>>35018430
Hey man just so you know, you were not bullied because of your acne or teeth or your autism. You were bullied because something about you made the bully feel jealous anger. I know this because I was a bully in school. Not sure if this helps or not but understand nothing excuses bullying and the real failure is the bully, not you. Go and enjoy life man, you have more than deserved that.

>>35018461
Bullying is just fun. No bully thinks about the victim when he goes home after school. There's literally no deeper meaning behind it than ''I don't like you''. Same goes with most fights on the street. Movies made people think that every conflict is due to some misunderstanding that could be talked out heart to heart, but that is just theatrical plot.

>>35018461
>Go and enjoy life man
I want to but I dont know how to socialize in uni everyone is in a friendgroup doing their own thing and when I tried to go to some events the same thing was happening, I dont know how I could find someone who would want to interact with a stranger like me

>>35018485
The bullying is fun. But it's fun for a reason, because it's cathartic, it's a feeling of dopamine from laughter and a manic buzz, but it's also a quick and easy feeling of control. And the way a bully targets there victim has two layers. The victim must seem low risk and the type of person who will be unwilling to fight back or resolute enough to report it. So I looked for people I perceived to be weak. The other thing that identifies a potential victim is they have 'something'. Something the bully doesn't. Could be friends, could be a type of clothes, but most commonly it's the grades or the performance in class. Nerdy kids make the bully feel small and dumb just by existing because the teacher publicly rewards or praises the nerd with a "well done Timmy" and the bully is told "you are not even wanting to try. See me after class." In front of the other kids, so the bully hates the nerd for being the class golden boy because it makes the bully seem like a joke in front of everyone. That's where the jealous anger comes in before you know it the bully convinced himself he absolutely should make the nerd's life a living hell. And if it's not about the grades another one is if the victim has loving parents or a good family, that's another one.

The bully will never let the victim know any of this though. The bullies objective is to make the victim feel small and weak so the bully feels big and strong temporarily. So the bully picks things the victim most likely feels insecure about, such as their face or their clothes or their personality quirks.

>>35018513
Just keep attending, start small with amicable gestures and greetings, then the next time just see if you can talk a few more words ask one more question, you keep doing that and eventually you become a familiar routine for those people, they will over time consider you as part of the in-group. These things take time man. The only way to get it instantly is by being a cocky type with superficial charm who socially brute forces their way in using bullshit social ploys. And I don't recommend that because if you're after an authentic friend group it's best to take it slow

>>35018525
Dude, it's no different than in nature. Predator and Prey. The bully has a different mindset, it's completely alien, just as if you were interacting with a downie or a schizo, their brains are different. So a bully really does fuck over people for the heck of it, not because jealousy, not because strategy, he does it the same reason a stoner smokes pot, to get a quick laugh out of it.

In fact the guy who needs his shit sorted out is the bullied. He turns into the bullied because he has got insufficient resources, be that in family support, experienced mentors, a temperamental flaw or whatever. The bullied has a negative adaptation and can't get over it or over the consequences of bullying.

Literally every other person out there takes quick jabs at each other and laugh it off. That's the normal thing, and it's the victim who has to pull his own weight to return to normal.

>>35018570
If I wanted a quick laugh I could have watched a comedy or had actual light hearted fun. I only understand why I bullied now, later as an adult. Teenage me would have agreed with you about the predator/prey shit because it would have fed my ego. That's a cope though, the fact was I was a loser who wanted others to lose more so I could feel like a winner. In school I seemed like a winner socially but at home it was a different story which I don't want to get into. My point is if an intelligent kid is looking like he is comfortable with himself minding his own business happy in his own niche hobbies or even worse has parents coming to collect him from school because they care about him, that's like blood in the water for bullies because it reminds the bully of what they don't possess and it fuels the need to bully the victim greatly. The laughter/strong Vs weak shit is just the coping cognitive dissonance.

>>35018430
Oh yeah I forgot to mention something. Everyone marries their trigger. If you're looking for love as a mentally fucked up bully victim, the chances are you're going to get married to a female bully. Whether that female is still a raging cunt or a reformed one is whatever, but a fun phenomenon is observed in people that shows if you've been imprinted by the experience of being bullied severely enough eventually that's what you will unconsciously recreate and revisit mentally and emotionally until it becomes so knit into your passive behaviours that you'll attract or be attracted to the female bully. I hope you like tsundere knuckle sandwiches, nerd because you're gonna be marrying one

>>35018525
The only reasons I bullied people was because it was funny, and sometimes because I disliked them. I used to bully my brother a lot because I genuinely saw him as an annoying loser. I didn't "envy" a thing about him.