i'm 18m, high school dropout, lately realized i have many symptoms of adhd and can only use a very small portion of my free time the way i want to, although it's something i've noticed happening for as long as i can remember. it's like anything that requires the slightest effort on my part is completely dependent on my brain rolling a 10% chance to hypermotivate me for a day or two. hell even things like new vidya or anime. there's so many things i want to do like learning an instrument, getting better at drawing, reading about stem topics, etc. anything i can dedicate my life to other than whatever game i turn my brain off and grind out at the moment really, but i'm completely empty most of the time with no willpower to do anything i'm not intensely obligated to. when people ask me what i do i struggle on finding what to say because i don't do much of anything. i've tried to regulate my stimulation during those high energy bursts but i just feel like they'll suddenly end either way so i can't help but indulge in whatever i've chosen to do with that time nonstop. it doesn't feel like there's any reason why they start and end. i mostly sleep 8 hours at consistent times, have started to take some moments away from the 'puter to help around the house, don't pull my pud too much, get around 10 minutes of sunlight daily, but nothing seems to change. don't really hate myself at all, i think i have incredible potential in fact, but it sucks to be stuck like this most likely forever.
>>35093575I'm 25 and I've had a lighter version of this for most of my life. You have a positive attitude, I had to fix a lot of internal issues over the years. My advice is about work but it equally applies to hobbies.People like you and me, we do have a lot of potential. We do well under stress, but we do poorly under pressure.When there's no plan for what's next, we can meet with people, work out, play video games and study, and stress feels like a healthy opportunity to unfold our potential.But you probably have something in the back of your mind like everyone else does, you probably have something that makes your life feel like an unskippable cutscene 3 months in advance.The only way to live this modern life is to keep a calendar, keep it simple but make it big enough, paste it on your wall and note your deadlines regularly.Every day when you get up, get to work, make a slow, steady effort and invest the time, because you do have the time. The pressure and boredom just make it unbearable.Put your pressure into perspective, you don't benefit from taking things too seriously and your family still loves you. The boredom sucks but you just have to hang in there, the routine becomes a habit if you do it every day you can, whatever "it" is.Forget about high energy bursts, they will give you the illusion that one day you will do everything in one minute, but even adhd meds will only make you work slowly.In fact if you take a day off you will likely be distracted for a week. I can tell you from experience that time blindness is real and that you will miss appointments.Lastly, just do it. Some important things are done once and then pay off for a long time, like printing out a big calendar. So if you feel even a little bit of energy, seize the moment.
Get a job you bumOr take meth so you can goon even harder
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