What do I do if I know that I will be alone for the rest of my life? I am an ugly worthless friendless loser that went through so much that I've realized that I just don't deserve anyone or anything at this point. Even when I realize that a retard like me will not have anyone ever - I still cry every night from the feeling of loneliness like a fag. I'm so tired from being here, I've been wanting to kill myself for the past 3 years but my ass is too scared of the pain and stuff and just can't bring myself to actually do it.Because I'm forced to stay here and nobody cares, I need to somehow make my miserable existence less miserable. What the fuck is wrong with me? How to get rid of these feelings? How do I somehow forget about this "depression" and other shit nobody cares about and start wanting to do stuff, make stuff, make plans for the future, get a hobby as a base for a future job etc.. How can I live completely alone and not go insane? How do I stop paying attention at everyone having everything that I can only dream about? I hate that humans are biologically forced to be so-called "social beings".
