>Be me 19>Be ok in school but shit the bed with my finals>Go to shitter univesity for engineering> Suck but pass for now (3 more years left until I get my degree)> Go to mandatory military service tryouts for airforce. Shit the bed> Serve service in cannon fodder riflemen brigade instead> Apply to officer school> Get sent to fucking figure out how to fix tanks like some fucking retarted greasemonkeyWhy do my parents even believe in me anymore. I have shit the bed everytime. I try my hardest, but I am just retarted and out of shape only lifting weights (gives me serotonin) I hate cardio and losing mass, but fucking military made me lose like 12 kilos anyway. My dad keeps asking me if I'm sure in becoming an Engineer and says to just pursue your dreams and other normie oofy-doofy advice. Morons and retards like me don't get to have dreams. My mom believes in me like I am the second coming of Jesus Christ even though evidence shows the contrary. Telling me to retry tryouts for airforce and etc. She expects the impossible from me and then doesn't even get pissed when I fail. She just says its ok and hugs me. I hate this pity I wish she would lash me instead like the fucking useless dog I am. My brother on the other hand is in fucking Law school and got like almost perfect scores from high school. Yet he still accepts me and talks me like I am an equal even though I am clearly a subhuman.I love my family very much but it feels like they don't know me at all. They don't know I'm a failure, they don't know I'm so retarted I'm suicidal they don't know what the world is like now. They think I will succeed, but nothing ever happens.
>>35077824I forgot to ask, but what should I do. How can I get my family to lower their expectations
you almost have an engineering degree, military (including airforce) knowledge and training, and are on the way of knowing how to repair tanks, which not only puts you on a much higher level than me and the hundreds of wankers in this site for porn addicts, but also above the average joe. with consistency and patience, and a bit of effort, fixing tanks may even let you avoid the frontlines. your parents have all the right to be proud about you.and honestly speaking, i believe any red blooded man respects engineers and tank repairers way more than lawyers
>>35077984I appreciate it man, but I don't think by the time I graduate Engineering will have jobs
>>35077824>>35077842Seriously? THAT is what you're complaining about? I wish my family was THIS supportive. Not once did they tell me to pursue my dreams, NOT ONCE did they ever accept me for who I am.It was always "go to school" type bullshit. Don't get me wrong, I'm good at school, but I'm not really interested in that>>35078205You'll still have better job prospects though. Sure, you might have to do a Master's degree too, but what do I knowConsider yourself lucky, you ungrateful swine.
>>35078209They have to im clearly a fucking retard. Just look at my success rate in life. I do love my family but I'm a lost cause without talent there are no worthwhile dreams to pursue and they have to understand that.
>>35077842stop giving them power over you
Do your best, do the next right thing, no regrets
>>35078422>im clearly a fucking retard.Why do you think that?>Just look at my success rate in life.You're young and about to become an engineer with practical experience. By what success rate are you measuring yourself against? Elon Musk? Some rockstar? A medical doctor?You're being WAY too hard on yourself lmao
>>35078611Everyone around me is doing better. My fellow engineering students are bettet at the vast majority of subjects. My brothers in arms are better with tanks. My high school friends got better grades and therefore higher education. My family were all succesful. When comparing to everyone around I am clearly a fucking moron.
>>35079211I see. So what are your goals then? You know that judging others is bad too, right? Your mind is sick
>>35078205Nobody is fucking vibe-coding a transmission or a frame dude. >>35077824You'll definitely see retarded mechanics but being a mechanic is not kind to retarded people. You have to be smart enough to figure out root cause instead of just throwing parts at it.
>>35079211So, among the mechanics, you are the best engineer, and among the academics, you are the best mechanic.
>>35079239Well only the first part some of the older engineers have been working the field for years. And all the Mechanics hate Engineers since their bosses are engineers so its not like it gives me any respect.
>>35079221>Your mind is sickMy brother in Chud we are on 4chan all of our minds are sick> What are your goalsI just want a good enough job to have a family. Thats why I went into engineering and not History, philpsophy or some other useless degree I would find more intresting. But I dont think ill ever even get a family.
>>35079269>all of our minds are sickStop projecting>But I dont think ill ever even get a family.Bro shut the fuck up with that doomer shit. I swear to GOD you're worrying more about bullshit than doing any other thing that's worthwhile ! Go outside, go for a walk ! Stop thinking you're so special !
>>35077824Failure is merely fertilizer it helps a plant grow in a different direction; besides, no one fails forever. I’m simply suggesting that you distinguish between your current failures and your future potential. I understand how you feel I’m around the same age as you but the issue isn’t that others fail to see your true self; rather, once they do see it, things often shift. It’s possible that even you haven’t fully recognized your own true, exhausted self yet. And yes, I struggle with self-hatred too but I’m completely drained. I know I’ll keep living tomorrow this body will keep breathing and I know that, eventually, everything will pass. The real challenge is figuring out how to pass the time until then. After all, hating yourself doesn’t exactly make it any easier to set things right.I used despair and boredom to the point i even imagine about my death in future just because i boredom but still curious,i just have one thing to said to you:>This life so fucking stupid and it never let us chill long...You can hate yourself but at least don't let anyone you care hate the same thing to themselve.
