Why do you like it? I can't promise I can help you get rid of it. It's not my thing but I empathize with having a fetish you don't want to have. I'm an emetophile. Maybe if we pray to God to help us, we can at least manage our sexual brokenness somehow.

>>35081940
I also believe in God and I hope so Anon. I think I like it as a result of early exposure and the fact that I was bullied a lot and my mom being overprotective was my only refuge

>>35081951

One of my exes spread a rumor about me in high school that I wanted to kiss my cousins. (I would never do that. They're beautiful but I am not attracted to them.) Thankfully it didn't travel far. The person who spread these rumors ended up becoming an hero, too. lol

>>35081957
How did that happen?

>>35081997

I don't know. A few years ago, I got reminded of this person and googled her. Then I found her obituary. I'm still deeply impacted by the relationship we had when we were young. She used self harm as leverage with me. I had to wrestle blades from her once. I'm finally talking about it in therapy and no longer feel ashamed or like I am a monster for HER behavior.

>>35081940
Ur >>35051097 rite?

>>35082000
Oh another person gaslit by a performative self harmer >>35081751

>>35082029

I am the one who rubs off to stomach bug stories, yes. I felt so guilty when I found out the first woman I ever dated, had sex with, and went to pride with is no longer with us. My therapist had to remind me several times that I am not responsible for someone else's choices.

>>35081923
STOP
WATCHING
PORN.

Cold turkey that shit.
And is there a specific family member you have i mind, that you fantasize about? Do they actually arouse you when you are around them or are you aroused by how taboo the idea of it is?

Either way, the solution is CELIBACY!!!

ABSTINENCE!!!

SELF-DENIAL!!!

Only in silence can you hear the music of your heart's desire.
You are the product of pornography.

>>35082344
>CELIBACY
Forever? I agree with your take on abstinence but does that mean I won't find a partner?

>>35082033
Why didn't you make the thread we were waiting on

>>35082941
Obviously not.
It means that you wait until it is finally time.
Semen retention works. It drives you crazy. It motivates you to find a partner and it changes your scent.

Stop watching porn. The porn industry pushes incest to destroy the nuclear family. You know this shit does not originate internally, but externally from your masturbatory habits.

>>35085052
Thank you Anon, you are right. Just two more questions

1. I can't do semen retention for more than 7 days in a row, any advice on how to actually succeed?

2. Do you have any advice on how to find a good partner? How honest should I be with her about this kind of issue?

>>35084138

I actually did make a thread, but the image was off topic. I got a warning and I've been too tired to try again yet.

>>35081923
You can't get rid of a fetish. The best you can hope for is not to make it worse by feeding it. If you stop thinking about it and stop jerking off to it - completely - that will at least stop it from progressing.

>>35085721
I am willing to do that as it's my only option but what do I do after that? I tried having sex multiple times and I had to rely on my fantasies, will quitting make me feel aroused by regular sex without relying on fantasies or do I have to accept that it won't be possible and forget about having a partner? I will quit regardless, I caused this and it's the right thing to do but I don't know what lies ahead

>>35085408
I'm not the same anon but for the first problem you may want to progressively lower the amount of times you jerk off each week. It will help your brain get used to it.

>>35085052
>semen retention works
>it drives you crazy
It sure does! Look at all the priests raping children! Celibacy for the win!