Next week I'll be 22 and I haven't dated or done much of anything in life. The crux of my problem is that while I am not entirely unhappy, I feel like I am wasting my life.Having a boyfriend is something I wished deeply for but I don't think it's meant to be. Money and height is of no importance to me but rather being able to operate on the same wavelength and share the same understanding, however after spending almost a year looking I don't think that kind of person is around. Same for having friends in general. My fault for being so uptight and narrow with what I want, but I would rather be on my own than around people I don't even like for the sake of having friends. I do have a lot of creative hobbies that I enjoy and spend most of my time working on those, so I'm not spending my time aimlessly scrolling, but isn't it a waste? I'm not depressed by any means, I don't feel like I feel lonely or yearn for intimacy, but I do feel immense regret and longing for the kind of life I wanted where those kinds of people just like me did exist and we could connect, spend time together, so forth. I try to push away the feeling by telling myself nobody can have the kind of life or people in it that they wanted and it's an unrealistic fantasy, but it does feel like both accepting a reduced quality of living and that I'm still holding onto a bit of hope that, since it's theoretically not impossible, I and waiting for my real life to start. Anyway. Youth's gone and nothing happened. I was spoiled growing up by movies and other media that I've held onto those childish fantasies for too long. What I'm trying to say is I just struggle to accept that this is who I am and what my life will be, much unlike what I had hoped for. Is there any way to come to terms with it?
Its real. Incredibly Rare, but real.God will help guide you if you are ready to hear him. >I'll always love you and care about you >No matter what >You mean so much >Yes >You complete me >I complete you >I love you more >You are the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me If you want, you can lay down, close your eyes, and live in that with me You can wear my shirt >I'm crying because I need you this argument is temporary but I'll always have that empty part needing you >I am your home too I need you too We make each other whole I was thinking about that earlier No one has ever accepted me the way you do >You are perfect The best you can do is be there for me in your way >That's good to hear I love you >Lot >You make things better >Even when you aren't here, you do so much>You are the only thing that matters now >It's been like that for so long >Nothing will ever change that I want every part of you I need your touch I love you >I hope I dream of you tonight >I love you
>>35096410Life is not going to come to you. If there is anything missing in your life that you want, you have to go out and look for it.
>>35096468 its her move. It takes 2 to tango. Ill do what I can when i can. I also have faith in God and his timing god always keeps his promises, he's not fickle
>>35096430>>35096484Ok>>35096468You're right but I've tried looking for what I want, found it isn't out there and now I need to learn how to accept things as they are.
>>35096410No man will ever love you fucking ugly bitch, kys immediately
>>35097065Meditation can free u from the mental pain of constructing narrative upon narrative for yourself. Not everyone has the will to learn that though. If you follow the path of yoga it will give you similar effects while also making u flexible af and ur future partner will appreciate that as well. Training your focus has profound effects on your life which is what the majority of meditation is until you get to pointing instructions and ways to peer into non duality which I certainly haven't experienced in any capacity but I have experienced that my thoughts in my head that once ruled my entire life now are background noise they are of the brain. They are meaningless to me. But you cannot just logically think yourself into this state. It's like a high you need to meditate or do another practice like yoga to understand this.
>>35096430I don't really understand what this is but it feels sincere and for that I fuck with it
>>35097208My discord with my love. >sincere As honest, vulnerable, sincere, clear as it gets. A taste of my heaven.
