>Overprotected background>Emotionally dependent mother>Dad who held everything together and fed the dynamic died>Brain fried by SSRI and lack of socializationI'm sick of my daily life with nothing to look forward to. My mother sticks strictly to routines, she may legit have autism for all that's concerned. I need people to learn from that can have fun and minimize life's bullshit, but I can't find that here, I can't find that in the gym, I can't find that in language classes. Everything's been wrong for long enough for apathy to cement in my reality and that pushes people away.Still All I hear from her is to to the therapist, I've been therapist shopping before and I can't believe a lick of pavlovian bullshit they spout, they don't do life coaching either, partly because this is a third world shithole where such service-centered specialties don't exist. I've been to psychiatrists who only throw SSRIs or worse SNRIs without knowing the pharmacology, adverse considerations or even if the shit are indicated and not counterproductive to my specific functional chronic case.Whatever this is a rant thread report it if you see it, I don't give a fuck.
It PISSES me off that the field of psychiatry is a fucking meme.Legit, from a training perspective, psychiatrist takes the worse students, motivated only by ambition, not an ambition to succeed but an ambition to pass, it's the "next step" when you have to choose your fate after enslaving yourself in med school, you either walk to bigger hellish experiences in IM, Surgery, unrewarded Pediatrics, dirty Gynobs, or Not-a-doctor rads, anesthesio, patho. The only way for these future quacks is psychiatry so that's what the field is composed of.Secondly, psychiatric pharma was discovered by trial and error, by looking at institutionalized patients with the most severe symptoms reacting to whatever was tried on them. The pharmacodynamics was discovered after the fact, in a very unrefined way that the end result on these wrecks is mood improvement. Might as well take shrooms since they act as broadly.To this day, pathways are studied but none reach the literature. We're still practicing the same undesigned pharma from 50 years ago. Neuropharmacy still hasn't developed specificity to target to specific pathways or regions so the equivalent of using these drugs is to hit your tv when the signal goes fuzzy.Academia is fucking shit and doesn't take design seriously anymore thanks to publish and perish bullshit. Load of jeets and chinks need to graduate and get a job in the US and Europe, they will scoop reviews from the same stank badly design databases and publish it as "novel interpretation". Thus something as simple and prevalent like a dick pain from gooning is not studied, let alone subtle side effects like apathy coming out from giving SSRIs to people who could have healed through neuroplastic means.Fuck this world man, fuck this life.
>>34977081>>34977122I feel ya bros.
>>34977081TLDR but I did read the beginningI am not a fan of SSRIs and I believe that a healthy mind needs a healthy body and a healthy social life.I am sorry for where fate has taken you and I hope you find new people, a new perspective and a resolve to overcome the worst
