I have always been neurodivergent and unable to fit in socially, so I got bullied throughout school. Now I am in uni and I have no friends nor can I see myself making friends with these normies. It's probably not the loneliness that's haunting me - it's the emptiness of it all.I dropped out from HS for 3 years, failed uni classes early on, and took light course loads so I am 26 and still 1 year (or 2 full semesters and 1 summer semester) away from graduation.Right now I take 3 antidepressants and one antipsychotic (as a mood stabilizer) and it makes me feel lethargic all day long.A snapshot of my life: my life consists of rotting in my room and walking for 2 hours daily in the city, I haven't had new clothes in years now, not that I look like a hobo, they're all in good standing, but the point still stands. I dress poorly, like jeans and some worn out t-shirt, I let my hair go, and right now I shaved it all and I am bald. I stopped playing video games and barely play a 25 year old game (literally), and I still listen to the same music I enjoyed as a 16 year old, (nostalgia junkie). I essentially have no hobbies.I must fix my life and turn it around before I hit 30. I need advice. I probably need to buy new clothes, actually work out, get fit (I am obese now) and look up music or do a hobby, but it's all so overwhelming to me.For example, what hobby to do? I am not normie enough to play an instrument, nor involved in the computer world to pick up programming. I can't draw, so I can't do graphic design. Maybe learn something? What? A language? A topic?What to do?
What makes me extremely sad is that I keep thinking that my current situation is unbearable - if I do ever turn things around, I would probably look back on how I did survive living like this for years, but again, I don't know what to do to reach that point.
>>35076781and wonder how I survived living like this for years*
