im sorry for growing up. i did everything everyone told me to fix my life and now that i'm here at the edge of being normal, sociable, adjusted, i think i hate it and i think i miss being a dumb girl in my room spending my days trying to escape the gnawing feeling in my chest. i haven't gotten a boyfriend yet, i probably could if i used one of the apps. it would probably be a mix of enjoyable and frustrating and we'd break up two years later because it wasn't really strong to begin with. what am i doing. i finally figured out how to barely function but fuck me what is the POINT of this?? it looked soooo green until i got over here and now i don't even see another destination to long for, what the fuck do i do?? why did i ever want to grow up?
OP it’s not your fault. Your life still retains meaning no matter the circumstances. Get out there, learn to live in solitude comfortably without your life’s burdens following you. As a fellow “dumb girl trying to escape” myself, I believe the best you can do is be brave in the moment and reach out, without the need of romantic intimacy entirely. If that is what you desire, go for it, but platonic intimacy is the platform that builds your social life and your healthy friendships will gain you experience that give you the standard of what is positive and what is negative. Please don’t spend the rest of your time thinking about what could’ve been and think about now what you should be doing currently, and just do it.
Yeah, well now that you got a tool which is your growth you can use it for good. It's not a curse, it's a super power. You may have grown to 25 but to get to 40 means knowing your maturity well. But what can I say I'm an atypical idiot, hahahahaha.
>>35081333hey zack please dont say this to women in real life if you really speak this way online (dont continue saying this on the internet either???)
