There is this total b who i have been obsessed with for years. We have been close for ages but never as close as i wish. Sexual relation sure to some extent but never enough to feel genuine. Tried cutting ties with her, but that only hurt both of us. Now after reconnecting im in constant purgatory of needing her yet being able to have her. Im tormented by my lack of self respect, being unable to forget her, comparing anyone and anything to whoever i try forming a relationship and it's not getting better. Any advice i have been given irl or not, has been terrible and unable to give me resolve to resolve this bullshit. What the fuck do i do. Don't mind calling me pathetic or a loser for whatever reason you have, i have plauged myself about it enough to know it.
