This sounds really dumb, but I prefer jerking off at home, and when I do it, it isn't just a one and done, but like 5 or 6 times throughout the day, I have phases during which I stop for a few days and then it starts again, I hung out with a girl from tinder and enjoyed her blowing me, but I couldn't cum and had to jerk off, she was fine with it at first and said we can take it slow, but I felt too awkward actually fucking her during any meetup. All my sexual experiences so far also have been kinda sour, I got sexually abused by an older woman during a vacation when I was like 10 or 11, girl at a convention complimented me and then suddenly grabbed my crotch and I froze up until she left, a therapist at a neet recovery thing complaining about her husband to me and writing me sexually charged emails and wanting to roleplay flirting during a theater group she organized, dating apps work alright for me when it comes to likes, but I always feel like I am too boring of a person and also don't have anything like money to offer and that my pictures look much better than I do in reality, so I don't even bother matching with girls which are shown as liking me and just close the app once again or put filters up in a way so they don't appear until I am "ready" to talk. I thought maybe I was just gay too and dated a feminine guy for a while, but he was also an online sperg and my cock was too big for anything past blowjobs, but we both were inexperienced and it all fell apart. Now with this girl I would also just prefer to cuddle all day instead, but she ended up crying because me not wanting to have sex was basically saying I considered her unattractive. I preferred her giving me compliments and scratching my neck while cuddling and masturbating during foreplay than thinking about even consider fucking her. I really just wanna be normal and enjoy the human experience like everyone else and maybe fixing my masturbation issue helps with it all.
>>34959789If all you want is an orgasm and the release of tension that goes with it, then masturbation IS the simplest and most efficient way to get it. But you want warmth and cuddling and feeling loved and giving pleasure to the girl. And, ironically, sex can be the simplest and most efficient way to get that.It's sometimes called "afterglow," and if truth be told, a lot of people go through the sex just to get to it.
Stop jerking off. Your t levels will naturally return back. Those no fap fellas werent lying about it being benefical
