My friends and family ignored me, lied and deceived me, beaten me up, and disregarded me. I am sleep deprived and I have depression. I almost never go outside anymore. I may have slowly killed one of my family people. I have 15 suicide attempts, I have threatened my family to kill them, and I have homicidal and genocidal thoughts. Everyone tells me I'm weird or that I am not one of them. I fucking hate my life, somebody kill me, I don't deserve to live, I am a monster, I am worthless, I am useless, and nobody will ever miss me when im gone.
This is actually badass. Threaten their lives againAlso, how did you potentially slowly kill somebody? Feed them a certain kind of food, or, make them feel shame for something?
>>35030390I tried to punch my grandfather very aggresively. I broke his pancreas, and he died at the hospital. I haven't cried at all in the funeral, and I tried to get away.
I want to kill myself so bad.
Living is how you atone. I won't say I don't blame you if you go through with it but you would be taking the easy way out.
>>35030367>I want to fucking die.I want to die fucking.
>>35030367So, have you actually tried talking to a psychiatrist, or did you just decide to give up without talking to someone whose job it is to help you?
>>35030367>I have 15 suicide attemptsWhat you need is a good suicide method that doesn't have the possibility of failure then, right?If you want the best suicide method, just book a plane ticket to Stavanger, in Norway, and hike to Preikestolen or Pulpit Rock. It is a 250+ meter fall with a hard landing on rocks. It is a 100% guaranteed to kill you, 100% painless, and 100% instant suicide method. You guaranteed will die instantly with guaranteed zero pain as your body falls on the rocks with a speed of at least 171+ km/h after falling for ~7 seconds from the edge of the cliff.The sudden deceleration will rip your aorta from your heart, turn every organ into mush, and your brain will eject from your head when your head cracks on rocks at those speeds.And on top of that, the earliest an ambulance helicopter could arrive to pick up your body and bring it to the hospital is 1.5 hours, but probably realistically closer to 3 hours, as rescue from such a steep cliff is a major hassle. And at that point, anyone who against all odds survived somehow for some time the initial jump would have long since died from massive internal bleeding and blood loss.I mean, just look at that height and that landing: https://youtube.com/shorts/vlCERj12Y2EImpossible to survive and hence completely idiot-proof suicide method.Good luck! <3
>>35030617I have no psychiatrist. My mom said she would take me one but I'm not convinced she is gonna do it.
>>35030367Just get a job and your own place bro fuck familyIt'll be night and day
