realising I just do not love my family in any capacity. There's not hatred per se. just indifference.they all love me very dearly and wish I was a bigger part of their lives. They don't like that I'm hard to get a hold of, they don't like that I am often indifferent to them. I feel bad about it. It's not fair on them, they're right to feel that. I can't help it, I think I just lack something within myself, but I truly do not love them, I do not miss them, if they were to die I don't think I would be overly sad about it.I think I'm just a bad person. I don't want to keep pretending and I hate the way the assume a right to my life I did not grant them.
just the fact you're thinking about your perceived indifference shows that you aren't that bad of a person> I don't want to keep pretending and I hate the way they assume a right to my life I did not grant them.interesting choice of words, does this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enmeshment feel familiar to you?
>>34963516Do you feel like that about everyone? Or just your family?
>>34963521eh, I have really bad depersonalisation issues and kinda always have. I don't think it's related to them.I don't like that they seem to think they deserve to know what's happening in my life. >>34963539don't super have anyone else atm. I used to and I didn't feel like that about them
