I've been thinking a lot about being alone in the world...So heres a little about me: From an early age I was moving from house to house, school district to school district, and state to state, and it has sadly become clear to me over the years that it was partly for this reason (which was completely out of my control) for the way I am now.This was a chain going back years and years, and what did it lead too??? I have had some of The Greatest Friendships of my life growing up, only to end up alone in the end because of all the constant moving, and never being allowed to settle in for more than a few years...Now I am without real life friends to hangout with (its been this way for 5+ years), which has left me with no guidance and nothing to go on, which leaves me at where I am now at the age of 22yo.I don't know what to do, but I see more clearly now what my situation is, and at this point I can barely keep control of my thoughts, my purpose, what I'm trying to even do in life anymore...Its starting to feel like a blur, and I feel like I'm starting to lose hope for my future because of all the doubts I'm having.I can't stop being paranoid about things in general, and the few friends I still have around are too busy with their lives to even text like we used too (and the same goes for family)...A part of me feels like I've been defeated forever spiritually, but another part of me feels alive, and now I am left with a choice, which is to just continue on alone like this while hoping for the best, or to eventually (before I'm in my 30s preferably) go into the woods and walk off and talk to God and just be with nature going forward...That may not seem really safe, but it would be fun, and give my life new meaning by letting go of all the worldly chaos, but at the same time I would prefer if I just had real friends again...The world is a really lonely place, and I was not prepared for it, and that reality is once again, fresh in my mind. Thank you for reading anon O7
>>34962530kill yourself
>>34962530You have to give yourself time to fully settle into the cadence of adulthood and then see if you really hate it before you can say it isn't for you, you're in an awkward transitional phase in your life that kind of sucks for a lot of people and is absolutely temporary.>>34962572Take your own advice retard.
