I am currently going through severe depression which is causing me brain fog. I am extremely angry at the world and I hate living with my parents. I'm 21 with no money and I hate being dependent on them. I hate when they ask me questions and I want to be free without having to answer to them. 3 weeks ago I lost my temper for the first time in 12 years, I beat up some gym guy and I got arrested but all charges were dropped. I have lived a life of humiliation and I can't stand it anymore. I'm also extremely scared of death which makes me overthink ever situation. Whenever I have to socialize with someone especially older women I feel on the edge and I get super scared but because I have an ego I don't want to seem weak. And it's hard to seem weak when you're 6'4 and very muscular. Sometimes I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack and want to cry. Why am I like this? What is the solution? I'm praying everyday and reading the bible
