>join org for the disabled>leave and come back>join what is basically the org's missionary program>the people in that program get a ton of benefits while normal guys get scraps and the main purpose of the org seems neglected in our chapter>10 years ago it wasn't like this>I also have a muzzle. I can't say anything political, controversial, "upsetting", religious, etc on the social media I own they know about.>I gained real confidence for the first time 10 years ago because I became more honest.>everyone is proud of me>I also get fomo from the events despite being busy already>mom also guilts me into doing eventsI just joined to make friends. I lost a part of myself.
