As a child I lived in fear of my paternal grandfather, he was a very violent man and quick to anger. He was unsightly and not easy on the eyes. I would always refuse to go to him or be held by him. I did not enjoy looking at him. As I have grown older I become more aware of his features and how they are manifesting on ny own face, more so than even my father's features. I now wear the face of the man who terrified me as a child. As I grow older I will continue to age into his face. The face of a withered miserable old man. I cannot stand this. The face I see in the mirror just does not line up at all with how I feel internally. The face I see in photos, that just isn't me. I'm not that person, that's someone else not me. I fear I will never make peace with this. Is it possible to ever accept that you just weren't meant to be anything at all?
boo hoo nigga put a mask on
>>35088023u came to reedem your grandfather, let that sink in and seek christ.
>>35088023Try smiling in the mirror. A nice, genuine smile.
>>35088089okay>>35088512I look fucking disgusting no matter what expression I make.
>>35088952i think i look horrible too mostly just because of my features and i think you just gotta ask yourself like. why do i even care? for me it’s upsetting to look at myself but i never plan on getting a girlfriend or anything so i have no reason to stress about something i don’t have control over. people have always poked fun at the way i look, even my closest buddies, but i know i can still be (and am) loved and cherished by people around me for who i am and not how i look. it also helps if set your mind on the eternal dude, appearances are so meaningless in the grand scheme of things and Christ will never stop loving you. i can’t say i’ve truly made peace with it either because i still feel revolted every time i look at myself but i hope you’ll learn it’s just a fleeting feeling and there’s no legitimate reason to let it have an effect on you beyond that initial reaction you have
>>35088023In your past lives the roles were probably reversed and you held him in some kind of bondage. Now the roles are reversed and you owe him a karmic debt of confinement. Or something along those lines.
>>35089189>for me it’s upsetting to look at myself but i never plan on getting a girlfriend or anythingBut I do not want to be alone for the rest of my days on this earth... I want someone to have and hold, I want to love and be loved...
>>35088023as much as you may come to resemble your grandfather do factor into account the fact that you are not him and quit your bitching already>i don't like my facewell you're stuck with it so get over it bitch
