i'm a girl on the edge of becoming a loser forever and i'm scared.idk how i got here. just a lot of bad days and weeks where i go "oh ill fix it later, i just need to relax tonight". kinda sad life, people bullied me, i got really sick, whatever. i'm 22 now. i have internet friends. i play vidya and watch tv and live in my room when i dont have to work. i barely make enough money to pay my mom rent. i get nightmares and insomnia episodes and whenever i get really depressed i start playing vrchat a lot. being a girl on the internet is one thing but on vrchat it is insane, im actually treated like a celebrity because i'm not old and my voice is nice enough. im really scared about my future. i think its bad for my head to get this much (kind of garbage) attention for free. i was neglected a lot so it feels so intense to have people so interested but im also a little bit smart and aware, and i look around and see the fucking crazy people on this game and i wonder what i'm doing. i wouldnt really want to hang out with these people, theyre old and weird and kind of gross and the other girls are like bpd and schizophrenic and everyone is horny and im so scared im going to be 30 one day and chasing a high that i keep telling myself is this cheap temporary thing to make me feel better. how do i get more money to buy a car, how do i make myself choose to do hard things and go to outside events and not stay home. how do i stop myself from becoming one of these people. i dont know how, i have zero good role models, and im weak and im so sad and tired all of the time i dont know how to help myself even if i could try. i know zero people my age in my entire state.
>>34956282Questions...1. Do you have a dick?2. Are you fat?3. Are you ugly?4. How big are your tits?5. What enthnicity are you.6. Would you give up everything for love?
>>34956282You're doing fine, just work the jobs you can in your 20s, build up your resume with experience, save money, and you'll get there. Keep in mind that most people who have cars, student loans, and mortages are in debt their whole lives paying them off. So just save what you can in an FDIC insured high interest savings account, and you'll be set for your 30s.You also don't need role models because no one is perfect, and trust me, the people you look up to will inevitably disappoint you. Be your own role model.
it seems like you and I are somewhat similar. i'm a bit younger, but i also experience these horrible episodes and an almost seemingly inevitable sense of impending doom. i’m currently doing my best to turn my life around, but I still feel like i’m constantly failing, just like I have my whole life. however, logically, I think I'm doing a semi-decent job. maybe I could offer you some advice or just a different perspective that isn’t annoyingly formulaic or blank, though this might be a ‘blind leading the blind’ situation. here’s my dc if u want to talk: belllzeboo.
>>34956282It sounds like you know perfectly well what you need to do, you just can't bring yourself to actually do it.
>>34956323i feel like if i stay in this holding pattern im going to come to pieces or go crazy or something
>>34956282my best advice is to find some kind of goal to work towards. something that can be accomplished but not simple like "take a shower" of some sorts. maybe like a personal project that can be expressed to other people. I think it could help you stay grounded, and working on this could introduce you to new people. making more IRL friends may help a lot, ones that share interests with your own. If you cant think of anything, a detailed artwork that can be shared digitally would be my answer. Of course you don't have to follow my advice, I'm not a therapist. Stay strong, you got this.
>>34957978how do you even make friends as an adult that sucks and cant drive? i dont know what to do with my life. i write fanfic sometimes. i feel like im just too small and pointless to make anything that important.
putting off personal development especially on stress and anxiety regulation (And especially as a woman) is a formula for failure....>>34956282>i think its bad for my head to get this much (kind of garbage) attention for free.probably, especially if you're realizing your own arrested development.
>>34956282tits or gtfo
>>34956282>on the edge of becoming a loser forever and i'm scared.Yeah life doesn't work like that. Your only a loser forever if you give up. Silly bitch
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