How do I not be a fucking pussy about self expression? I've long had pointless stress about it and repress myself. I'm thinking about trying expressing myself in a more feminine way. There's nothing that could really go wrong with that, just altering your cosmetics somewhat. Big deal? Yet if I wanted to simply try this I think of how I'd even present that to people in my life. That seems daunting. It, funny enough, takes balls to be unashamed about that. It's not just that though. I've felt repressed in many manners of self expression. I'm not much of a risk taker. I've always felt weird about say, practicing something, or creating something outside of solitude, I've felt ashamed of trying. I could mess around with an instrument right now that I don't know how to use, just to feel it out. I'd know absolutely nothing about how to use it right off the bat, but to begin at all, you'd have to be there. I'd feel ashamed to do this, I'd be ashamed and feel watched and harshly judged, but also strongly discouraged because not only would I be doing something "badly", I'd be doing it, NOT KNOWING WHAT I'M DOING AT ALL! This is weird, and I don't know exactly why this is instilled in me. There is something to there being a time and a place for a thing, but why should I feel ashamed when I literally have nothing better to do with my time? It's my life, why am I such a faggot about this?
>>35080120AvPD. You can take drugs to make it less uncomfortable, but you'll never stop feeling weird when you're being seen.
>>35081817>AvPDCould be. I'm not sure. If that is my problem then I must be a somewhat advanced case because I do have a theory for interpersonal relations that pulls me through at least a little. What drugs would I take?
>>35080120Courage is more important than not feeling fear, the fear is an expression of your care which is why you also wish to express. Courageously expressing is a reflection of your character because you do the right thing while feeling the fear, if you do not feel the fear there is no nobility in the act. Additionally you escape the fear by doing the action. The fear informs that you need more experience, which you may only be able to get through doing it in fear.
>>35080120>why am I such a faggot about being a faggot?
