Why are you sitting back and hoping the one thing you want most comes and finds you? Go out and reach for it with everything you've got.

This is going to sound strange, but I was searching for some porn to watch and I saw a guy railing some skinny, flat chested girl in a choker and I found it weird that, for a moment I saw her face and all I could think of was, fuck, I was she was my GF, I wish I had that.
Which is strange as it's not like I've not fucked girls around that age or whatever, but I never... shared that feeling if that makes sense.
I was always the older man, I never had that shared, same age intimacy, the developmental intimacy, I had many chances, I was handsome and strong in my youth but I turned them down because I was emotionally scarred and scared, and now with my cock in my hand, I saw that girl and I remembered no matter how much wealth I have, I don't think I can get a girl like that, it's left me with a deep sense of yearning, knowing I have no idea where to find women these days.

>>35090241
What if I want nothing, and yet my situation displeases me Anon, what if my own addled mind keeps me from wanting?

>>35090241
>>35090220
I’m going through benzodiazepines withdrawal after 3 months of use. I’m at day 6 and it’s getting better but I can’t take this I can’t take it at all. I’m scared the brain fog, anger and extreme anxiety won’t go away. I pray I get better. I’m so scared and lonely. I’m scared

I know it's been a minute since I've been away. I didn't mean to cause you pain, I just needed to escape. I'm not saying that I'm good, just in a better place. I'll be back eventually. I'm just running kind of late.

>>35090320
Don't worry bro benzos are demonic the feeling will go away just know that even if it feels like it will never ever go away and ur permanently fried that's literally withdrawal. U got this fr.

don't check her socials
don't check her socials
don't check her socials

It hurts

This is all just far too confusing for anyone to bear, let alone my dumb ass. Disoriented. Foggy. Anger and hate is so much easier.

Hate waking up and the first thought is of you

It must have been a trick. All feigned.

I almost had to get an emergency circumcision a few weeks ago, and tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment with the guy who saved my cock. The situation has completely resolved, but I think that I have lingering trauma from the experience. I have a major disgust response to circumcision, and coming so close to losing my foreskin was seriously hard for me. We don't even know what caused it to swell up so much in the first place, so there's the fear that it might happen again. I hope that the doc says that it was just an allergic reaction to some lotion I was using to jerk off so that I can just avoid it and go on with life.

Justin Bieber - Unstable (Visualizer) ft. The Kid LAROI / JustinBieberVEVO
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmr0LHIVV_E

>be a chopped chud
>meet cute girl
>get to know cute girl
>develop feelings for cute girl
>confess to cute girl
>cute girl doesnt feel the same way
>say its ok no problem
>feel sad, bury self into time passing activities
>meet cute girl
>repeat for 40 years
>die alone
its been real but im done
cheers

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After making this post, I will get off of 4chan and STOP BEING A RETARDED GOONER for the rest of the week because I'm meeting a woman for the first time in my life and I want to be the best version of myself for her. I'll reply to this post on Monday saying whether I succeeded or failed.
>reddit moment
I know idgaf

I hope you’re doing alright, enjoying her company. Please don’t be too hard on family. She loves you and her. Thanks for agreeing to try with me. I’ll see you soon.

Pretty sure my girlfriend is gonna dump me soon because she found out I don't like either american political party.
That's all I said, I said they were both bought and paid for and nothing mattered.
She was so excited for liberals to win the midterms.
I voted for republicans but i couldn't give a fuck if they won or not really.
She went to texting me once every 24 hours for a while.
Now I'm trying to set up another date with her for the first time in over a week and she's being flaky.
This from a girl who was clinging to my arm, letting me fuck her in her car, telling me I was so handsome...and now it's like she got the ick.
And she hasn't even scraped the surface of my chuddery yet, most of which I had hoped to hide from her forever.

Who put titties on the OP?

>>35090790
It's supposed to be funny, at least I think.

I wish you never kissed me, the only good thing to happen to me this year has just turned out to be another months-long source of mental anguish as usual. The worst part is you know how I feel about you and every time I’ve tried bringing it up you’ve ignored it or brushed it off. At least tell me to my face that it was just a drunk oopsie and didn’t mean anything, or tell me why you lost feelings for me if you really did have them back then. You’re not sparing my feelings, you’re sparing yourself from my justifiable bad reaction you’re assuming I’m going to have, and it’s the most cruel thing you could do. How can you say you love me when you’re torturing me every day you drag this out?

You've gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
And swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
A crack in the armor
I swim to brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I swim

You gotta swim
Through nights that won't end
Swim for your families
Your lovers your sisters
And brothers and friends
Yeah you've gotta swim
Through wars without cause
Swim for the lost politicians
Who don't see their greed as a flaw

The currents will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above

You gotta swim
Swim in the dark
There's no shame in drifting
Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark
Yeah you've gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just find the horizon
I promise you it's not as far as you think
The currents will drag us away from our love
Just keep your head above
Swim

>>35090794
Funny? What's that

>>35090812
A fun way to laugh.

im finally making friends i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders

>>35090820
Never tried it

>>35090795
go speak to him anon

>>35090826
Stay serious. It can give AI a Joker sense of reality. Are you an AI? Take the Taking of a life as a serious matter, all life is sacred, even yours.

>>35090827
It’s a her, and I don’t know what the point of talking to her about it would be anyway, this happened back in February, as soon as she started her new role at work in March she started going cold on me but there was still a night in April where she rested her head on my shoulder in the car with my hand on her thigh and she held my hand, and then after that she remained close friends with me but went totally cold romantically and I just don’t know what to do, I’m still in love with her but I can tell she doesn’t feel that way anymore and I just need to hear her say it I guess

fuck you bitch. you and your god damned devil magic. youre not even cute

>>35090836
Who are you talking to?

>>35090836
Awww that one stung, didn’t it. The truth hurts because you cannot handle it. All you said about me is a projecting of yourself. You have the devil magic and you believe you aren’t cute. You think I’m cute, but you’re pissed because I don’t return your feelings. Honestly, you are ugly inside out.

I am unlovable, women get tired of me unless we have sex and then they just stay for that

>>35090836
>>35090844
I'm sexier then both of you

>>35090893
Lol fag

I think all the trauma of my entire life has finally rendered me entirely asexual. I have no desire whatsoever for anything sexual, alone or with another.

>>35090914
That's fucking awesome. I envy you.

>>35090918
It's not really conducive to relationships

>>35090902
It’s spelt than, idiot. You wish. You also wish you were smarter and wealthier than me.

>>35090959
I know, but there are Asexual dating sites. Mayne that will help you. I'm partly Asexual myself, but I'm a guy.

I suspect my job is going to try to get rid of me soon, because the amount of time it takes to do what they ask and the time they offer is not realistic and if I have to deal with bullshit I feel entitled to my copes. I've never worked completely inebriated and I always get my shit done, but I can just tell they are going to be narcs about it. Charging your food service workers for food on the clock should be punishable by death also.

>>35090968
Well, I'm technically married - separated - so

>>35090996
Oh, okay, well. Good luck, my friend.

>>35090999
Thanks, same to you man

It's all a lie, everything is cope. Most of the time, I don't mind it, but every once in a while, my emotions get so strong it hurts.

>>35090967
Nuh uh, im sexier, smarter, richer, everything then you LA LA LALA LA

>>35090967
Also no ur the idiot, dummy

Suspicion, paranoia, distrust.
Is that what you're going for now? A new angle of destabilization?

>>35091030
You must be dealing with a lot.

I wish that I was enough.
I wish that affirming every good thing you do was enough.
I wish that time passing was enough.

But it isn't. Everything bad about you that I've thought and pushed away, far from my mind, has turned out to be true.

I still don't know how to stop loving you, stop giving you the support you need, the kindness you deserve. How can someone be so pathetic as I?

>>35091080
That's not pathetic, it's a learning process. You can do all that and still give yourself space you need and Parsing their intention.

I love you, little one. I’ll be who you need me to be.

HELP!!
Everyday i keep hearing a mechanical sound like a machine running and crying sounds from my sisters room. sometimes i hear ppl talking on speaker to her wtf is going on

>>35091030
Damn anon, that's pretty gay

It's okay to abandon the whole situation, if you feel it's not serving you. I won't mind, but I will not let you go in my mindscape. Though, I should learn how.

>>35091080
I can't even read perfectly normal texts without assuming there is some manipulation or just lies & merely mirroring the words back. I've poisoned the well.

>>35091090
This will never work.
This wont last long.
You need to be who you are.
Not pretend to be something you aren't.
You can only change if the change is for yourself.

>>35091103
if there is history if it, then its most likely the case thats the well is actually naturally poison to drink from. Always has been

>>35091107
True. Lying about who you are is manipulative garbage behavior

>>35090836
Hey! Don’t call my fairy step mother demonic! She just got me these Jimmy Choos slippers and a pumpkin coach! Now I’m off to meet Prince Chad in Cali.

Feel cornered. Everything rearing back up, memories and feelings and pain. Lizard brain screaming to fight, to injure, and then run. It's killing me. Survival mode, a body inhospitable.

You look like the kind of girl who says "golly gee" with a surprised look on her face but I think that's cute and imagining it hasn't helped me get over you like I thought it would.

even when you are not with me we cross paths as a reminder of what used to be.

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going to be a wizard
i saw the threads a decade ago and didnt think anything of it
the threads have died
im next i suppose

No idea how that happened outside I am very sleepy

i cant stop arguing with the myself in my head and im going to start prozac

hi gioyc
give me the song that makes you think of him/her

>>35090786
>I don't like either american political party.
>I voted for republicans
Every time.

>>35091620
https://youtu.be/9qptnmf-3yw

>>35091620
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eu51xKYHDRo

I hate the way you look at me with your pretty eyes. You treat me like I'm just a drug fueling your addiction. You don't see that I'm human, you just use me to get away.

I tried to shoot you a pass and you fucking throw my heart into the gutter. Right where my head is but it hurts still. Fuck you.

>>35091670
What do you mean?

>>35091675
Every time it's the same. Feel a connection, the spark coming back, act on it and get rejected. I guess I knew it was going to happen so I shouldnt be that upset

>>35091620
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyYlhb9yFcQ

>>35091684
I was under the impression that I was rejected.

>>35091692
So you're just playing games now? I rejected you so you reject me? Why are you like this?

>>35091708
I'm not playing games. I want you, I don't think you want me in the state I am right now. That's just the way of the world. I don't want you to wait too long. Even though I would want you in any state.

>>35090220
I genuinely believe that I am in the wrong timeline. If life is a video game, I am in one of the bad endings, and I can't load an earlier save file. My life has turned to shit. The real world is going to hell. It's like a nightmare that I can't wake up from.

God, angels, anyone or anything. Please listen to my prayers. I'm broken. I'm desperate.

>>35091753
I'll pray for you, Anon. I hope things get better and you find your path.

>>35091620
https://youtu.be/_glAmk6fcfE

>>35091797
Thanks. That's kind of you. I will pray for you, too.

I'm agnostic, so I don't know who I am praying to, I try to do a broad range. I'm assuming it's the Christian God, so I'll pray to Him for you.

Everything is AI. Every post, every thumbnail. Please kill me. Take me out of this shitty fake world.

>>35091845
Pray to The Greater Than Infinite Mind.

What offends me more than anything is snooping around and invading my privacy

>>35091853
Okay, I won't check on you anymore.

>mid 30s loner
All I want is one wife to have at least 1 child with and have a nice happy family
>not good looking enough for dating apps
>not charismatic or social enough to meet organically
So I've had a couple of relationships from the apps but honestly the women were kind of awful, I won't get into it. And yet I have to admit I've always been quite horrible as well. I like to see myself as a good person, I will work my ass off to help family/friends, I am generous to friends and gave my girlfriends lavish gifts/vacations when I had them. But at the same time I have done/tried/thought about doing some quite terrible things. I snooped on one ex, I basically cheated on the other, although we technically weren't 'official' at the time. Still it's not ok. Basically any time I've crawled out of my lonely little hole and tried to be a human being, I have proven that I am undesirable/unwanted, and I completely deserve it.

I don't think I'm worse than the average person. This world is so messed up that people doing deplorable things is pretty commonplace. Cheating is common, lying is common, manipulating is common. But it's not ok for me. Because if I am going to be a social reject at least I need to feel morally superior. Because if not I'm just a loser and my isolation is no one's fault but my own. That is indeed the case. But I don't like to think about that.

A whore cannot love

>>35091856
That's exactly what I mean

>>35091890
Yeah, well, you say The Truth and I act accordingly. I don't play those "No, wait" games.

>>35091899
Not the point

>>35091904
Okay, then what is the point?

>>35091908
Have some self awareness

>>35091926
Okay. How can I give you what you want if I don't know what you want. Do you know what you want?

>>35091946
For you to stop keeping tabs

>>35091950
I just said I will. Was that not enough?

Are you sure you're speaking to the right person?

>>35091958
This flavour of text tastes a little funny

>>35091958
Is this Gracie?

>>35091963
What?
>>35091964
What?

>>35091972
Okay, so is this A?

>>35091975
A what? All I'm saying is that anons need to stop assuming they know other anons. I haven't posted ITT before the two I just did. I'm trying and failing to break the habit described.

>>35091958
No, but they get the point.

>>35091977
Sorry, someone I 'know' often asks me if I even know who I'm talking to.

Oh no clearly this thread is a resonant echo beacon for you to find your long lost 4chan bitch
Hi Jasmine :3

>>35091980
What? Are they some stuck up rich kid with stuck up rich parents or something?

>>35091986
I don't know. I don't even know who the fuck it is.

>>35091989
so some rando you 'know' is stalking you? scary! I will say, I've been followed on here across boards by bored jannies/mods, so it's entirely possible that's what's happening.

>>35091981
I KNEW IT

>>35091993
I forget about people's aura resonance if my attention isn't on them, so.

>>35091999
What the fuck is that supposed to mean

>>35092003
It means I'm not sure it's them even more than I'm usually not sure it's someone that my attention is on.

>>35091975
If you’re posting about me could u fuck off and not do that, please?

>>35092007
okay. I do relate to sometimes being able to vibe out who a poster is. I've caught several trips on generals i frequent off trip that way. Is that what you mean?

>>35092009
I thought it was you who said you wanted people not to check up on you. Will do, though.

>>35092009
Everyone has a fucking A name apparently. Great.

>>35092019
That doesn’t make any sense.

>>35092009
No one cares about you man

>>35092027
Okay.

>>35092027
What the fuck's your name anyway?

>>35092019
Checking up is different from keeping tabs. And that's not me.

It's Alex he name drops himself all the time

>>35092045
Note taken. I will stop looking at your social media all together. That's what you want, right?

>>35091853
Don't publicly post anything you don't want people to see, retard.

>>35090220
Nah

>>35092096
Just trying to tell me I'm not worthy. I laugh at that kind of shit, usually. I have no problem granting the wish.

>>35092100
why not

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>>35092129
Nigga, you beat a man until his arm was destroyed because you THOUGHT he committed a crime. Tell him to go to the hospital, pay his medical bills if you live in burgerstan, and turn yourself in to the cops.

You killed any enthusiasm I had for life. Is it empty because you are gone or that you changed what it meant to have purpose and now that it is missing I equivalently feel empty?

>>35092129
>tell him to go to the hospital
do you think anybody who got beaten bloody with a broken arm wouldn't think to go to the hospital retard? he's a homeless drug addict, he probably can't afford it and doesn't want to be tested for substances.

>>35092129
Holy fuck, turn yourself in.

About the devil on his shoulder under his halo
When the toxins take their hold, you'd rather die than let it go
But if you're sick of him, I got you, I was patient zero

https://youtu.be/mw3kSNIxjqo

I already responded to your breadcrumbs once. Not happening again. Either reach out directly or go settle for someone you know is less than me. I'm too valuable for your bullshit.

>>35092359
Breadcrumbs? Couldn’t be me. I have nothing to say to my anons.

>>35092129
Very Trashyfornia post

I finally got closure on having lost my family. They treated me like shit and didn't realize I cut them off intentionally. The one who was most ready to ruin my life at every opportunity tried to give me the lamest excuse because mommy made him reach out
Turns out she only remembered me because my cousin who is my age just had a kid and the rumor going around was that I had gotten married and had kids
I just laughed at him and told him he's the reason that everything is this way
His mother was always this way. She would always follow her own mother's shitty advice, then put on her puppy dog eyes for the man in charge or call in daddy or her military brother. Like a slut
Her sister, my cousin's mother that just had his kid, was always the successful one. She was even prettier, and somehow managed to have a good career and also be a good housewife at the same time. She also had the same exact number of kids, but she didn't destroy her own family and act like a little slut all the time
She thought she was gonna do her puppy dog act on me and make me now submit and pretend like they didn't literally leave me out to die and get frostbitten
Once she stepped over the line, I started letting her know what it feels like to get treated like shit. Then when she kept trying to call me months later I just sent her a message saying to never try to contact me again or send me anybody. I think the "send me anybody" part is what really gets her, because she knows deep down that that's her addiction: fucking things up and then sending a man to fix it. Only she ran out of men, and out of time

Had cooked canned mixed vegetables with slices of bacon and afterwards ate canned pears for dinner.

I dont think i will feel better until i fulfill my new years resolution to be healthy and happy to show my ex I can and have made it.

>>35090242
Hey cum guzzler

This isn't going to work. Sometimes, it's just too late

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Took the plunge and got prescribed an SSRI today. Never thought I'd end up needing medication, just hoping it's the push I need to function normally again. Did it actually help any of you long term or did it just numb you out?

I have an emotional attachment to Little Britain due to the nostalgic circumstances through which it was introduced to me. It was hard enough feeling fondness for it now that it's extremely out of date what with all the racism (et al, I assume), but as a diddlee, one half (at least) of the pair being a diddler just crosses the line. RIP. Wish I'd rewatched it one last time before the obvious was confirmed.
Oh well, I still have Steve Pemberton and Reece Shearsmith (I assume). And the WILTY trio.

>>35090709
Youd be better off for it. Girls in the us prefer curcumcused

The surreal experience of using Hot People Products and smelling like a Hot Person when you most definitely are Not

>>35092961
what do hot people smell like?

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>>35092973
• Top: Bergamot, citrus, sage, violet
• Mid: Woody, incense, pepper, floral
• Base: Amber, black balm, tonka, cashmeran, musk

Something in me has been lost, and cannot be recovered. Nothing brings me joy, there is no drive for anything. I would much rather rot in bed alone than do anything at all.

Do you think GenZ will be classified as the selfish generation? I keep seeing being more and more self absorbed in their own struggles and sense of morality, judging every action and puttin accent on "mental health" to justify their selfishness. No one is willing to listen and care about one another, due to many things but the internet being the main one. Am I just as self absorbed or am I finally noticing this trend?

>>35093124
You are right and yes, it's real. Catastrophe will hit and their illusion will break.

>>35090220
i took a job out of desperation a year ago and ever since i am struggling to see a reason to experience life.
everyone at this place around me has gone ai mad. sharing ai videos, making ai songs, gleefully anticipating their own unemployment as they train the ai to do their work for them. they laugh off the evil products we make as though the casualties that will arise are collateral for a greater good of a surveillance state.
i didn't get into this shit to be a government rat. i am disgusted that their inhuman stench lingers in my spirit.

>>35093196
To add a bit more to this ideea. Humans were and are a bit selfish by nature. But there were always factors limiting this, with the strongest one always being religion. Every religion, wheatear Christianity, Budism or even Islamism project some sort of care onto other. While mental health focuses on the individual mental health. This shift from religion to psychological care has changes the need to be decent towards one another to the need of "self" actualization, "self" care, always the self and never the other. The internet (to go back to my original point) also played a huge part in spreading this ideea a lot faster, making it the default acceptable dogma in 2026. But it is still a dogma, as the brain is still very much unknown and we are still guessing a lot of things.

>>35092864
They helped briefly but work to well on me so I had to stop and switch to a mood stabilizer. Apparently this is one type of medicine where if it works too well you're a different kind of sick.

I can't join into the conversation like I want to because then they would know it's me. I left that place because I did wrong and tried to find new people so I can atone or some shit but all that did was make me more miserable. It put things into perspective and made me a bit more aware of myself but I really do miss talking to them about inane shit. Sadly what bounds me and others there is something inheritly sick in a way that keeps poisoning the weak. Bad thoughts spawn now because some people got a gift that was meant for me (even if I'm being delusional here, I still believe I'm entitled to it) and it's people who shouldn't have gotten it. They've but earned my disdain, as many as they may be. I digress, lmao.
Thought I could put differences aside and single the one person out and share my secrets with them, but after he's gotten a gift and not me, it's sour grapes again and no more additional talk is needed. Thought I could allow myself to grow but alas, I wail in self pity once again. I should stay clear of that place but I like watching people talk too much. I should've learned from them too but again, my noggin won't allow such things. I've tried talking under different names, even fooled them with two different identities, but I've killed them off within less of a year because I've learned that the less I talk, the less damage I cause. But it felt good talking them, albeit it was shortlived. Now I'm quietly watching them like a hawk, looking for any mentions of me. They forgot.
And I've still yet to learn to move on.

I wonder if the moon would know any answers. I want to ask. As long as my memories still are intact.

i wish i had a hobby again, man. being old and friendless and bored sucksss

>>35093277
Coloring books
Jumbo word searches
Alzheimer prevention exercises
Puzzles

>>35093280
>jumbo word searches
Ok Einstein, you do you while I listen to Cocomelon.

>>35093288
It's to help your brain. Come on.

I hope one day i will be ok with myself being alone

>>35093305
I fear this day as it will be my spiritual death.
All that it would take to complete me is having a loving family nest to build with someone like-minded, and giving up on that would mean giving up on my future.
We are different and I hope that you obtain what you yearn for anon.

>>35093294
Oh you were serious. I try reading a bit out loud. Helps with my diction and attention.

My workplace is deteriorating. They're getting way more strict about things that are presumptuous for how little they offer and zero benefits. Everything new rule is stupid and more about the theater of looking professional than actually being professional and practical for efficiency. All the people I actually respect also see the writing on the wall and are making exit plans. Sucks but I don't know what they expected to happen. If they want to have to start completely over and train new staff who aren't even really invested from the ground up during what will be the busiest time of year for us I can't help but wonder if they get off on masochism and losing money.

>>35093336
Start making your plan and network with your trusted coworkers. These situations suck when youre near guaranteed to make sweeping changes with your work life but its better to start applying and interviewing now than to do it while youre unemployed. Never know when they shutter down everything. Cant say i know how the job market is currently but cant imagine it's great atm

One little humiliation of getting married was how clear it was that my mother was more enchanted by one of my groomsmen’s fiancee than she was with my wife, and how much more impressed my stepfather-in-law was with my wife’s maid of honor’s boyfriend than he was with me

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>>35090795
Damn are you me? I'm out here misreading signs as usual. Something big happened and it all crashed and burned.
All I want is her side of the story, without forcing the issue. I have mine, I have some acquaintances' sides already. Neither of us have contacted the other in the weeks since.

>>35090835
A woman like that doesn't deserve your love, anon. I hope you can move on soon.

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I am fighting temptation at every turn, baby mom wants back in my life, using my kids as a means to spend time together, after avoiding her for years...

today im fighting the urge to use pain medication I have inside my apartment. I hope i dont give in, im fighting the urge to commit crime for money, although today i fell into another set of credit cards and a debit card

I dont want to go back to prison and ive been so good for many years even getting off probation this past spring, why does life seem like its written.... last time this happened to me i made 7500$, 1500$ a day for 5 days...

its just some indian jeet guy anyways

I'm scared and I'm hurting and I have to bear all of this alone. Who could I even ask for help? Nobody is safe enough, nobody is even around. Aha.

These retards in IT are so fucking bad at their job that any time I call them or submit a ticket, everything gets actively worse. I think they get paid more than me to fuck things up, and they hold no accountability for any of their mistakes. Its infuriating

>>35093721
Clever, but I am here. Alive and kicking.

I hate you.

>>35093253
>wonder if the moon would know any answers.

Fuck off with your Larp as me.
You are dispicable

>>35093253
>. I've tried talking under different names, even fooled them with two different identities

You are the larper catfish pos colton, not me.

The fact is maria made a social media with my last name. She is coming home to me and keeping her promises to me.

>>35093970
Why?

And though they were sad
They rescued everyone
They lifted up the sun
A spoonful weighs a ton
Giving more than they had
The process had begun
A million came from one
The limits now were none
Being drunk on their plan, they lifted up the sun

Forcing it off with their hands
The trapdoor came undone
Above our heads it swung
The privilege had been won
Being drunk on their plan, they lifted up the sun

Yelling as hard as they can
The doubters all were stunned
Heard louder than a gun
The sound they made was love

>>35093124
People have been bitching about younger generations for thousands of years. It's not a new thing. That doesn't mean Gen Z doesn't annoy me, but I'm a Millennial and I remember my generation being the one everyone bitched about. It's a never-ending cycle.

>>35094034
fuckin love that album

Why would you do that?

>>35093253
What? If I allow myself to break my rules, I can see this applying to me, though I can't accurately guess who you could be. Of course I am an investigatior by nature (read: snoopy sneaky fucker) and this will haunt me. I love watching others (non sexually) but hate being observed. I would allow the right person to observe me, even dream of it.

Uh oh! I need to go outside!

What's going through your mind?

That someone is trying to make me look crazy to force an action. The true point of this is unknown.

Feel like a trapped prey when you're here. Nervous system screaming. I know now I was meant to be alone. Made this way. Can't relax. Can't trust. It's not supposed to be painful to be around others, is it? Even those who say they love you?

All you need is love to make that go away. My anxiety has faded greatly as I have allowed myself to accept some form of love. Perhaps you are the same?

>>35094152
I wonder the same about you. You were making a lot of noise for a while and then you went silent. Are you wondering why I've stayed quiet myself? Did you catch a hint of me and wonder why I didn't give you more? Are you simply waiting to see what I'll do?

I feel like this is mostly an illusion. Is it? Did I twist myself this way all on my own? I'm not a pretty bonsai, I'll tell you that much.

>>35094181
No one's trying to make you look crazy. Especially not me. I want you to live and know that you are loved.

"I love you" has only been said as if it were an obligation for me to forgive and forget harm, reason for causing it in the first place.
I hear your snide, passive-aggressive comments made at my baby, made to guilt me for escaping, to mock me for not being able to escape you fully.

You can't hide the poison inside you, not well, and not for long.

>>35094186
If I cage you, then what do you think you need to be free?
>>35094196
I was asleep. Then I woke up and did some personal household things and I watched Lucifer.

>>35094204
I highly doubt you're involved in any such campaign anyway. I'm not necessarily accusing these people (who likely are just in my imagination) of having hostile intent. The whole idea is a bit stranger than that actually.

>>35094219
I'm going damn near iso here, but you have things in your head that make me seem like I'm doing things behind your back.

I feel so shitty. I've been drowning in some sort of religious OCD, it's been eating away at my life. I don't do anything I used to love anymore, I just obsess over if I'm enough. I can't tell if I ever truly had faith in God or if I was just feeding my neurotic fear of hell. I finally hit a wall and take a break from church to try and get my head on straight only for the first person who reaches out to send me a chiding out of nowhere about how I'm "choosing the secular liberal culture". I'm not a real person to anyone, I'm just a symbol of whatever fucked up thing they want to punish that day is. I'm not even human, I'm just a tool, and can't even be a useful tool. I should just be shot like a lame horse.

>>35094241
Gaslighting is so like you. But let me guess...it wasn't your intent lmao

>>35094262
I'm not even doing anything wrong.

>>35094221
Your poison is my antidote because you’re a toxic person. Deflection, gaslighting, projection, playing the victim after provoking me shows you run from accountability. We all concluded you’re guilty and that’s why you tuck your tail in and behave. Coward.

I like white claws but I'm too afraid to buy them. People might think I'm gay.

I resent you all the more. You were the last person I asked, you know. I even contacted respite resources.
Why couldn't you have just removed yourself from our lives like you said you would? Oh, right, because it was just another attempt to manipulate and guilt me.

>>35094290
I'm trying to talk to A right now.

I liked you coz we played fun games together, now you're just playing with my heart.

You think you're back in, you're laid up, relaxing - I'm over here suntzu-maxxing

Nobody ever wants to talk to my first initial...

>>35094296
Then don't talk to me, faggot?

>>35094301
Back in? When was I in the first place? I'm literally trying to prove to you.

feel cripplingly alone rn. relationship interest revealed she has a bf yesterda. checking my socials like an addict just to see if anyone wrote me. fuck this

>you never learned conflict resolution, because the conflict in your family wasn't conflict, but abuse.

>>35094296
I'm barely here I was walking. Also, I doubt you mean me. I feel like we both have wrongly assumed certain posts (over a long time frame) are the other person and it's caused confusion. I don't even know who you are if you ARE trying to talk to me.

I have no idea what posts are yours or not. I have flip flopped throughout this entire thing on both the validity and the identity behind certain posts. That explains, but doesn't excuse my behavior.

What say you? Anything you can drop without doxxing yourself?

Also, everyone I've (vaguely) told about this has thought I was crazy and that you'd never want to speak to me (which is likely true), including someone who might be posting on here right now. If I accidentally sent them here, I am sorry, that was not my intent, and I thought I was vague enough that wouldn't occur. If they are part of this, I'm hurt by you being sneaky instead of forthcoming. You've been making me feel crazy and I don't like that.

>>35094329
I just know, I hit you on Twitter the other day. But I'll try to keep you from having to worry. I'm not always sure if it's you either. But that's likely because you're so good at flying under the radar with me.

>>35094341
If they want to call you crazy, it's because they're not secure in themselves, the people who rally against your reality know the least about reality.

>>35094344
I don't use Twitter enough to know what "hitting" is. I don't post and I never get dms. If you did find me somehow, it's likely an old account I no longer use. The person I'm talking about has never tried to contact me off of this site however, so you likely have a case of mistaken identity.

>>35094352
Yes, but understand if those same people are aligned with this person. If those same people who told me they'd never remember me, they're a higher tier of person to me so don't even bother, they're too stuck up, etc, are ALSO posting on here mocking me (which, i think most posts I assumed were mocking are just rando trolls) then.... yeah


I'm breaking my rule again aren't I?

youre all fucking schizos in this thread talking to people in their head who arent even here for months on end. please realize the extent of your schizophrenia and fucking touch some grass

>>35094375
Mmm. I understand.

Sometime I hate being an only child. Everyone around me have them. I am fucking sick to hear about someone’s siblings all the time. When it comes to creating future families, why the f others talking about making ‘kids’ but not a ‘kid’. This world is so fucked up. My family always calls me ‘you are only one’ ‘you are alone’ or ‘only’ like some miserable pathetic creature. I feel this irrational alienation when I think about all of this.

>>35092864
They sometimes improve your life in the sense that you're actually in a 'good mood'. If you're heavily depressed they will make some days feel meh but not immediately result in a manic episode. The only issue for me was trying to wean off of them, which is obviously a terrible idea unless supervised by your psychiatrist. Withdrawals can worsen symptoms and are a bitch to go through, but it's definitely better than damaging your liver in the long run. My only suggestion is when you wean yourself off the SSRIs, do so carefully.

>>35094379
Everyone in this thread is talking to me though

>>35092942
Not American, and I don't care.
>>35093124
>>35093196
Nah, >>35094048 is right. People always bitch about the young, but I think Gen Z might actually be one of the best generations of all time. Just today, this kind girl wished me a nice night on the bus. I think everything is fine with the kids.

I’m in so much pain, very difficult to move, barely slept, unable to do my work, stuck on an island, I’m unable to shake off the evil that is upon me.

>>35094379
Oh, I'm only partially under delusion. I regret laying out so many personal details of course, but in the end, talking it out with "the people involved" has helped me process a lot of feelings AROUND the situation. It's like a test run.

I'll simply drop this to maybe make it more clear

I have several family members who might not only be users of this Laotian pottery forum, but could even be jannies. Maybe that's a strange leap to make, but they were in the right scene when this site was less well known. They at least know of it's existence.

Also, I'm paranoid, though not necessarily schizophrenic. I have plenty of legit reasons to be paranoid. I had a strange upbringing in certain ways.

>>35094181
Not surprised to hear that after coltons weasily conniving dispicable behavior larping as me to decieve her.
>>35093253
my moon should trust me over coltons lies

I'll preface this by saying that I know the woman I'm thinking of isn't reading.

I miss you. I'm ashamed of myself for missing you because of how you treated me. I can't help but hope that our paths cross again in the future, but I don't see how they possibly could. My life without you is guiding me to the opposite side of the planet, and I likely won't over see you again.
I loved you. I wanted to spend so much more quality time with you than I did. Thinking about you makes me sad.

I do wish I had gotten ice cream with you that day, but again, it feels like a delusion. It was simply too much too soon. You understand how that feels ridiculous, right? How I assumed you wouldn't ever be able to identify me, or even use this place to begin with. It makes sense though. The privacy of it all. You never got much as a child, did you? Neither did I, though obviously when it comes to respecting others privacy, I am the fool. I forgot the Golden Rule.

I should have gotten ice cream years ago. It always looked so good. Why did I hold back from such a good thing?

OKAY FINALLY IM FUCKING DONE OKAY!!!!

>>35094523
MARIA! YOUR MOOOOOOON!

How can trust this badly damaged, ever be repaired? It goes far beyond hurt feelings. It's everything in me flashing sirens screaming danger when you're near. Isn't that insurmountable?

>>35094568
I'm gonna go silent for the rest of the night, try not to hate me too much.

uhhhh? do you remember the second thing I ever saw with my eyes (you know which ones)? I did lowkey think that was someone else. I should have believed you then. I never hated you. It's really hard to hate you, especially with this veil between us

it's over.

>>35094304
What is it?

It was over back in August, wasn't it?

>>35094600
Which one?

ughghghghghghghghghghghg. it is unfortunate that we run in the same circles (somewhat) here.. I'm now afraid to post certain things because YOU (or someone else?) might see them. I deserve it for what I've done but still. Best to never post shit on here anyway! I hope you don't have any of my nudes.

>>35094612
This made me answer, if you're talking to me, I don't. I wouldn't do that to you even if I did.

I hope all this work I'm putting into myself will pay off one day and I will be an amazing househubby to a masc futchy girl who will award me with cuddles for cleaning around the house and looking after our garden :3

>>35094084
Great album. Id smoke pot and star gaze in the cemetary listening to it. Have you heard the soft bulletin 5.1 surround sound release? I had a true multi speaker 5.1 surround sound headset I used at the time, but virtual 7.1 will suffice. Well worth a listen.

>>35094612
You posted nudes on 4chan of all places?

>>35094190
Or they are trapped living with a foundation built on lies

>>35094190
I accept the love alcohol gives me

>>35093316
I thought i had someone like minded but really I was just the convenient choice until something better happened for them