I rejected someone that I befriended on the internet and now it all hurts.I've always been a very lonely and disgustingly autistic person my whole life. During the pandemic I spent 17 hours a day playing videogames pretending to be a man. During this I happened to meet my current partner, and things have been good. We moved together in real life and I'm very serious about the relationship.Recently (since roughly half a year) I have been feeling a bit more confident and started using ingame comms for competitive games.I made a very good friend this way, and despite him being 5 years younger than me (I am 24) we have connected on many different things. But there is a big caveat. With the idea/agreement of my bf I have been telling people I am lesbian to avoid any uncomfortable situations. Well, now this has lead to an even more uncomfortable situation, since this friend confessed his overwhelming love to me a few weeks ago. I feel like telling him I am actually straight would make things worse. Telling him I actually rejected him because I'm committed even more so. So I keep the lie going. Now I live knowing I basically oneshot a random kid and fucked him up for life. He drinks constantly and cries himself to sleep every night.I'm convinced this is my fault for not being honest, but at the same time things may have ended like this no matter what. We have talked several times since then, and I made him cry every single time because I basically have zero social skills and am not equipped at all to handle a situation like this. He doesn't want to leave because he is convinced things may be even worse if we break contact. I'm not sure what to make of this as I have no experience that compares.From the perspective of lonely men online. What would you do in his stead? Or in mine? He seems to see something in me that doesn't exist at all.
>>35090943He's 19. Everything feels like the end of the world when you're that age but he'll get over you soon enough.
>>35090943I feel like you should be honest, but also- it goes a long way to say that you're already in a relationship or are otherwise accounted for and that's the reason for the rejection out of purely being incompatible. I have a friend who I confessed that I have feelings for AND that I'm still having issues getting over, but she's still my friend.
block him and move on bruh it aint that deep
>>35090943cry me a river.
>>35090992fpbp
why would you tell people you're a lesbian instead of just saying you have a boyfriend? any man who keeps propositioning you after knowing you're taken would probably also harass a lesbian anyways
>>35090943He is still a stupid kid, so everything is the end of the world to him. But you two should recude contact until he gets over you and heals properly.
>>35090992>>35092816That's what I thought too, everyone thinks they are smarter when they are 19 than they actually are after all. Take it as a lesson to not hang around with teenagers I guess.>>35092173People always want to desperately know it's not them that's the problem. I have been harassed before by people in real life that figured either I'm lying about being taken, or interpret this as having a chance down the line. I feel like it's simpler to just let someone know you're physically and biologically incapable of loving them and that's it.
