you fuckers.
This is too good to be true.You’re supposed to be ignoring me, you shouldn’t even have accepted my friend request. I ghosted you for 11 years and you still want to open the door for me? What the fuck is wrong with you, have some self respect and tell me to fuck off.
>>34951224How long has it been? And this is probably terrible advice, but does he have any social media you can peek? If it's been a while and he doesn't seem like he's in a bad mood, the worst he can do is say "fuck off" and block you. Hell, if he didn't block you on social media after you split, he's probably not THAT mad.But if you broke up within a week and he's in a bad mood or silent on social media or blocked you, I'd either open with "Hey, just wanted to say sorry" or better yet, give both of yourselves more time to heal.
>>34951269I don’t really want your advice.
>>34951293Okay, then do whatever you'd like. It's your life.
Drinking lemonade. Had to crush so many lemons to make it, worth it
>>34951245Initials?
>>34951339You’re not the person I’m talking about nor I am someone that you know. Because she never went to this website. Sorry to disappoint, don’t mean this in a condescending way.
>>34951337Got any grapes?
>>34950774E?
just move on you fucking freaks obsessing over some retard you've barely interacted with is not worth your time go do something productive
WHAT THE FUCK IS MY PROBLEM. I WANT TO DI THINGS BUT I DONT WHY??? WHAT IS MY PROBLEM?
I hate my mom.
I can't sleep and it's all YOUR fault!
Mine? Why? What did I do?
>>34951458Gorgeous delicious grapes
why do my feet smell so bad eww
Miss you AR
>>34951533Send her to the holly
You spam sorry like it means, fixes, anything. You never say what you're apologizing for. Do you even know? Or is that word just to make you feel better?
>>34951677R?
why would you babysit a child old enough to be horny zach?
why are there two of them when i close my eyes, she has been kind to me, way closer to me and more important to me and i get why shes there, but why is SHE there when i close my eyes?! why is she stuck there and just began living rent free in my head? i dont even talk to her much yet she's still there when i close my eyes right next to her
you're not capable of reading my thoughts btich
>>34947188Why did I have to be born an introvert who hates children? Why can't I be a person who loves children so that I can have sex in accordance with the Church's teachings? I'm not open to having kids, I don't want the screaming, I can't have another person be dependent on me, I need things from other people, I need to be taken care of too, I hate being a weak faggot who still has the mentality of a child, 'give me free shit all the time', I WANT TO BE A FUNCTIONING ADULT AND I WANT TO HAVE SEX REEEEEEEEEE
>>34951629WADDLE WADDLE
>>34951720No one can.
>>34951687I'm sorry, okay? I'm just that sorry. I regret how things ended between us and I want another chance and I'm sorry. And even if you don't want to give me one, at least I hope you know I'm sorry and you don't hate me forever for it.
I don't want to get better, I want to get much worse and disappear in the deepest ditch where no one can find me.
>>34952290Then reach out to me directly.
Mental illness is worse than evil. Because i have no words anymore. What's worse than evil? I dunno.Also what's the punishment for?
I'm going to ChicagoSorry but I can't take you
>>34950439How that sat years ago felt
1. Divorce2. Reach out to M and explain how I fucked up and am retarded, made a mistake, etc 3.explain what im going to do better with him and then do it
I am a queenI am a kingI am a princeand a princessI conquer and get worshippedI worship and get conqueredMy heart is my bastion
I wish I could forget you so easily as you have for me yet it seems the longer without the harder it becomes to not have you wander into my mind s.s , you are a ghost that I am still trying to live up to, I will never be good enough.
Uh
>>34952533SAT?
>>34952734Shorthand for Saturday
>>34947209>you were 16 and I was 20 and you call me 4 years later a fucking groomer?Bro that's true.>Lord knows I would have thrown you to the curb after your age started with a 2X>16+4=20Are moids really this retarded?
If I tell her I like her and she doesn't feel the same then we'll never have the same level of trust again and it'll be my fault. If I don't tell her and it turns out she liked me then I don't deserve to be loved because I'm a coward.I'm so frustrated I let people convince me that falling in love with a friend can work. It's like believing in magic. I shut this part of myself off for ten years and then my friends switched it back on because they wanted me to find someone who makes me happy. And I was perfectly happy being alone before they took that from me and now I'll never be happy again.They should grow humans in vats and leave love to fictional characters.
i have a male friend who ruined all other men for me. i like everything about him except for a few things, and those few things just make us not compatible romantically at all. i genuinely do not feel any romantic attraction towards him, my heart doesnt beat faster, i dont get nervous, i dont want to fuck him. but other men just dont measure up anymore and now im going to die alone
>>34952893What is it about him? For me if I really like spending time with someone then the rest kind of follows eventually, for better or worse.
>I swipe left on everybody at dating apps because they are all out of my league
>>34952916he's extremely naturally intelligent and well read, and the perfect amount of evil. and i know he has a huge dick, lol. his personality just meshes with mine but i know we would fight really often and we have handled conflict poorly in the past, have some very incompatible ideologies, and some other things that are hard to explain
>>34952937why thank you my dick is HUGE
>>34952937>perfect amount of evilNarc same fag detected
Just accept my love hoe
>>34953013umm what
who are you talking to?
Is anyone else excited for the Highway to Heaven reimagining?
actually taking my meds seems to help with not being a fuckup. Wow!
You thought I was too good for you so you kept me at a distance? You thought I was playing you? You blew everything up for THAT??? FUCK. I’m not mad at you because I guess we’re equally to blame but FUCK if you end up being the one that got away because of THAT it’s going to kill me forever. FUCK.
It's not worth it. It was never worth it
>>34952893https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKReZR-OwdAThe song I've been playing the last week thinking about the one I love
>>34953091That is completely retarded logic. Be thankful to be with that person. Be present and be grateful
>>34947188I fucking hate womenim going on a date with a cute woman on mondaybut she's a fucking liberal who is obsessed with black people. why is she even talking to me if im white? how can white girls be so obsessed with black bullshit and still date white guys? what the fuck is going on?
>>34953091what?
>>34947188Three years ago I won 10K on a scratch ticket and spent nearly all of it on escorts, never told anyone IRL about either
>>34953053
>>34953053https://youtu.be/24wBxAWNv30
>>34953523Nice
>>34953610>>34953614that's nice anon. I love you too, but I don't think I'm the anon you're looking for.
>>34953643Jus accept this luh lil mama
>>34953658Yea? On whose authority?
you have money to feed animals that aren't even yours but can't let me borrow some change until paydayto grab some deodorant because I smell!bitch
>>34952893there's still 7,999,999,999 men leftu letting 1 bad apple ruin it? go outside ir cities and states, he'll go outside ir countries. it's not over
cried over my nonexistent wife dyingim quite mentally ill
>>34953671The authority of love. Passion. Deep sexin.
>>34953744I can't sex tonight :/ I'm doing research. I'm just eating rn. Good luck anon!
>>34953749In general, woman. Im that Saturday lovin, baby.
>>34947219>>34947238 here>>34947188>A letter I will never send, because it's too late. The damage is done.Hi, Sis. I need your help.In the move, I was forced to leave behind a lot of things, things that are very precious to me. Childhood toys, momentos, school paperwork, other beloved things. I ran out of time and space, and on moving day, I was forced to make hasty decisions. I CANNOT live with myself if those things dissappear forever. I am heartbroken just thinking about that fate. As an Autistic man, I am deeply attached to childhood belongings and can't just think of them as garbage. I made mistakes. Let me fix them. I have willingly helped you with EVERYTHING since the morning Dad collapsed. I will do ANYTHING to go down to the old house and get my things before the house is cleared. Even if it's expensive, I will gladly pay you back after I get the inheritance. That is a PROMISE, I will pay you back the day I get the deposit. Please. Sis, I am your brother, and I love you. >... I don't know why I didn't think of this. Too much other shit going on after the move, couldn't ask anyone for help.
>>34947188everytime i jerk off without looking at porn i think about married or taken white girls getting gang raped by gorilla niggers and cumming against their will. it helps me cum immediately. my mind is broken. i hate women so god damn much.
>>34953772That is a YOU problem, not a women problem
>>34953721I used to break up with my fictional character crush because I couldn't live with her "reformed slut" nonsense.
>>34953874are you ok now?
>>34953523based
>>34953877Yeah, LOL
>>34953888...
i saw it beneath the carriagenot unlike the one i myself inhabitedaware, enjoying the asphalt as beat it couldin a flash i realize our goals are aligned but yet we are strange bound by that fleeting glanceand we carried on without days not realizing we could solve our problems in that moment
>>34953986*authors note: im drunk
I WANT TO FUCK ANIMALS SO BADTHEY ARE ALL CUTE AND SEXY
I need to talk to you so badlyPlease call me
>>34953992Wtf
>>34953994>I need to talk to you so badly>So I will vaguely, anonymously post on an obscure 4chan thread demanding you call me without letting you know who I am or why I REALLY need to talk to you
>>34953992I fucking hate you
>>34953032Why won’t the hoe accept your love? What’s her problem?
>>34954010Fuck off
>>34952893I know someone who thought the same way about me. I could’ve lived with it but this moron literally let me believe and encouraged me to believe the opposite for over a year. For what reason I really can’t tell, but it was quite hurtful at the end of the day, especially since I had to recontextualise all my prior experiences with her knowing she was lying through her teeth
>>34953803no thats a woman problem, since women would rather get raped by gorilla niggers than make love to me
I wish I said I was bothered by you having a husbando instead of saying I didn't mind, thinking it was a benign interest that all girls get at some point for fictional characters, but all it did was give you permission to daydream and obsess over something that I am not, and I had to witness it all until the eventual end of our relationship, it was definitely a factor in not wanting to try progress much more after so many years.
i fantasize about having a paternal boyfriend who dotes on me and coddles me 24/7. i want to be his pet neet and wait for him to come home every day like a puppy. i want him to treat me like his baby angel. i don't want to think or worry anymore. but i am too unattractive and unremarkable irl to receive any kind of male attention, let alone the kind of devotion i want. i bring nothing to the table. so i just think about it all the time.
>>34954116Maybe you're unfuckable and it's nobody's fault but yours
>>34954035She aint got a problem other then being blinded by these halfdick buster ass bitches that cant heavensend the dick like daddy doThat bad bitch aint got a damn problem else woman come get this good dick bad lil bitch perfect
>>34954035Pussy like https://youtu.be/usfiAsWR4qU
I want to hang out with you again, but I'm not sure you're up for it. Part of you seems to dislike me and then we end up the evening with laughter.
>>34954332Hit them up rn
>>34953992I swear to god kill yourself.
>>34947188I wish people communicated. Why is it so rare?
when I dream of you, do you dream of me too?
Seeing through can just be seeing too
oh I know, but what is being seen?
Something I want in limited amounts nothing personal about that
i thought you were vagueposting about seeing someone, perhaps by stealth.
Buying a great big bag of potatoes expecting it to last a few weeks and then eating them all in 3 days because I haven't had potatoes in a long time and forgot how fucking good they were
I am not having fun or a great time in daily life
I'm actually going to be pissed off.
why?
did we fuck the same guy?
I tried to build a life together only to be told we made no progress.
with who? that sucks anon
With some girl I knew for 7 years, with the goal of being together one day but situation made it difficult in being long distance, eventual expectations and being there for each other worn down as we both attempt to get milestones sorted, education career etc, doing it for each other but when one side gets up one step before the other one becomes a burden in their mind, disregarding any beneficial thing provided in the past, you know being there for each other in support? I was eventually told to find a solution in career and when I did I was punished for it.
>>34954911punished how?
>>34954924Told it looked like I moved on, told that she couldn't compete with the friends that I made relevant to the career field, the company she was in was only because she wanted me to join too despite the stress she put on herself turned into resentment for me and the career field I wanted to pursue to enable closing the gap, that she had a job lined up for me despite having no power in such a thing, I just did what I was told and it all fell apart because I did a year of intensive study and networking to make it finally happen, the reward and punishment was trading in everything for a job, which was the missing piece.
i don't understand the final part..
The punishment is losing the reason for working so hard in the first place, i dont have anyone now to do so, i got what i wanted which was task and work i wouldnt mind doing with lots to learn for a remaining life time but no one to share any gains with.
If the only reason why you ever did anything was for a woman then idk what to tell you bro.
It is more that I am punished for doing something I wanted for once , if it was other people it would be seen as dedication to something they care about, support follows it. I guess it is just a case of winners win, losers lose, I see established, capable people have their craft, career, that gets them a family to provide and care for and in turn receive love and care too. I just feel never good enough after what should have been a straightforward progression.
I simply have no muse or joy in life anymore
Im at that age in my life where I am.supposed to make moves professionally, but my god I feel so tiredI've been unemployed for 4 months now and Ive done nothing but I feel so motherfucking drained, it feels like its hard to even walkIt might because I'm barely eating like 1 or 2 small sandwhiches per day, but I also dont get hungry or I think I just got too used to my hunger, my stomach hurts a lot but I dont feel that sensation to eat, plus food makes me nauseaus. I cant remember if Ive always been like this or if this is a new rock bottom for me
It’s time to play, will work lose power? I’m bringing my flashlight in case we do.
>>34955001Aren't there other things you want? I also feel like I'm not 'worthy' of love, so I just avoid it and try to not get too caught up in it and do my own thing. Having a muse would probably help me immensely, but I'm terrified of the fallout of heartbreak. Good luck anon
>>34955019are you reading my mind?
>>34955019i think you might need to get in some liquid calories. getting more calories in typically eventually starts to stimulate your appetite. don't only do protein shakes as those fill you up fast and make you feel nauseous too, start with simple juices or smoothies. the lack of food is without a doubt affecting your motivation, trust me on this. its not going to fix everything but it will help
>>34955023are you fixing some wiring? why would the power go out?
>>34955028I dont know what I want anymore, It has been too long. It feels like I invested in someone only for them to let go just at the finish line, I commited all myself into this for the last decade after being shut in hermit for most teenage years to early 20s, this was a chance to undo that yet I feel it constantly reverting only now I have that job to stack money I have no use for but the sustain my lost, miserable self.
>>34955072so you only went into that field because of her?
>>34955031And I havent even started on the cognitive decline brother. Its happens like 10 times per day for me to forget why I walked into a room>>34955034Yeah, Ill try to force something done, might start with the basic, just water for me. Maybe fill up a big bottle and leave it by the side of my bed
>>34955085I had interest in it before when I was an up and coming person as a prospective human capable of love ( to be useful ), it cemented pursuing it with tertiary education. If I already had this without the timeline of those few years of struggle everything probably would be fine but once the seed of doubt is placed with ultimatums it just isnt the same to entrust with someone who should be there for you.
>>34955100Well you got into a field you liked anyway, didn't you? You're useful to someone. I never had a muse and never found love and I'm not very useful in that way. I never went to college because I thought I was inherently useless and I'm a loser who is self defeatist a lot of the time. You went and actually did something. I'm proud of you anon. We will both make it and find love eventually.
>>34955110I wish I could be relinquished from ever knowing what the stake is in losing where you place your heart and feelings, I previously thought I wasn't capable of caring and deeply cared by anyone, I just feel spent. I haven't had anyone tell me that they are proud, made me tear up thanks anon.. just do your best was and has been my approach to life, everyone deserves the patience in finding their way through it too, i hope you find your path as well, there is always time for it, i wish that was more commonly known instead of these arbitrary deadlines that create useless pressure.
>>34955174I've found some success in non academic ways, but I do deeply regret not going to college. I got scared out of pursuing a 'useless' degree and couldn't cut it on the 'useful' one. maybe motivation like that could have pushed me, maybe not.I had a muse once a long time ago. It hurt too bad thinking of ruining the relationship, so I closed myself off to it. At least you got a taste of it. I'm guessing this is fairly recent from your response?
I do think it's unhealthy to base all of your self worth on someone else. That's a large part of why I've never thrust myself into anything like that... what happens when it falls apart? You're brave.
>>34955198Its been a year and a half. I had a period of time where I distracted myself by keeping busy, the new job helped dull the focus since I did everything I could to ensure I didn't mess it up by interacting with the person who freshly threw me away, we were to remain friends but messages were in that grey area of how someone would when together, and offering of things that were meant to happen after I made it, like going on an international holiday or finally get to play that videogame together, all it served was to press on the already sore spot of being heartbroken, so I slowly distanced so that they can also sit with their decision. Now that work is normalised it isn't helping to distract with thoughts of what now and how much was lost just for this, and tormented by my own unresolved questions about it all , turned acquired insecurity from this experience.
>>34955047Nor’easter anon
>>34955223Never anticipate it to fall apart, that is the point in trusting it will come to fruition. Naive I know.
>>34955198Finding success without a degree is fine, my field doesn't require it but you pretty much need an avenue like that into academic , masters degree to stand out as someome taking it seriously and invested. I used to have a skilled job without even having completed highschool, it is all meaningless, might be part of the problem of why it took so long to go for something more where I wanted to be part of something and contribute to it.
>>34955264True. Unfortunately that was many years ago and was very one sided on my part. It could have flourished in a different way perhaps. I can be a bit emotionally intense at times and guard against that.>>34955314It's not about 'success' I do actually want to go to college for the 'experience' or whatever, as well as the learning. Idk, maybe I just feel the need to make up for poor performance earlier in life. It would be time consuming and would mentally fuck me if I failed but it wouldn't fuck me financially, and I might finally find a purpose, or at least external pressure to do so.
>meet girl at event>hit it off so hard people think we're dating>asks me to make plans for us so we can hang out>do so>suddenly something always comes up>suddenly something's always going on>texting becomes practically impossible>lie to myself, say people can genuinely be that busy and pray that I'm wrong about the conclusion I've already reached in my head>naturally I was right>she went to a party, some dude lifted her up and she caught feelings on the spot>they've been hanging out for months while I struggled to get a single thing goingThat simple huh, all that compatibility meant jack shit, guess it really is all looks, I feel so hollow. I feel like a fucking idiot for knowing the truth and trying to defy it with retarded optimism
Thanks for being the last ray of light on my life, and thanks for giving me enough hope to last 10 months. Almost a year after we first met isn't too bad.
>>34955350If you have the chance to do it can be a beneficial experience, the course I did was refreshing by working with other like minded people, instead of only having a single person to talk to with waning attention on the subject matter, turning something to be excited about into only caring for the output that benefits them. I had a lot of pressure to make up for the poor performance early in life too. I didn't get a job until 23, the studies and attempts to skill up, and network took all of my twenties, it wasnt until i did a masters course at 29 did I finally get the experience of contributing to a project with others properly , to feel appreciated in efforts, that was the goal for me, so maybe ask yourself what you are after from going into a degree first.
>>34947503Fight!>>34947524Fight!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PivWY9wn5ps&list=RDPivWY9wn5ps&start_radio=1
I'm starting to get really fed up with this idiot. Multiple times now he's decided to say things that are clearly ridiculously inappropriate to be bringing up, not to mention his touch-feely behaviour ALL THE TIME, even when sober. The two combined are just very concerning, actually. Creepy as fuck. Unfortunately due to recent events I don't think I can bring it up. It wouldn't be a good time. I'm not even sure if I can say anything anyway, because you two are far too chummy. I can easily see you brushing it off or acting like somehow I am being the problem. It's difficult enough to talk about the way I feel as it is, but when it involves causing drama with someone who is meant to be a "friend" it's harder still. Fuck this shit, honestly.
I have 4k LINK, 2 Billion PEPE, and I can't stop jerking off to petite white girls jerking off
>>34955689punch him anon
I chased my dream at the cost of you, but you encouraged it. I am always encountering people who say I have potential but I guess I never live up to expectations and that also happened between us. I miss companionship.
You didn't lose me. But I'm not up to par, honestly.
You're the most uniquely beautiful person I've ever met. You are enough. You're more than enough.
>>34955364>hollowwhatever you say bud. Just be aware what she did last time we were with each other and how many times in a row she did
>try to run 400 meter sprint>finish dead last>track buddies invite me to eat>end up being a glorified uber driver>spend 15 minutes looking for a parking spot>almost run over a dog in the process>realize i'm not compatible with any of these people>on edge the whole time>can't hear half of what people are saying>try to contribute to the conversation and the words could never come out of my mouth>have to give a girl a ride home, she insists on sitting in the back>have panic attack when i get homeMy life is one big humiliation ritual
>>34955871>finish dead last in a raceShit happens. If you like running keep practicing and make your goal to finish second to last or better next time (easy!), and if you don't like running find some other goal to work towards.>almost run over a dogIrrelevant because you didn't.>discover your friends suckSucks, but hey, you learned that you need to find better friends. Great, you just learned to stop wasting your time with those losers and now you can focus on finding people more worth your while.>embarrass yourself in front of your "friends"Who cares? They sound like they suck anyway so it literally doesn't matter what they think.If you're in school it's a little harder to move on from this shit because you're forced to interact with these people but that's fine because it also means you've got way more time ahead of you to find people who don't suck and find things you like more than running.
>>34955861Why did you single out hollow? What are you even on about?
>>34956013>what are you even on about You are not him and will never be him
>>34956058No shit? What a worthless post
The shoe is on the other foot now.For two decades, I've been passed over for promotions, turned down for jobs, or in one case fired due to rampant nepotism. Despite impressive work my bosses have universally been incapable of, I've been relegated to the bottom rung of the workforce. But not anymore.With all the comrades I've met along the way, I've shook hands with and entered into a pact. One by one, I've found these men and women jobs outside the organization befitting their loyalty, and they've rewarded me in kind by directing business my way. It's one giant, incestuous circle cutting out competitors in favor of friends, and this time, I'm the one to reap its benefits.I have systematically climbed to the top of the ladder and secured a place for me and my own. I've become unassailable. However, every once in a while, I'm reminded that I am doing the same to good men and women as was done to me, and not the ones who were responsible for my plight in the first place. Things have come full circle, though it is me this time who is the villain. Does the world really have to be this way, where we step on our fellow man just to survive? I tell myself I do not have a choice but to play the game, but it still gnaws at me.
I had a nightmare last night that I was employed
my cousin is pimping our sister.they think I dont know.but the investigation has been going. paperwork filed. soon they will raid his home and arrest him
>>34947667>I may be autistic because now after we sincerly talked for a bit I feel bad for him and for the reportdamn i know this feel.
i dont know what to do anymore, i got the job and a salary to afford a life that no longer exists, why did you have to make me so dependent on your dreams to think it was our goal in life.
>>34956452Well, what are your dreams anon? What about the dreams of the person you lost? Do you like that direction?
>>34955839why aren't you up to par anon?>>34955852I feel like you need to get with the anon above you
>>34957406I need to fix up.
>>34957416I understand that feel anon. What is wrong with you?
