Hey guys. I'd really appreciate prayers or advice regarding how to heal my sexual broken-ness. I was asked to make a thread concerning something I'm trying to quit. I rub off to stories about people (preferably women) with the stomach bug. I know this fetish is nasty, unsustainable, and probably unsafe to some degree. I am a switch in the BDSM world and interested in plenty of other kinks. I'd love to explore sadistic fantasies that don't involve farts, vomit, gurgling, etc. One of you asked about my childhood. I'm open to answering specific questions about it. I've had some odd experiences with other kids involving the stomach bug. Maybe that's where the fetish came from? I'm afraid to tell my therapist about the stomach bug element to my fixation. She thinks I just want to eat too much with someone, then puke on each other or something. I also never brought up farts. For whatever reason, it's too tender and shameful to explain to her in entirety even though we've been working together for years. I guess because it reminds me of "bug chasers" (people who seek HIV) to some extent? I know the stomach bug goes away, but what if the psychology is similar? I shouldn't be getting off on something like this. Help me be a tad less gross and unhinged, please. I tried asking God to remove my fetish but he didn't yet.
>I tried asking God to remove my fetish but he didn't yet.Brother, are you for real? Anyway, your fetish is viscerally disgusting but not all that odd nor is it something to feel guilty about. Sounds like you picked it up pre -puberty and it's one of those weird non-sexual sexual things. I have a similar thing and the psychology sounds exactly the same. It's not at all like gays bug-chasing and your shouldn't compare your fetish to something like that, it's not a fucking identity or lifestyle. Couple questions:-Does it impede normal sex? My thing is such that I never jerk off to people having sex, but it also doesn't interfere with having a normal sex life with my wife.-Can you enjoy it as a fantasy? You could probably roleplay a lot of what you like about it without getting especially unhygenic.-Why are you trying to explore other kinks? Don't do that, don't make yourself into a depraved sex weirdo, just enjoy your dumb fetish for what it is.
>>35085872>a switch in the BDSM world and interested in plenty of other kinks. I'd love to explore sadistic fantasies that Why are you trying to heal your sexual broken-ness by being even more sexually brokenWhat part of these stomach bug stories do you find so arousing? Sadistic pleasure from other people in physical pain, or in mental pain (humiliation from all the involuntary bodily goopiness)?
>>35087206I don't consider it "sexual brokenness" to explore kinks that aren't unsanitary. I hate that I get off on stomach bug stories because what if it escalates to me trying to get with someone who actually has it? It's rare, but the stomach bug can cause lasting harm and long term complications like gastroparesis. It also puts other non consenting individuals at risk if someone involved in the play doesn't isolate correctly. I should not fetishize or glorify something that can ruin someone's life. I guess I like how real, raw, and uncontrollable it is. I usually can't even squirt properly because I have so many mental blocks around "surrender" and "letting go." It sucks. At first thought, I suppose it's the mental humiliation that I enjoy the most. The vulnerability is hot.
>>35088865Instead of exploring "kinks" you should be meeting new people and finding a partner and relationship. This other stuff is just glorified masturbation. Sure you can indulge in it but you lose in other lanes of life that actually matter because you spent so much time on glorified masturbation you lose time in other things that actually matter. Unless you get a partner in the end? But is that the quality of partner you want? Someone who wants to shit and puke and vomit and cry because they don't value themselvesIn the end you're just procrastinating and avoiding the hard bit of confronting you're own low self worth and the humiliation aspect is a way to cope and feel better and safer. Literally just stop indulging in escapism and start tackling what you're avoiding head on
>>35089028I agree. I got really involved in kink in my 20s and that was how I had to survive. I should focus on more wholesome things. Maybe even celibacy for a while.
>>35090800That and goals like what do you wanna do for the rest of your life, and what are you avoiding confronting
