>Be me, complete autist diagnosed at a very early age>Struggle with making friends my entire life, but found a handful of rare occasions where I did make a genuine friend>But had to leave said friends every few years thanks to the military brat lifestyle of moving around>But for the most part up until freshmen year of HS, I was obnoxious and stupidly thought "making people laugh made me their friends" even though they were probably laughing at me a large portion of the time>Eventually find this one friend in Highschool whose company was so nice that it made me look forward to going to school every day>Constantly talk throughout our lunch period and even had some school clubs together>Eventually I have to move away across the country and I say goodbye>After the move, I text him saying how different the state is>Only to find out he blocked me, and learn from a seperate friend that he never really liked me>3/4rd of my time in highschool was now tainted with a false sense of happiness with this person>Now i'm 25>Still get dreams about either being back in highschool and meeting him or encountering him and the friend group as an adult and being completely rejected and ignored like they don't know me>Doubt if the friends I have of now are really my friend at all or if they are just pretending to be my friend for some reasonWhat should I do? How do I move past this and not let it interfere with my life
Friends are useless find a gf to have kids with otherwise find other friends who decided no kids
