I have a lot of rage as a result of having a depressive mother, and abused father, and having been bullied relentlesslyI'm also quite ugly so I have been always mocked as a result of my physical appearance, I've had people calling me a zombieI don't know what to do, I want to believe there's good in the world but sometimes it's hard to believe
>>35008555>I have a lot of rage as a result of having a depressive mother, and abused father, and having been bullied relentlesslyfucking cringe.
>>35008566Why? It's not like I chose it
>>35008602>Why? It's not like I chose ityou do chose it though.
>>35008610How? I chose to have a mother with depression and an abusive father? How did I choose that?
>>35008555There was a task once in school amd it involved making a group selfie for whatever reason and I was also called a zombieYour circumstances won't meaningfully change - maybe a bit with hard work and luck.My inner outlook chamged after reading the New Testament. Maybe you'd like it. It's kind of heart-warming.https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%201&version=NIV
>>35008708I'm sorry you also had to go through that, Anon. I do find the figure of Jesus inspiring, especially after having been humilliated and still choosing loveAlthough sometimes I wonder, what if Jesus/a loving God doesn't exist? Would it be realistic to think one is able to let go of resentment?Sometimes I think the only way would be divine intervention which then leads me to question if God exists or not
>>35008727I don't doubt that both good and evil exists. In this life face and height and luck matter but in the next it's your soul. I mean I don't wanna be theological, but in Revelation 12 it says:>Then war broke out in heaven. Michael and his angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon and his angels fought back.>He was hurled to the earth, and his angels with him.So this is a fallen world ruled by those who were kicked out of heaven. Temporarily occupied but not forgotten and whatever is wrong with us, we can hope we'll be healed. Our lifes will probably kinda suck as long as we live but that's ok because it's not the end. Make your soul beautiful. And in my opinion there's also a lot of evidence mainstream science deliberately ignores. I don't think evolution makes sense once studied closer and the shroud of turin cannot be replicated, even in a modern lab, even though it's 1000/2000 years oldhttps://rentry.org/shroud-of-turin-27042026/https://xenosarc.substack.com/p/from-a-mathematical-and-logical-standpoint
>>35008623You chose to let it effect you, control your life etc.
>>35008768It's true, I'm familiar with the historical aspects of Christianity and how the World is ran by evil people and I believe it's all true but then the irrational side of me has to question those beliefs all the time, maybe because I think Jesus might be too good to be true, in a wayBy the way, how are you doing now? I know looks matter and all but did you find any happiness?
>>35008794I mean it's hard not to when everyone around you has failed you, it's difficult to trust people
>>35008813>I mean it's hard not to when everyone around you has failed you, it's difficult to trust peopleStop passing the blame off to other people, you're the only one who cares about you truly. You're the only one who can make changes to your life. start living and man up.
>>35008810You get happiness from the total sum of conditions you're exposed to, so to sayAnd one of these conditions massively changed, my outlook on life itself. The other conditions mostly remained like they were though I made a bit of progress. So all in all I'm in a better spot now.How about you? Hope you're well.Don't lose faith, Christ is real. Evil and good are real and unfortunately on this world we mostly see evil. Which means, what's about to come will be much better.Sorry if I don't answer, will sleep soon.
>>35008819I agree with your advice in general and I think you are right but this idea that other people's actions don't cause harm and that one should override their pain by 'Manning up' is just unrealisticImagine telling a kid who had been raped by their stepfather every single day, who told his mom about it and got ignored by her and nothing happened until their landlord found pictures of that kid around that the stepfather went to jailThat's a real case, would you say he should just 'man up'? That he shouldn't pass the blame off to other people?I agree that no one is coming to save me and that I need to take control of my own life, but the rest is just dismissive
>>35008845Don't worry Anon, I'm grateful for your kind words, I hope life gets better for youI'm personally doing a bit better but I do have some highs and lows I won't lieSleep well
>>35008859night (^~^)
>>35008555Hello other people, dedicate your life to charitable work. Sometimes it takes perspective, seeing people who are doing way worse than you
