>>34968871
I have been praying and wishing everyday for something that is impossible to do IRL, now. Multiple times a day.

I'm an agnostic, and I am trying to cash in all my good karma. On what? I promised not to tell.

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I finally have nothing to live for. And it's my fault. I embarrassed myself in an irredeemable way, in front of people responsible for deciding whether I would get into this particular project. And now, although they haven't said so themselves, I know that my chances have been dashed. Not even given a chance to prove my merit.. or, rather, I showed that any such merit is outweighed by my cringiness. I sincerely don't know what else is left for me now. I'm just going to watch tv reruns until I can fall asleep, then.. start giving away my shit, I guess. I have no future.

I'm going to add bread back into my diet for October.

I fiught and fought but i aint tell one wish i had was to be in the well. And i aint so well i been draining my nuts off, we crustacean based macaroni im blazin my cuts sauced.

>start using Bumble
>girl swipes on me almost immediately
>try to chat with her
>she doesn't reply
>chat expires
>no girls left to swipe on
Well, that was a bust.

I am catching feelings for my friend and I don't know what to do

Slightly alt bi girl I know is dating a guy that looks like a more fit panpizza(but still fat)with thinning hair, how do I even begin to cope?

today is my 33rd birthday. i have no friends, no fuck buddies. no bitches, no nothing while living in astoria NYC. i was born to cause evil. i wish my destiny was to make people feel good, but its not. ive come to the acceptance that this is a renegade playthrough

it's over.

I really wish that my mother would just die. She's made a lot of effort to get her emotions under control, which I do geniunely appreciate, but it would be so much simpler if she would just kill herself. She always threatened to do it when I was a kid to manipulate me, but she always pussied out. Anyways, she had a panic attack today because she arranged transportation for me (without me asking or wanting it) for an event I have to attend and then thought that I told her I was going to a different event. She has such an awful, whiny tone when she panics, and I could tell that she thought this was all because of me being incompetent and bad at communication, even though I didn't want her help to begin with.

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>>34969045
ENTER

>>34969068
God wills you to be good and you shall. Forest powers will not keep you young god. Shall nots have no will. Sweet short shorts dont fall. Examine this: fall before you, summon sweet.

>>34969090
Yeah
They are simply amazing and I hope I can contain my autism long enough so it passes until they find someone to be with

I've been trying paid driving lessons for the past two months and I don't know why I'm still so stressed out about it. Like I know what I need to do, but I still fuck up a lot.
It's also hard to not try telling others because they wouldve already gotten the hang of driving at this point. I really hate needing to trust myself for heavy tasks like this.

>>34968871
>>34969116

>>34969124
It's scary for everyone at first. It was scary for me, but I passed my test the first time because I was good at following the rules.

Why did I agree to a one sided plan that was unrealistic, you wanted only that one specific listing so we can then live life? You told me to get a job but it had to be that job at that specific company. You should have had more flexibility in what was the plan, Did you forget about the steps it takes to get to that point or were you blind to how miserable you made being on that path. I know you don't care anymore since you have pivoted to other things, other people, a different life, but I hope you don't make the same mistakes, I surely wont promise such rigidity in the future.

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I was knowingly sharing nudes with a woman that has a boyfriend and didn't think anything of it until she told me she was engaged. Her boyfriend has been giving me advice on getting women and now I feel guilty.

>>34969248
Shes not faithful. Their engagement means nothing. Same if shes married. He isnt enough for her and thats why she spend so much of her focusing on others

>>34969248
Shes not faithful. Their engagement means nothing. Same if shes married. He isnt enough for her and thats why she spend so much of her day focusing on others

>>34969130
who cares dude? did your janny application get rejected?

Remembering how my ex would tell me I was ngmi and how I hadn't made progress, when she hasn't done shit either, she now latches onto another persons dream when I was trying hard to make hers come true. Within the decade we both got a masters education, and eventually a job from it, the only problem was an unnecessary ticking time clock from her and about not having upfront savings for her dream property. I am glad that trap of a property never came to fruition you revealed how little you cared about me in the end.

>>34969211
I know, that's what my mom has been saying too. The only problem is despite knowing that it will get easier, it's like it will never truly reach my mind.
Like the moment I try to assume responsibility, I lack the brain to properly lead and learn.

>>34969279
Im thankful I already own my home, I'm ready to care for my girl

>>34969068
Never too late to love yourself, fucc bitches, and win niggu

i love my older siblings, but they really got to realize people either grow apart or the world doesn't revolve around them. just because i couldn't make it to my niece's first birthday doesn't mean i don't love her. just because your friends from childhood start splitting away because they have their own lives and families they've started doesn't mean no one cares about you anymore.

holding grudges over small things or changes in your life is so ridiculous

>>34969005
Bars

>>34969310
It's not like your niece will ever remember her first birthday, anyways. Just lock in once she's able to speak.

>>34969068
happy birthday, anon

If you have fat tits and you get them off your chest you’ll become a tranny, so women shouldn’t post here I’m thinking.

>>34969357
I don't understand the correlation

>>34969363
If you get your tits off your chest ur having tranny surgery

>>34969324
That's exactly what I was saying. Dude gets really angry that I don't even pull up to his get-togethers. Kinda hard when I'm the only working adult in the household providing for me and my mom. And the days I do come by, it's just obnoxious having to hear him talk about how no one cares about his shit but he almost never comes through for me or anyone else. I have a very good relationship with my nephew (his oldest) and my niece (younger sis' kid). he just wants everyone to drop what they're doing to come see him. gayest shit

Fyi if my moon needed help providing for her siblings, thats a given with me.

it's been two months...

Fat tits HOE

>>34969307
Good for you man, I save up for a home now so someone else can be spoiled.

Turns out I’m probably just bipolar lmao gimme the meds boys

>>34968871
Get it off your bread :d
I still havent learnt how to bake my foccacia properly
Mine never gets that golden finish

>>34969410
You can’t get her fat tits off your mind we see. Sorry she rejected you. Find someone lesser. You’re aiming too high. You’re a loser.

I miss my dad, it's been months and I still can't accept he's no longer here. Last night I dreamt of him and have been feeling like shit the whole day. I still can't go to his room without getting sad.

>>34969590
Your sorrow is normal. You will see him again, however.

>>34969277
I expect quality control
with all the threads mentionable as low-quality posts
It would be reasonable for the sake of both relationship/woman advice and the real/life/existential advice to have two separate boards, one of which being nsfw.
it would be highly beneficial for the sex/relation advice, which overwhelmingly suffocates the non-sexual, as well as freeing the non-sexual from this suffocation
ask the opposite gender anything is not advice its just an answer and question. that's not advice. that's off-topic.
>>34969116

>>34969556
You are so insecure and low self-esteem, and rely on pushing because she's not naturally attracted to you and she is naturally going to stray to who she actually loves, like the sun

I want to become a career politician, but it bothers me that people are going to think that I'm an opportunist. I kind of am desu, but I do sincerely want to make things better for my constituents. At the same time, I need a pension sooner rather than later. I have a spotty work history, and I can't help but feel like there's going to be a period in my life where I end up unemployable. That means running for federal office, even though my heart is at the municipal level.

If I could only just get a nice long hug right now I'd have the energy to clean my room and take out the trash

im bout to call C.P.S
ON DIS BITCH

>>34969556
I never know what you’re talking about, but if you’re going to continue to seethe in this way I’m going to continue to post the same thing.

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>>34968871
is a man truly a man without a gf? how can i level up in isolation without a gf?

>>34969692
Who are you two talking about?

>>34969813
you're mentally ill and the hoe who sleeps around, no wonder she rejected you

>>34969832
Who rejected me?

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I want some online friend i can tell about my day and have them tell me about their day.
I want to send a message with me confidently expecting a reply, i want someone i can refuse when they ask dumb questions without them being offended.
I am tired.

>>34969832
See this is how you make a false narrative to shape her reasons for doing any of her actions. You don't choose. The fact is the only thing you do is try to trap her with your words and push others away so that she is not close enough to feel the love she once had and leave you in the dust

It's going to feel so great when she's with me and I can tell you to *** **** *** ***

>>34968871
>Catholic
>Want sex
>Want kids
>Hate kids
>Don't want them until they're at least 10, preferrably older.
REEEEEEEEE

>>34969849
so you want someone you can feed attention with choice to turn it on and off?

>>34969854
Who are you people talking about? Fat tits hoe could be anyone

>>34969849
My moon and I had that and so much more

My moon
Her Truth
>"I love you, remember that."

>"I love you too. That makes me feel at ease"

>"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for so long. Nothing will ever change that."

>"I'm only yours, I love only you"

>"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you."

>"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more"

>"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

>"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

>"You're the love of my life, everything I've ever wanted, everything I've ever needed ."

>"MM"

Seeing the ring flushed and her in my arms living our truth. All of each other, complete, physical,rough,euphoric, true love and lust

>>34969855
time moves faster in your late 20's, so the first five years of hell will fly by like nothing

My moon loves me more

>>34969849
are you a woman?

>>34968871
Being useless as a man in critical situations is genuinely the worst experience a man could have. Never be weak, never be useless.

>>34969922
just fking have your smart phone and whip out Super Intelligence and you'll never be useless and soon you'll then have beeches on your deck

>>34969857
I just want a normal person who's interested in replying within a week so we can actually talk instead of our last text being 3 years ago, i also want to talk without being worried about them being offended or taking it personally

>>34969938
are you hot though?

>>34969904
>>34969956
no, you?

>>34969985
no to being hot or no to being a woman? with my hair on point id give myself a solid 7/10

>>34969938
i think everyone wishes for this. offense and not replying is from breaking the trust, the ground gained if it was initially frequent.

Please do not let yourselves become demoralized ever. In time you will understand that there are real testaments to the beauty and goodness of this world so as long as you do not allow yourselves to fall victim under the hatred and cruelness of it. I don't know if this will even reach anyone and I probably won't come back to this thread, but if you're just as afflicted and broken as I am I want you anons to know that its never too late and now is not the time to give up. The bastards already won but inside of you a soul still remains. Don't let them steal that from you too.

>>34970057
there is no such thing as a soul you copehead - all this religious bullshit is noble lies fed for noble losers no where in the world is this more evident than the US where the ruling neoliberal class masquerades as christians while growing richer and richer while impoverishing everyone else

>>34969994
>no to being hot or no to being a woman?
No to both, i never cared about my appearance so I'd say I'm a 5/10, tho i wish i was fit for health reasons, most i have fitness wise is half decent arms and shoulders but I'm not consistent enough and they're too small to look aesthetic
>with my hair on point id give myself a solid 7/10
That's cool, hopefully you become a 8~9/10 too someday
>>34970035
>i think everyone wishes for this.
Is it that fantastical to want someone to talk to? i couldn’t achieve it irl so i thought it would be easier online
>offense and not replying is from breaking the trust, the ground gained if it was initially frequent.
Fair enough i guess tho i feel like most people I've come across with one exception are offended too easily and think they're entitled to asking you personal questions, it's annoying imo, some of them also ghost you out of nowhere as if they got what they wanted. One guy(i think) I've come across is cool tho, we don't talk often and i don't want to "trauma dump" on him but he's cool, hopefully we reach a point where i can talk in length, though i don't see it desu. I think the solution is finding someone irl but I'm in a very society where you're expected to put up a front infront of others, also some(a minority) of the people I've interacted with recently, are genuinely snakes who deserve to be skinned alive, like some of these people would rape a child if they ever get the chance, traitorous pieces of shit, i think that this is what scares me and holds me back from relationships, you don't want a knife in your back on top of the everyday bullshit you have to deal with

>>34969922
There's a wonderful taoist story about a "useless" tree. Though if you're wishing you were more useful to a certain individual, then maybe they don't appreciate you and they are toxic.

>>34970057
Someway, some how , my moon comes home to me. The moon only has eyes for the sun

>>34970069
the best conversationalists are people who dont need to know you or necessarily have any stake with you but want to talk, for me this was online contacts gained over years who live entirely different lives, different countries, age etc but were the most comforting in the darkest of times for simply able to shoot the shit with. I have a similar problem when things are bad I isolate and don't want to bother others, because of experiences where people will say it isn't a problem, you speak your mind and it throws back in your face, this is because that person had staked ties.

>>34969812
what she do?

covid prolonged the pain, I waited 4 years for you to visit me like I had taken the risk to visit you, but by the time you came the relation was unrecoverable in your eyes, progress made with education and a job was all for naught because getting a job wasn't quick enough for you.

I KINDA WANT TO BUY 100 ACRES OF LAND AND LIVIE IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE

God just feels like hes in my way of just letting go and giving out as much hurt as the world expects me to endure. I'm lonely, poor, mentally ill - I was born this way, and will probably die this way - an unlovable chud. I've dealt with too much rejection, too much bullying, too much betray and isolation.
When I look in the mirror and see that happy goofy kid who just wanted to be loved like anyone else, I can see the light is almost gone.
I can see the indent of suffering in the way my eyes naturally rest like some animal expecting another unwarranted attack.
Im seeing things all the time. Random figures and sudden sways of light catches my attention at any moment.
Im suffering from destructive thoughts, and my empathy for people is pretty much gone. I know one cares about me, which is why shouldn't care for anyone in return. Love is a lie, based on shallow things. The point of life seems like a hollow existence, I just really don't care about living anymore.
I am convinced I will die alone and it fills me up with extreme rage and misanthropy

>>34970246
I grew up on 81 acres. It was pretty great

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>>34970301
based bro just know that you aren't alone - i mean you are alone but millions of other men feel the same way right now so cheers

>>34970069
7/10 aint shit bro its not enough to get a looksmatch or to secure a stacy and if you don't get vibes which i mostly dont as a SPERG it don't matter

Some of you low self esteem guys really ought to go to Walmart and see the 2/10 literal mutants with girls way above their level. I seriously doubt they’re rich, charismatic, or intelligent either, they just keep trying (probably because they’re retarded) while you guys get hung up on thinking you’re not enough as a 7/10 who’s a little shy.

If she texted me we could get back together but it seems apparent she's over me and doesnt think about me or us anymore

>>34970379
I don't have a walmart.
I got hung up over an equal of mine who drowned the relation in pressures to progress to keep pace on arbitrary deadlines.
The mutant and their loved on likely have their own troubles, but ultimately unshakeable support and patience, that is something you don't need qualities for other than trust, and once you have been betrayed in trust by someone it is hard to justify trying again after losing the game so close to the finish line. It took all my energy and joy of life, I wouldn't want to subject another person to the sad husk that I am.

>>34970393
when was the last time you spoke?

>>34970393
I thought this about 3months after she broke my heart in a 7year relation, she said she wanted to plan a trip, go to japan, and all I couldn't think is how selfish of a suggestion for how much hurt was caused.

I went away to let her sit with her decision, I had to focus on my own new found work ( the cause of the break up), the isolation caused her mental harm so badly she left her job, which I feel bad for not being there for to support but it was her choice to end things. ( the job was important because she wanted me to stay at the same company so we could live together). We only briefly reconnected in Christmas and New Years because she knew I was alone, however it felt empty, she only talked about herself. Since March of this year it was evident she has set sights to someone or something new and enticing, we felt like strangers, my initial intention has been satiated she has detached from me and cannot make new wounds, only it is time for me to heal these existing ones.

>>34970393
Oh really? Every couple minutes youre making a post about me. Do better Chella

You obsess over me

>>34969061
See a psychologist to improve yourself socially.

>>34969482
If you do have bipolar please take the lowest dosage and seek a professional male psychologist and psychiatrist that legitimately care about your well being, bipolar medication can fuck up your brain chemistry

>>34970393
Maybe she's waiting for you?

>>34970422
the more you post this the more confused I am as to why the relationship lasted 7 years to begin with

>>34970456
The other guy is not much better than me socially, he's a bit awkward hence the panpizza comparison appearance aside. I don't particularly envy him or hate him but it does genuinely baffle me, he even has the awkward 'tism mannerisms and all. I was even acquainted with him before we knew her and before she even knew him. Maybe I'm being vain.
>See a psychologist to improve yourself
Yeah I should probably do that too after putting it off for so long. It's not that I don't try but self therapy is hell and full of trial and error.

>>34970476
Its pretty easy to spend 7 years with someone
>first meet in 2017 - 2018 as both neet failures, she has no job with useless degree, I dropped out of bachelors
>get shiny first proper job in 2018 and asked for relation, rocky start but intense first love, decide to support no matter what with rule of "if you don't let go I wont".
>2019 first taste of heartbreak over insecurities, patch up and resolve stronger
>encouraged to do a degree because I wont get accepted without education
>visit her family in christmas 2019, the father isn't to know we are together, a common theme here the relation is secret
>covid hits, lockdowns, lose job, so separate but closer through any means, MMOs the like, juggle relation needs while doing edu, and helping her find her path, lots of bad jobs in different sectors, investigating teaching, library jobs, charity work
>just be there as I can to the best I can while insecurity eats at her due to prospective and uncertainty of the future
>she "cheats" by window shopping on soc
>2nd heart break happens, forgive because she explains it wasn't serious and only looking for older men to talk to for perspective, like a fool I relent because of my promise to not let go
>last stretch of bachelor, she goes masters in compsci , I help her with homework and support because she was practically alone doing it
> both graduate master, bachelor
>2022 , no job, pressures turned up to get one in the field chosen, do all short courses can with potential leads, meanwhile she is struggling to even get past an interview at computer repair shop
>get 1 job interview in total, suggest her to do IT within my field, she actually gets insta-hired at big name company
>2023 Goal shifts to getting me into that company one day to work together in life, her patience is gone, no longer wants to know about what I am doing work wise just only wants results, can't share something I care about with the person I love, look for mentors etc, ultimatum over my head

>>34970393
Text her and get your answer. If you already did and got nothing in return, that’s also an answer. Don’t ever expect a woman to text you out of the blue even if she does like you.

>>34970080
Any advice on how to get online friends like yours?
>>34970336
Half the terms you used are weird desu but you probably look fine senpai, just do your workouts. as for vibes and autism idk, I'm suffering from the same problems desu

>>34970476
>>34970514
>End 2023 depressed feel very isolated, go to a conference for tech and general field trying to break in, people genuinely excited and happy about this interest, meet a young talented guy who says hes doing a course, one that I had previously talked to her as an option but she said not to do it because masters are scams for my field, I have no other choice left
>2024 do this intensive course
>less time to support her with daily calls to hear about complaints of work, while I am putting 100% of my effort into this to prove i am ngmi
> Pretty much just doing the work fulltime, re-assure i am doing a project that will finally get me employment
> half way through the year insecurities show its head from her, I had to show what I have been working on, the first time in years, says it is good
> Dec 2024 we are to have a holiday together, my deadline is overlapping with it, people ive been pouring our heart into this project that is to net us employment want to be with me too, I am tired, she is tired from the overworking she was doing at the company that I told her to take it easy on, and didn't listen. The time spent together was okay but certain things made me second guess why she was behaving as she was, not how i remembered, inconsiderate of others, didn't walk with me, rude to staff or conniving with vendors I still we were okay just a busy year worn us down.
>She returns home, tells her mother that we didn't meet up during the holiday
> I applied to the same company as her just before new years, The role goes to my colleague instead
>Inform her to much disappointment
>2025 jan, plan out what I will be doing for next month while waiting for job offers/applications
>2025 feb midweek, I ask if we could hang out, she says no and I ask why, she wants to end the relation, main reason no progress , money a driving factor in all of this.
>2025 march confirmation of a contract at a local company, from being scouted from that course, been there since

>>34970489
Have you tried forest bathing, it supposedly helps improve your mental well being.

My girlfriend and I had a minor tiff. When we made up, I tried to say:

"Every couple has their squabbles"

But my brain mixed up the word 'squabbles' with 'quarrels' and what came out of my mouth was:

"Every couple has their squirrels"

Man sometimes I wonder if I'm just naturally prone to sounding stupid.

>>34968871
I wonder how Jewish my family line actually is, I'm neurotic to a schizoid degree
I can feel feelings in the air, I can smell sickness on people (physical actual illness) I can sense other people's mental state and it radiates off them.
More importantly it effects me a lot, the morale at work was at an all time low and it radiates, you feel it all. I love my work but I feel like a dead weight I feel worthless

>>34970489
True and I hated him and thought he was a shit person. I have a feeling he lied to you and said we were friends, I was never friends with him.

>>34970519
Too bad. Its on chella to add me as she should have years ago

>>34969100
Fuck God. Fuck that spiteful, malevolent cunt.

Kill the autists.

Did one more driving lesson. I feel like the instructor's yelling at me less for what I've been doing so I guess thats good enough to start the test.
Plus I felt like I broke down enough of what I needed to be confident driving.
I guess the downside is the usual problems of being too fast at times for no given reason. That and my stupid retard brain has trouble adjusting to areas.

my mind is being reduced to nothing because I am nothing, and its a painful existence. The only thing that inhibits me is stress, and anxiety, and boredom.

My coworker has ADHD, it drives me nuts when I ask a simple question and he goes on 10 different topics that have nothing to do with what I asked. I've tried talking to him about it, he just gets offended and says maybe there's info I need to know.

BRO, I asked "What time do you work tomorrow?" and you walked me through your ENTIRE morning routine, why you cook your eggs a certain way, issues your car is having, your mechanic's marriage problems, where you went to college, why you like Ozzy over Metallica, the sushi place next to where your kids go for their karate class, random Star Trek trivia, how the Roman Empire could have lasted another century... and you STILL didn't answer the damn question.

>>34970832
Are you doing any night driving lessons yet?

i hate women so god damn much. i want to beat them, but thats illegal now.

Awful workout today. I think I was even weaker this week then last week

Ok im headed off. You had the day to say something.

WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO?

Uhhhh why did some retard reply to my post talking about some namefag

>>34970548
Going out into nature? Yeah I enjoy going to parks or gardening, closest state park is about an hour and half away though so I can't always go hiking. Just being out in the backyard feels good.

It's not entirely clear why I'm a virgin. I'm reasonably good looking and reasonably charismatic, but it never ended up happening. I suppose I did looksmax and get out of my shell a bit more in the past few years, but idk. The crazy thing is that I've even had girls that did want to have sex with me, but it just never happened.

>>34972433
you may just be a little autistic...

>>34972441
Diagnosed, lol.

BRO stop yapping outside my window, begging me to listen to you. Either buck up and shout me down or catch me outside. I can't even hear you clearly with all the construction anyway. You're wasting your time trying to communicate like this, and so am I.

>>34972446
KEK

I wish I said something and maybe I'd have got myself together with someone. Instead I hesitated and someone else did it instead. It's not fair... I'll never get anyone. KHHV forever....

yeah bro like there's only one person out there who would ever fuck you or get with you ok man LMAO loSiR!

>>34972462
You're a sad person

>>34972480
???

>>34972461
You'll be okay anon.

I'm just refuting anons claim that he'll be a KHHV forever because 'someone else did it instead' like bro.....

>>34972486
Theres a difference between love and sex. In my case, obviously ill have sex.

I wont love.

>>34972527
so you believe you can only love one person ever? why can't you love?

>>34972529
I only have one soulmate. I knew I from the moment we met. It just is this way.

>>34972537
and yet your soulmate married someone else? maybe it wasn't mutual... how do you know they were your 'soulmate'?

>>34972539
She is my soulmate. I'm not going to explain myself to you. There are ways I know

I can't handle even the most mundane of conflicts. My brain's built an extremely efficient bullet train directly to 'catastrophe' that arrives at its destination before I've even noticed its departure.
If I mention we're out of milk and you say "No we're not," I'll go into full hands-shaking fight-or-flight in anticipation of retaliation, and spiral into self-doubt wondering how I could be so wrong and stupid. Even if I'm literally staring into the milkless fridge, even if I'm the one who literally just finished the milk, even if I know you're lovely and will just be like "Oh, silly me" upon correction.
So that's another fun layer of my dysfunction to have accidentally peeled back. Now I get to spend the rest of the day ruminating about how much this has thrown my life off course in the years it's gone unnoticed, internalised, and avoided.

>>34972543
well either you wallow in misery alone and wait for her to divorce her husband or you try and move on. I don't mean to just fill the void with whoever, but you must be open to the possibility of something else. Even if you ignore romance for a while. I can't say I understand love, but I had unrequited feelings that I never acted on either. I don't believe in soulmates, but god was she my oneitis for way too long. Lingering on it doesn't help unless it is to gain insight on how to move forward

>>34972552
I'm not even bothering to read what you said.

She is my soulmate. That's the truth and nothing will ever change that. I hope God does bring us home to each other some way somehow.

I've passed up everyone for 5 years for her. Stayed true to her for 5 years and get my promises to her for 5 years. She is my soulmate. That's not going to change

>>34972552
like, you have to move on. You will literally go psychotic if you don't. Ruminating on how much of a loser I am and how I never got her in time has wasted so many days of my life I could have spent actually doing something, maybe with her, maybe not. There is a thin line between obsessive rumination and mild psychosis, and I'm not even exaggerating here.

>>34972560
you are insane and I'm glad she found someone else. You sound like an obsessive stalker who would kill her husband to "save her" if you had a chance. Did you ever even date?

>>34972569
F*** off with your manipulative twisting of narrative. You are a horrid piece of s*** and you are one of the reasons that we lost each other.

>>34972573
???? I don't know you. You said yourself it was YOUR fault for not getting your shit together and it was YOUR fault for hesitating.

>>34972565
You don't understand what a soulmate is. She is my soulmate. Unfortunately there are evil people like that piece of s*** here who harms her and I, who lied and manipulated her so we lost each other.

>>34972576
Oh so she's some random anon on 4chan who you've never even spoken to in person and probably stalked. Lol

>>34972574
Never once have I said that it was my fault for hesitating or not getting my s*** together. I never once said that. My s*** has been together for a long time now. I've been fighting for her this entire f****** time

>>34972580
>I wish I said something and maybe I'd have got myself together with someone. Instead I hesitated and someone else did it instead. It's not fair... I'll never get anyone. KHHV forever....
???

>>34972569
>>34972584
kek is it even the same anon and not the thread schizo shitting it up

>>34972569
Again f*** off with your lies.

She is my soulmate and she did love me

>"I love you, remember that."

>"I love you too. That makes me feel at ease"

>"You're the only thing that matters now, it's been like that for so long. Nothing will ever change that."

>"I'm only yours, I love only you"

>"I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you."

>"You're the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me, I'm crying because I need you, this argument is temporary, but I'll always have that empty part needing you. I'm your home too. You are perfect. I love you more"

>"I know I feel both with you and I can dwell in both love and lust, we will fuck each other's brains out and then care for each other, Spend so much time."

>"Everything is perfect with you, dream good dreams, I can't wait."

>"You're the love of my life, everything I've ever wanted, everything I've ever needed ."

>"MM"

>>34972579
You are just trolling and being a piece of s***

. She is my soulmate and all I can do is pray that God brings us home to each other again and removes the evil people here who took us away from each other like you

Like you are in way deeper than I ever was and I started to think (multiple times over the course of multiple years) that she was somehow trying to communicate with me, either messages of hatred or messages of love. Luckily there is geographic as well as social distance between us so I never was able to do anything too stupid.
>>34972587
So your soulmate married someone else? Sounds like she wasn't your soulmate!
>>34972590
how tf did anyone take her away from you?

The only kind of people that I like are adulterers. Ironically, they're more authentic and nicer than everybody else.

I would get married specifically so that I could cheat on my wife with a serial homewrecker, my real ideal woman.

>>34972584
That wasn't me who said that. The pos who harmed us has been larping as me making threads and writing posts like that

>>34972593
Not even reading what you wrote Because You're Just being a twat and making up false narrative. She is my soulmate

>>34972594
Yikes, that's fucked up. Maybe you're hypothetical wife will take all your money and or you'll end up on the news.

>>34972595
oooooohhhh sorry. This sounds like a really strange situation, or you are fucking insane. Remember that anons like to try to fuck with people. I had some rando try to goad me into being a cuck for a woman who is already married and pregnant

>>34972600
I will sooner end up on the news before I let any greedy, selfish, love-hoarding cunt try and plunder my money through a divorce.

>>34972602
I'm not insane but that is something that the person who has harmed her and me has tried to convince her of because of their own selfish interests and manipulations of her

What you say really doesn't matter. She is my soulmate I know that for a fact. She did love me and we were taken from each other and not due to either of our fault but from a piece of s*** here who harmed us. All I can do is pray for God to help us and remove that person from our lives

>>34972599
You are going to end up on the news or in a psych ward. Hopefully she stays far away from you. Did you ever even date her? Did you ever even meet her?
.

>>34972602
Yeah I can recognize when you narc LARP. God help her and i come home to each other and remove this piece of s*** from our lives

>>34972608
Do you even know what I mean by ending up on the news. Nvm. Probably the cheater women you end up with will be a gold digger.

>>34972613
No that's just your fault narrative attempting to harm us. She can clearly see that. And I trust her over you

>>34972616
you don't have to censor shit bro......... Again, I don't fucking know you. You just keep on repeating yourself. I can see why she left you if you're like this.
>>34972618
So you should trust her choice to be with someone who ISNT YOU LMAO

maybe she was just a bpd cunt who was trying to manipulate you. maybe you dodged a bullet?

>>34972620
Yep even more of you just pulling s*** out your ass with false narrative. It's fine they're s***** people out there like you. All I can do is pray for God to make things right with her and I and take people like you out of the equation, to show her what kind of person you are by attempting to manipulate and decieve her with cruel lies

>>34972617
Sure, you probably meant something but what you're forgetting is that I'm better and smarter than you and I have an actual personality that I didn't synthesize from watching influencers on Tik Tok all day.

Anyway, if an opportunity comes for me on my wedding day when I can cheat: I'll take it. And if anybody wants to get violent with me: they'll wind up dead as a stone on the fucking floor.

>>34972622
Yep that's the other thing that he's been trying to make me do is distrust her and think badly of her. That's what he did to her to deceive her of me. Worked well enough for him doing that. Thing is though I know who she is to me. I'm not easily decieved by manipulative lying pieces of s*** here

>>34972626
I'm sure she'd care so much about some random guy she's never met. You sound retarded bro. What is there to say? You never actually got with her and instead whine and complain how some 'narc' 'stole' her from you instead of actually trying to win her back. Do you think she actually reads your posts? Or do you think she's too busy getting bred by her husband? I'm sorry that I have to be so hostile, but you are seriously, seriously, seriously mentally ill, or at least it sounds like it. Unless she is trapped in an abusive situation or was forced somehow it seems like YOU are the narcissist for refusing to accept her free choice to choose someone ELSE, instead believing that she must have been tricked.

>>34972628
Yeah you're a garbage person

>>34972629
YOU ARE A NARCISSIST AND I HOPE YOU ISOLATE YOURSELF FROM SOCIETY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. NO ONE WILL EVER FUCKING LOVE YOU.

SHE DOESNT LOVE YOU. SHE LOVES HIM. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?

>>34972631
No point in even reading your narcissistic mini-filled out lies. She did truly love me and she meant every word she told me when we were together. After we were separated she contacted me and told me how it wasn't anything I did that caused our separation and in the time it took that she was sending me a package Colton came in and started manipulating and lying to her about me

But here's the thing is you're just going to keep being manipulative and lying about me and creating these false narrative and painting unhealthy pictures because of your own agenda. All I can do is be honest and know that she is my soulmate that he saves us from people like you and brings us home to each other

>>34972633
Oh look all caps. She is my soulmate, your opinion doesn't change that. Your manipulations don't change that, your lies to her don't change that

>>34972636
oh lol you're the colton schzio. I'm done here.

>>34972628
I don't use tiktok. You're disgusting

>>34972640
Good I hope you are, tired of your f****** lies and manipulations in an attempt to harm her and I even further

>>34972639
Soulmates don't mean shit if you don't put in the work. sounds like you failed bucko

I just want my crush to like me back. I keep talking to him but I'm awkward and freeze up sometimes. I try to save it, but I can't say the things I really care about.

I go back and forth between believing he must like me back and thinking there's no way at all. How do you really tell if a crush is mutual (if you know someone through work but don't work directly with them especially)?

>>34972631
Oh btw (shes not married yet)

So there's still a chance she sees you making posts like this and sees what a piece of s*** you are and what you try to do to harm us not only works in her and my favor of coming home to each other. The best I can do is pray to God.

>>34972643
I put in 5 years of work, more work than you could even imagine. I don't have to prove myself to you. I have so much I've done for her in ways I put myself out there and stayed true to her. In the end I hope that God gives us that opportunity for her to see what I've done for her over all this time. Because I truly do love her, I always have. She's my soulmate. She's my moon

>>34972650
sorry, again, I DONT KNOW YOU. your inital podt makes it sound final, like she is already married.

>>34972656
ugh youre the sun moon schizo too.

Did you meet her here? Why do you thinm she'll see your posts?

Again: Psychosis. No one you know posts on here. Still, don't be a retard and dox yourself. I have convinced myself multiple times 'my girl' (UGH) was on here, or my mom, or my dad, or my boss, or my... you get it. Log off bitch.

>>34972657
Marriage doesn't have to be the end of things. The most fulfilling relationships are affairs.

>>34972657
Yeah you've made a s*** ton of narcissistic false narratives that assume the worst and painted me and her in a bad light. She's the only I will ever love.

At this point I don't believe you at all that you're not who has been harming us. Too many times have you said that and then rear your ugly head and further narced out at us.

How about you just keep making more posts about how you're going to cheat on this person who you supposedly are going to marry at the first opportunity you have to cheat on them on the wedding day.

>>34972660
She sees my posts. I have my way of knowing. Now bugger off and gloat about affairs and cheating like you have been.

>>34972667
I don't cheat and that anon isn't me. I'm not engaged and I don't see myself getting engaged any time soon. I would never cheat, but I'm also fairly disinterested in romance atp.
>>34972670
Like stalking her? Stalker.

>>34972662
Again, false narrative. Manipulative narcissistic lies that have nothing to do with me or her but you feel shape your argument for whatever you are selfish intent us.

I have never had psychosis or any of the sort. But the really isn't any point in talking to you because you're just going to keep saying more lies

>>34972678
,maybe I'm the only psychotic bitch here. I'm just warning you. I almost got hit with a restraining order because anons on here were goading me on to break no contact with someone.

>>34972677
See more of your narcissistic manipulative lies. The best I can do is trust her over pieces of s*** like you

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Just lost access to an account on which I said some real personal shit, so now that's gonna just float around in the ether for all eternity. Save your passwords, people.

>>34972680
That has nothing to do with me. I've never had restraining order or any of that s*** and if you've had a restraining order on you then that means that you are the stalker and you are just projecting your own issues on me

>>34972682
Just get it back.

>>34972686
I've never had a restraining order, I'm just saying that if I HAD followed the advice of random crazies on here when I was losing my mind I would have been hit with one or worse.

But whatever your issue is, that's your issue. I don't want any part of it and I don't need to even comment on it.


Best to keep praying that god makes the Crooked path straight and resolve and remove all that has taken us away from each. I pray for God to show her who I am just as he gave us that time with each other before so she can decide for herself and not just be misled and fooled by others manipulations and lies, just as we've been taken from each other. He knows my heart and the best I can do is put trust in him in the ways that he has told me

Ok sure do that then instead of whining on a Hungarian soup making forum. Maybe she left you because you're annoying?

>>34972701
No, you opinion has nothing to do with her or I. I really dont care in the slightest how you feel about me, the only person who matters to me here is her.

Dumbass women fumbled me all year long