What to do? I feel like any hopes I had have been crushed by simply being ugly and that tainting most of my life. Vain as it may be, my biggest aspiration genuinely was just to be pretty and feel pretty. Not saying that men don't suffer with this too but women are judged way more for looks and men are more open with their disgust. So many doors seem closed, I can't pretend to socialise because I know they'll be looking at my face and probably looking down at me, I can't care about looks because I don't want to be a pig in lipstick or to be laughed at for trying to look nice when I'm ugly, I will never feel pure or innocent and as I'm turning 22 I am ageing and will have had a wasted invisible youth where nobody paid even a slither of attention except to mock me. I don't know what to do. I'm so angry and hateful and any hope I attain will be ruined the second someone questions why that ugly bitch thinks she is entitled to be seen as anything other than a joke and a ugly freak. I can get a BF (any woman can) but I would feel so ugly there's no point. He wouldn't be satisfied and I would feel so disgusting. I can't see a future for myself where I have confidence and can be a real human being taken seriously and viewed as someone sweet and delicate for once. I thought I would accept living as a repulsive outcast and come to embrace it out of spite if nothing else but it hurts more as I grow. I am not entitled to being a female or a human. If I wasn't close with my parents I would troon out. And no I'm not fat. I've always been anorexic. I walk for 30-45 minutes most days, have a good diet and I do skincare. Can't afford surgery and I would feel like a cheat. My face is just really bad (also British and autistic with FAS features if that helps put it in perspective).
>>35023259Just date an ugly guy who is your looksmatch. I know tons of ugly guys who have absolutely great character but no luck dating and are subtly depressed because of it.
>>35023259Are you the girl with the eyes who has posted this 15 times in the last few weeks?
>>35023267I have nothing against the idea of dating an ugly guy and many people I have been attracted to are conventionally unattractive (having a fat kink helps) but I don't think I can be happy as an ugly person. I think what's the point of being female or assuming a female role if you can't have the one attribute that women excel at? What is romance if you are ugly as sin? Especially as my personality isn't feminine at all so I would have nothing to offer. I have "looksmaxxed" to the maximum extent I can without getting involved with surgery or crazy stuff like mewing but I look so vile. I genuinely understand how trans people think. This existence is worthless. >>35023303I haven't posted my eyes so not me.
>>35023311>I haven't posted my eyes so not me.Interesting. Maybe she’ll show up in this thread and provide you with some perspective. She seems pretty sweet in general despite it all. Pretty horrific shit happened to her so it’s admirable in my opinion.
>>35023259Date a guy in his 40s or 50s he'll probably be attracted to your youth even though you are a pig.
>>35023259>I've always been anorexic>have a good dietlol which is it?
>>35023358I haven't seen her threads, guess I should go looking in the archive.>>35023363Ignoring all the problems with that my parents wouldn't let me anyway.>>35023413I was the proper kind of starvation anorexic from when it started at about 10 to 18ish but I care less about calories now and more about quality of food (like avoiding UPF as much as possible) and sugar content. Anorexia is something that stays with you forever and the thoughts will always be there but I can subdue the fat thoughts if I eat healthy and exercise plus the threat of hair loss, poor skin and premature ageing from it has scared me into eating a little more.
>>35023259>a future for myself where I have confidence and can be a real human being taken seriously and viewed as someone sweet and delicate for oncebeauty doesn't give any of that on its own. if you want it, just develop your character traits and be modest (dressing, behaviour, talk). women can be good looking and be disgusting and rude, ugly women can be very cute, delicate, sweet, pleasant to be around modesty will also lead you to find a husband that values you instead of your body alone https://youtu.be/ZppGy-2dvN4?t=1159lots of beautiful women get treated like a public toilet and aren't listened to at all because they themselves don't have any self-respect, which leads them to worse and worse situations as they seek validation in the wrong places and wrong people https://youtube.com/watch?v=bQ6NxFAA7Skhttps://youtu.be/srWkQd1vVyo?t=535>My face is just really bad (also British and autistic with FAS features if that helps put it in perspective)on the physical side, watch every video from dr mike mew and start following his advice, and start eating more animal foods to support your facial development, like at least 6 eggs and 400 grams of meat a day, and cut the seed oils at least, ideally go full carnivore to get a perfect skin thanks to the niacin in the diet and the lack of glycation from the carbohydrates (harry serpanos is a good source of information on this)but the most important part is the spiritual aspect. I've seen plenty of beautiful people have miserable lives and be single, and ugly people with beautiful spouses and happy lives.
>>35023428Here’s a thread of hers. It isn’t very long but I’ve seen some long ones out there. I feel for you a lot but I am not an ugly female so I can only try to point in the direction of someone else I saw with a similar problem (and who seems to handle mind breaking things with surprising grace)https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/35002300/
>>35023363100% this
>>35023534I think I'm a pretty nice person. Most people who say they're nice usually aren't but I have a stronger sense of justice than most. At worst I'm annoying and a doormat but I definitely don't think I'm horrible in the way a lot of people are. >on the physical side, watch every video from dr mike mew and start following his advice, and start eating more animal foods to support your facial development, like at least 6 eggs and 400 grams of meat a day, and cut the seed oils at least, ideally go full carnivore to get a perfect skin thanks to the niacin in the diet and the lack of glycation from the carbohydrates (harry serpanos is a good source of information on this)Like mewing? Does that even work? And 6 eggs and 400g of meat a day seems quite extreme, I only eat around 1200cals and that includes fruits, veg, wheat snacks, potato, fish and/or meat. Thank you but I think my diet is fine honestly. I do want to start gaining muscle soon but I think I eat enough meat and fish I think that I don't have to change my diet. >>35023600Thanks. I haven't read any of her threads so I'll read this now.>>35023616An older man will only love me for my youth. I will still be ugly and feel awful about being ugly.
>>35023719>Only like me for my youthThey'll probably like other things about you as they get to know you. We all love each other at first for surface level reasons.
>>35023534>on the physical side, watch every video from dr mike mew and start following his advice, and start eating more animal foods to support your facial development, like at least 6 eggs and 400 grams of meat a day, and cut the seed oils at least, ideally go full carnivore to get a perfect skin thanks to the niacin in the diet and the lack of glycation from the carbohydrates (harry serpanos is a good source of information on this)Fuck off with this retardation
I used to be ugly. I never cared because I knew that I was going to get plastic surgery in my 20s. Everyone gave me a hard time because of how I looked, even my own mother. Then they'd harass me harder time the few times I'd tell anyone of my plans to buy plastic surgery with my own money. My own mother kept trying to drill into me that plastic surgery is wrong and wouldn't fix my problems, wouldn't look natural, my kids would be ugly etc. She's famously wrong about literally everything. Everyone else in our family stopped trying talk with her.I ended up getting plastic surgery. Beautiful people get looked at differently. I have a kid. People say he's cute. I also say that every other kid is cute. The only difference is that everyone who hasn't seen his father assumes my kid looks like him. No, he looks like a mini me.
>>35023259Hello Kouva, you've been making this thread for like 5 years, what's the point even? Are you collecting pity points or what.Just like it's been pointed out many times before you're not even remotely ugly at all. Even if you've been a model you would've still thought of yourself as an uggo with your mentality.People are mocking you because you're an outcast that's distancing herself from people on purpose, not because you're "ugly"I think you're not delusional and you know that you're above average in looks and are probably coping.I honestly don't know what your actual issue is, it's pretty hard to decipher since I don't know if you're being 100% honest. If you are - then you are delusional for sure and you're in a self-imposed prison, no matter how people praise you - you'll think they're not being genuine, it seems impossible to convince you of the obvious.Aside from the self hating you're a pretty cool and talented person that seems to be fun to be around. Someone just needs to physically drag you out of your shell since you're doing everything to not escape it. I've seen many such cases.
>>35023259>HTF fanThat's automatically a green flag for me. Let's cuddle under the blanket and binge watch the show together <3
>>35023259>If I wasn't close with my parents I would troon out.That's the ticket.I don't like "egg culture" but in my experience everyone who says shit like this troons out eventually. You'll be 25, 30, 40, 50 or something and you'll start roiding. Sigh.
>>35025074Troon shill
>>35023259At least you don't get a bunch of unwanted attention
>>35023428>Ignoring all the problems with that my parents wouldn't let me anyway.Are you a literal child? Gross if so get off this website. If you are an adult grow up and do whatever you want if it's within your means.
