I graduated college late for reasons largely beyond my control (actual medical issues, saying the wrong things to the wrong professor, courses being canceled midway, and many more).My hopes of doing research are long gone (have at least 4 PhD application rejections down the drain, letters of recommendation are hopeless to get) and I'm now stuck working an uninteresting, underpaid job surrounded by incompetent people.My friends and family constantly belittle me for being a failure compared to them, and they aren't even wrong if you look at it objectively.How do I not kill myself? It was the only thing I had left in life and now it's gone.
>>34961561Based on what you've said you're too incompetent to do research so why are you so hung up on it? You had a chance but you lacked the necessary skills or knowledge to obtain that goal of yours. Move on, make a new goal, you're dwelling in the past stuck in a job you don't want to do surrounded by your peers. Figure out how to elevate yourself.
>>34961561OP is Asian and knows nothing else but to study and make family proud. It’s sad.
>>34961561>saying the wrong things to the wrong professorThat doesn't sound like it was beyond your control.
>>34961561>saying the wrong things to the wrong professoridk how you graduate higher education and still be stupid enough to be bigoted
>>34961561starting with making excuses with the very first paragraph when nobody even asked? that's curious.>My friends and family constantly belittle me for being a failure compared to themthose aren't friends, as for family... one does not get to choose. whether you engage with them when you're an adult is another story. why do you? >How do I not kill myself?same way you managed until today. fun fact - people who are going to kill themselves do just that. they don't go around talking about it. >It was the only thing I had left in life and now it's gone.what, getting job you want? if that's the case you might actually be better off necking yourself. there's more to life than work.
