(English is not my first lenguage, so that's the reason if í write something wrong or it has no sense, sorry:( ) Anyways, i have been feeling really weird this last two weeks, like, i didn't even noticed anything bad on me, but a friend told me i was acting strange, and since then I tried to find what was wrong with me, i found out i was acting like really stupid, talking about things whit ni sense, trying to talk about something that i didn't understand at all like i knew everything or just talking whit ni sense (just like my english, lmao). But after this i didn't know what was the problem, like, i was doing great after that, but I slowly realized where this all started. In a short way, I'm feeling lonely, in a long way, I'm trying really hard to feel happy around the people that I apreciate, but I don't feel like they feel the same, my friends looked for other friends instead of staying whit me a lot of times, I told my boyfriend about this and he was caring and told me to search for him if I feel like this again, but clearly he isn't a god to be instantly here for me, but I'm still feeling frustraded about that, and now I can't stop feeling like people that is care about don't give a fuck about me, but I really don't want to feel this way, like, if they don't want to look for me, then fuck them, but it becomes harder every time this repeats, like, it's starting to affect my own body, I have a headache since morning and my eyes and lips feels like I had many flys bites(I didn't remember how to say that UnU). So I'm all ears if you have and advice of how to have a little bit of emotional freedom, or just not falling into depression. And thank you if you are really going to help me, everywhere I searched said I should tell someone about my situation, but is hard when the problem is feeling lonely, anyways, thanks again!
