Yes

>>34975718
I'm feeling the same and worse, I feel my life didn't go the way Everyone else's. I'm mad that I cannot change the things that shaped me and the way things shaped me are the useless way. I could whine all day.

>Can't derive pleasure from being with friends, because I didn't learn to trust, tease and play
>Can't derive pleasure from learning things, because I know in broad terms how most of everything works
>Can't derive pleasure from working, because previous job put unhealthy pressure on me and caused trauma
>Can't derive pleasure from spending money, because I was taught to be stingy and not depend on money
>Can't derive pleasure from going on walks, because shithole country was a warzone and going for fun could get me killed.
>Can't take pleasure from chatting up strangers, because wherever, on school, online, at home I was barred from speaking my mind without being important shit

Yes, I'm tired of life, yet we live and we get weaker each day, we still have things left we're supposed to do like get a gf and get a family. We still have to sort shit out whether we want it or not. It's not nice but that's it until somehow we find a way to live. The frustrating thing is fucking nobody has an answer to any of this.

>>34975718
I am tired, I made promises and was promised to wait until life was settled before we could do anything but insecurity over stability prevented us from proceeding from 2020 onward. I have lived the same year every year miserably since then until 2024 where efforts to change was also became the reason to end it. I achieved what was asked but it is too late. How can you do it all again with trauma lurking in the back of your mind?

>>34975735
Can't spend money for had to save money for their goals as a prerequisite for living out life. Now I must have it all solved before feeling for a potential next person ( if it ever happens) to prevent it happening again. This isn't living.

>>34975735
>we still have things left we're supposed to do like get a gf and get a family.
Earthly illusions, I've had a gf, it was okay-ish experience

>>34975718
>I feel like I've seen everything and did everything
Have you ever seen the moon rise over Mogombo Bay?
Have you ever had sex while weightless?
Have you tasted the caviar from a virgin sturgeon?

Anyone else feels like they're important but dont know why?