>be born female>first person in family to have rare eye condition>biological father caves my eight month old skull in>he only gets 1 year in prison>have multiple surgeries involving xenon gas on eyes >first memory of me getting raped by my grandfather when i was five >shovel horse manure each morning and after school as young as five >didn’t get to ride horses bc deemed retarded >get to see my dad again for the last time >gets molested by grandfather until age 9>gets bullied to color albino hair black at 11 years old>bullied to cut myself>bullied for being ‘too skinny’>bullied for eyes and being tall>child pornography still exists on the internet my mother’s side of the family has framed me as crazy to protect my grandfather, and they all deny that he was ever alone with me. how would i ever get justice?
>>35002300oh yeah, and my biological father admitted to also molesting me and raping me as young as five, tooand so many evil things have happened to me since these events, but i still have faith in God and love. somehow.
i also survivor a ventilator, defibrillator and feeding tube when i was three, five, and 19.all of your problems seem so easy. i would trade places with any of you in a flutter of my broken heart.
and yeah, Michigan is literally the worst place in the world. what i would do to make it out of this living Hell
any advice at all…?
>>35002300Walk away.Lead a life that has nothing to do with themDefine yourself as a winnerChoose to live the life of a winner
>>35002300>how would i ever get justice?
>>35002502ever since i’ve turned 14 i’ve tried to. money has always been in the way. also, lack of friends. i still cannot seem to make friends outside of church and i’m 29.>>35002515i’ve been coerced into hurting myself and suicide so many times… i wish for a better life
i dreamed of being the first runway model with my eye condition and albinism from as early as i could remember. but instead, people stole my art and rewrote my existence as ‘subhuman girl’ on here in 2019, when i was 21
Normal advice: Get therapy, come to terms that the men on your mothers side are insane. You need therapy since deep seated trauma like this will only subconciously effect your decision making as you get older. If you get therapy and go through the slog of accepting and persevering through the pain, you'll be a better person. You'll have the mental fortitude to control your destiny better.Personal advice (since I was also molested): Cut off your parents. Once you've accepted that things happened in your childhood, just cut them off. No fancy statements, no pleading, no reaching out. New phone number, new address. This will only be good after you've got your answers from therapy
>>35002300>>35002312>>35002336I would get on some kind of strong anti-psychotic, at a dose prescribed by a licensed mental health professional in your country
>>35002603why…? i’m not experiencing osychosis, and i want children…? i don’t want to be drugged up. i want to live a life worth living!>>35002578the question is, how do i do that when my parents are responsible for all my finances are still my guardian and medical power of attorney? they literally still have complete power over me. it feels so helpless.
>>35002611Alright well if you are still under a guardianship at the age of 29. It means a court determined that you legally have no ability to make your own decision. You need to talk with a lawyer about how to remove it. There are free legal services in Michigan that you could reach out to. They would review your case and talk to you about options. They would have better advice then any one here.
>>35002611Some of the other advice here is solid. You need to separate from these people. Not only have people acted malicious toward you but others sought to protect them by making your life even more difficult.Id call for the free legal services. There is also womens shelters that exist to protect women against abuse. Id call one of them. They should have a therapist of some sort there too, as well as training for work.In a way your family has infantilized you by stripping you of your agency, so you have a big leap to hurdle. but you must do this if you wish to fix your life.You need to be thinking about fixing your own life first over getting justice.Good luck anon.
https://youtu.be/swbg76x9S4g?is=uQpPnWltowoT_jgiSadness — i want to be with you
>>35002629how would i ever afford that ?>>35002662i’ve stayed in womens’ shelters and adult foster care homes… it was traumatizing. i am protecting myself by eliminating as much trauma as possible
>>35002713>how would i ever afford that ?>Free legal services What does free mean to you ?
>>35002713Youre in a tramautic situation as is. The fact that youre focusing on justice over getting out of the situation seems to show youve numbed out on it and have delusional goals.Id recommend job corps but it sounds like you are past the age for it.I dont know how desperate you are but about a million people boondock and snowbird each year. The ones your age work a summer seasonal job and then head south during winter to places like quartzsite Arizona where you can stay on blm ground for around 100 bucks for 6 months. Theres a ton of other people there too. All you'd have to do is save up for a vehicle which you could do in a seasonal summer job. Us forest service, wildland fire, tree planting, resorts, cruises, other forestry. Sites like cool jobs and USA jobs usually have the opportunities and offer shelter and sometimes board too.I know its probably out of your comfort zone but it would get you out of your situation while you figure out your life. Government usually has a no tolerance policy toward harassment.
>>35002723where are they free? i dont understand >>35002750i have albinism and an eye condition. i can barely see… thank you all for your generous advice. this has been a lifelong battle. and i’m basically blind after the four eye surgeries homeboy in Massachusetts coerced me to get. i don’t think i am capable of working a job like that, let alone driving.pic of me rn:
>>35002541>coerced into hurting myself and suicideThat's not what that skull means.
https://youtu.be/XiydyBT0q0Y?is=etUoXZ-ZU-zAObaHlego — the Maccabees
>>35002849oh, i wish i could play video games. i’m too poor for them. my mom helped me buy a nintendo switch and zelda tears of the kingdom when it came out and i cannot see very well so i never played it. my switch got stolen and my favorite game earlier this year
>>35002827do you have a job? you may be eligible to sign up for disability. ive heard people can get about 4k a month from it.
>>35002856I wasn't hinting at videogames either. Anyway, I wish all the best for you, gurl.
>>35002872i have SSI, and i get $709 a month>>35002874thankyou peoe popo man
https://youtu.be/k49ConNU3Dk?is=-cAiPYg43TBApvFWdudu alt. ver — yeule
i just realized it’s IndigenousPeople’s Day here in the states. i have sami and potawatomie ancestry
>>35002894You've been given a shit hand in life.But I also think youre not willing to put much effort in to fix your situation so im doubting your fortitude on willing to get out from under your family.What exactly do you want right now, besides justice?
>>35002894Anonette. I want you to look into learned helplessness. You’re thinking like an elephant who was chained to a tree as a baby: when it becomes an adult because it couldn’t pull up the tree, it gave up or made excuses even though it could DEFINITELY pull up the tree or pole as an adult. There should be a DV program by you and free civil legal services too (“x area legal services” or legal clinic). That area of law could help you terminate a guardianship
>>35002948to understand what love feels like, what friends are like, and to integrate into society somehow
>>35002948i am willing to do almost anything to get out of this situation, except break the Ten Commandments … please don’t be ableist towards me. i can barely see.>>35002989i’ve been looking into this for years, went to social security and they said it’s a lifelong process once someone is legally incapacitated , it really hurts that you guys don’t think i try. validation and empathy would be more helpful than this shunning
>>35003005>going to social security for this.I know you want empathy. Your feelings are not invalid and I understand you have a rigid moral code (GOOD). However, the social security people are NOT lawyers. They CANNOT give legal or admin advice. Please for all that’s good seek a pro bono lawyer. Your state’s bar association should have a legal aid thing that tells you where there’s places that do legal aid.
>>35003005I'm sorry I think you've been misinformed.This is the /adv/ board not the /feels/ board. If you wanted performative empathy and validation you can always head over to Reddit. We want to help you but you have to be willing to accept help. If you just want to vent about your shit situation, there's the /gioyc/ thread. Also lastly go ask your parents to find you a Christian Counsellor. They can begin talking to you about treatment plans. Such as CBT or IPT. Both of which would help you.
>>35003040reddit only treats me worse! Christ
>>35003040thank you thothanks all of youi wish to be known as Jasmine Nina Grosel, not ‘subhuman girl’ historically. i was the first person with Blepharophimosis Ptosis Telecanthus & Epicanthic Inversus Syndrome to walk a runway at 12 in 2009. i was the eighth person to sign up for Obamacare. i am an aspiring Bodhisattva, i want to be like Michigan’s Quan Yin. there’s so much i want to do, but nobody wants to talk to the freakishly tall girl with the fucked up eyes.
>>35003052Wait so Reddit was treating you poorly so you decided to head over to 4Chan to get treated better? That's certainly an interesting choice
>>35003060Theres like a billion virgin men on this site that would talk to you.Have you considered using duolicious to find similar people in messed up situations?
Haven't we already had like 5 of these threads
>>35002300"Vengeance is mine, this sayith the Lord"
Just kill both of them? It's that easy. Jury will unironically let you go.
>>35003061yeah, they called me a 2/10 before eye surety with medicaid i got for a guy that just threw me away like a plastic cup, and it doesnt look good. i also hve a scar from the surgery>>35004025ummm this is my first time posting like this >>35005560you’re right. i just lift up everything to Jesus Christ>>35005712no thank yout. ‘subhuman girl’, OP with BPES & albinism
>>35002300Just move somewhere far away like a new city or state, and stop caring about the past. Live as if it never happened, forget about it. Just stop caring.
